“Jacob I think...I think we need, um, to stop seeing each other.”

“Why? Why the fuck would you say that? We are not breaking up! If we do, I ‘ll kill myself.”

“No Jacob you won’t. Just stop.”

“Yes I will, Gee I need you. I can’t live without you. I love you. Please Gee, I will kill myself.”

“Just stop Jacob! Its not working! This, what we have here isn’t good. You hit me, you, you tell me no one loves me. Its not healthy. I’m sorry Jacob, but I just can’t anymore. You’ll find someone ten times better. Someone who isn’t such of a fuck up like me. Trust me, I’m not worth taking your life over. You’re not going to do this, you’re going to leave me alone, and live your life.”

“Don’t fucking leave me Gerard!”

“Stop crying Jacob, I’m not worth it.”

“You’re fucking right, you’re a worthless piece of shit that no one loves. Who would ever love a slut like you huh? I bet you’re going to leave and go have some guy fuck you! I don’t know how I ever put up with such a filthy whore like you! You wouldn’t even let me fuck you.”

“Stop, please just stop!!”

“How many guys Gerard? Ten? Twenty?”

“Stop! No just stop! none! NO one!”

“Fuckin liar. Can’t you tell the truth ever Gerard? Maybe, if I beat you then you wouldn’t lie!!”

“Stop fucking stop!!! Stay away from me!”

“Why Gerard? I’m just going to slap the shit out of you. Just like they do! What’s your problem Gerard?”

“Gerard, Hey! wake up! Wake up!! Please!!” Jacob began to fade away, though the malice in his eyes stayed burned in my head.

I looked to see Frank next to me looking concerned.

“You fucking left me.” I said my voice rough. He looked down ashamed.

“I’m sorry Gee I-”

“Don’t! Don’t fucking call me Gee! You don’t know me! And you fucking brought me to that fucking place, so dont say you're fucking sorry.” I felt the tears that I didn’t even know I was crying, increase. I looked around and didn’t know where I was. I had to leave though, I had to get out of here the walls where just getting to close. I got up from the bed, and collapsed immediately crying out in pain. He rushed over to help me.

“Don’t fucking touch me!” I cried crawling away from him. I felt so violated and everything hurt so much, I’d never been beat this badly before. Even they didn’t do it like this.

“Let me help you Gerard. Please, you’re gonna hurt yourself more.” He said pleading, as he inched forward.

“Let me! What do you fucking care?” I screamed, and he took a step back, hurt showing all over his face.

“I need to go home, let me go home. They’ll beat me if I don’t get home.”

“What the fuck Gerard?” All the hurt disappeared from his face, and anger overtook it. I backed up further, until my back was against the wall.

“P-please, please don’t hurt me” i whimpered out, the tears never ceasing. His eyes softened and he took a step towards me and i tried to back up more. I whimpered again in fear and pain, I just needed to get away from him.

“Gerard, I’m not ever going to hurt you. I couldn’t. Seeing you in so much pain just makes me sick. I want to fix it all Gerard. I don’t want anyone to hurt you, its not right.” He crouched down in front of me and watched me. I wouldn’t look at him, and kept myself pressed as far away from him as I could.

“I’ll take you home if you want, but I need you to promise me something.” He sighed and looked away.

“I need you to promise me, that you’ll let me make this up to you.” I could feel he wasn’t looking at me so I glanced over at him. He looked utterly devastated, and a single tear rolled down his cheek before he sniffed and wiped it away.

“Lets go,” quietly he got up, and offered me a hand. I glared at him and started pushing myself up. I gritted my teeth and continued to work my way up, leaning against the wall. I took a step forward and almost face planted, as the pain was almost too much. He step forward to help me.

“Don’t you fucking dare” I snarled as his hand almost touched my arm. He withdrew it looking like a kicked puppy. I took a few more steps, each hurting more than the last. Finally the pain was too much, and I collapsed on his floor.

“That’s it Gerard I’m not going to let you hurt yourself more.” He quickly picked me up and started walking out of the room.

“Put me fucking down Frank!” I screamed trying to flail out of his grasp.

“No knock it the fuck off Gerard. I’m trying to fucking help you get home. Let me do this.” I stopped flailing, and pouted. He carried me to the car, and set me down, while opening the door. I climbed in slowly, grimacing with every movement. He made sure I was set, and even buckled my seat belt like I was a child, before he got in and started driving. I refused to look at him for a while, just staring out the window watching the world fly by.

“Why didn’t you take me to a hospital?” I asked looking at him sternly.

“I was going too, but I realized that I uh, I don’t know a thing about you. And I thought they might blame me for all this, and the cops would be called. I’m sorry.”

“Thank you.” I looked away from and out the window again.

“Wh what?” He looked at me quickly in disbelief before turning his attention back to the road. I ignored him the rest of my way home. He helped me to the door before I told him to leave. He looked like he was going to argue with me before he hung his head and walked to his car.

I got inside and collapsed against the door in tears. Everything just hurt so bad, even my heart seemed to be in pain. I know I shouldn’t be mad at Frank, I wasn’t his responsibility, I didn’t matter to him one bit. I didn’t matter to anyone. I curled up into a ball and sobbed, screaming in pain and frustration.

I wallowed in self pity before I finally dragged myself to my room, collapsing on the bed. I cried and cried, the sky started to grow darker, and the nasty sobs still wracked my chest. She came home slamming things, and I cried silently. Finally, my eyes decided to close and all I could feel as I drifted off was the pain everywhere, and the emptiness in side.

Notes

im sorry so so sorry in advance, I'm totally gonna make you guys mad...maybe? We shall see how you feel after the next chapter. kinda a spoiler maybe? I'm not going to let gee get with frankie quickly... its just not fun that way! This is still kinda a hard story to write for me. I have to be in a mood for it. Lately I have. Have you heard the song All I Want by Kodaline, because its really good and I've been listening to it on repeat. Okay nuff of my rambling, thank you so so much for reading and the lovely comments, It means a lot <3