Beyond The Filter

I glanced aound the room quickly, the whole place seemed to be ceaseing its horribe spinning and focus was returning to me. I could see Gerard clear as day though. He was sat in the chair opposite the bed of which I laid. His hair was slightly covering his eyes, but from the swollen cheeks and red patches, he was either cying or extrememly tired. A pang of guit overcame me and I tried to reach out to him. He noticed my movements and quickly looked up, wavin his hair out of his face. Gosh, somoeone needs some coffee.
"Don't move too much , it will hurt and you may fall unconcious again, so, just stay still, yeah?" Said an unfamiliar voice. I turned my head to the direction of which the voice came from and was taken aback as a huge mess of hair came into view. His afro was incredible, even I was jelous of how good it was! His face was that of a friend, someone you coud really get to know. Next to him was a bowl of water and a towel, which due to the slight dampness of my head, would of been used on me. At least I was here and not on the street. I haven't had one of those episodes for years and the one time I want to make friends, it happens again. Tears began to fill my vision and a pair of arms wrapped around me and the familiar raven hair covered my shoulder. The warm embrace filled me with something I haven't felt in a long time.
Love.
It can't be true surely?! I haven't known this boy longer than a day and already my head is swimming with uncontrollable feelings. 
"Gerard?" I whispered. He looked up and met my eyes
"I've been so worried about you, I didn't know what to do, thank god Ray-" I embraced him with all my might and he fell back a bit before hugging me back. 
"I'm just so glad you're okay," he said into my hair. 
"I'm sorry. What happened?" 
"I don't know! You shouted at me and ran out, so I took off after you and before I know it, my brother, Mikey and his friend Frank are holding you up with such confusion. We called Ray in and he took Care of you, he's the mummy of the group, just to let you know," Gerard said as Ray knocked him with his elbow. 
"Thank you so much. And you, Ray. I can't imagine what would happen if you wasn't here."
"My pleasure! Gerard was so fucking worried though." Ray said. He seemed so nice. Thank god for him. 
"Being as you be basically saved me a hospital visit, I guess you both deserve an explanation." I said wearily. 
"Only if you're sure." Gerard cautioned. 
"I'll be okay," I sat up a little and cleared my throat. "Right, just over a year ago, me and my parents were on a skiing trip, we went every year to this place. Well, everything was going well until we went down this one slope, my mum first, as she was the most experienced, then dad, and I was waiting for them to finish before I went down so that they could see me and see how I've improved." I stopped to take a breath for reassurance. Gerard put his hand on my shoulder and Ray gave me a tiny nod to encourage me. 
"And, well, mum tripped you see, fell over and smashed her head into a tree. She died instantly." tears began to trickle down my cheek. 
"Dad saw and he went into a frenzy. He lost all coordination and fell, rolling the whole way down the mountain. He was rushed to hospital and slipped into a deep coma. I stayed in that hospital with my older brother, Pete, for months on end. We finally got the news that he would never wake up, that he would stay in this state forever and we made a decision to stop it. We pulled the plug on his life support machine and he joined mum in heaven." I looked up and smiled at the image before my vision was blurred by tears. 
"Pete went into severe depression, attempting suicide multiple times screaming 'I want to be with them!' every night in his sleep. All this got to me and I did stuff that I will always regret. Mum and dad would be so disappointed in me. So I take pictures now. I capture the beautiful moments to cover up for the bad ones. That Camera that is destroyed, it was my fathers, its the only thing I got when they died as they didn't write a will. I had nothing, I lived off nothing with nobody. It was hard, but here I am now. These fits is my depression mixed with something nobody had seen before, hallucinations is the closest they can get. But they're so real. Like when I stormed out of Gerard's room, I had a 'hallucination' about... Gerard...
" I looked at him as he had tears swelling up in his eyes. 
"He was dead. Everyone I meet or want to get close to, my brain wants them dead, out of the way. It like it doesn't want to have anyone else." Gerard wiped my tears away softly and kissed my cheek.
"I'm not going anywhere, mi querida." I looked at him, taken aback a little bit, recognizing the term. What was it?
"What does that mean?" I whispered.
"It means 'My dear'" he smiled.  I smiled at the gesture, yet dreading what he doesn't know. 
"Okay then..." Ray says uneasily, with a cracking voice.
"I'll call Frank and Mikey in here to meet you... Properly." he added and she shouted their names. The door opened quickly and a short boy walked in, seemed younger than me, with mid length black hair, similar to Gerard's, with a nose and a lip ring wearing a Motörhead shirt, black skinnies and converse. He smiled at me and held out his hand. 
"My names Frank! I'm so glad you're okay, you gave us a huge scare!" he seemed nice. Slightly intimidating, but that was probably his height. 
"Thank you, I'm Crystal," I replied. I looked behind him to see another guy, similar features to Gerard, but wearing a animal skin vest shirt and black skinnies. His face was quite expressionless but you could feel some form of vibe of concern coming off him. 
"Hey, I'm Mikey, Gerard's brother. Nice to meet you, Gerard's sent some texts about you to me and honeslty-"
"OKAY! That's enough. Let's let Crystal recover. Mikey can you make us all some coffee? Please!" he begged. Mikey looked at him sharply. 
"Fine!" what was he going to say before Gerard interrupted him? 
"Right, let's get to know each other! Then we can all watch a film? You okay with that Crystal? You can stay here as long as you want, okay? He assured 
"Sounds good! Thank you so much, all of you, I'm in your dept." I smiled as Gerard patted my leg and got up to get a film from the rack. I realise, I can actually have some amazing friends here. Finally.

Notes

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