Beyond The Filter

A few hours have passed, I'm still in the same room and pretty much the whole time I've been in here, Gerard has been at my side, watching over me. I can finally say that this boy, this man is mine.
"I can't thank you enough Gee," I whispered as I softly placed my hand over his that was resting on the mattress beside me. 
"You don't have to thank me, I'm just a man, I'm not a hero. I did it because I couldn't let you go. You was too extraordinary."
"You're a fucking hero to me. You couldve just left me to rot in that hell hole, they could've come back for me, gosh they could've killed me!" I said and Gerard winched at the thought. 
"Well, you're safe and I don't plan on letting you go again for a very long time he said as he moved so he could place his hand on the side of my face as he kissed my forehead. 
"Isn't it your coffee time? You haven't had one in a few hours!" I acknowledged and Gerard's eyes lit up even more at the thought. 
"Of course! I'll make you one too yeah?" he asked
"No thanks, I think I've reached my limit. I'll stick to my water."
"You're missing out!" he winked as he disappeared out the door, leaving me in the presence of my thoughts. So much has happened so quickly. Not too quickly though. I'm just so glad I've got Gerard and for once, my brain isn't the ruler of me. This time it isn't controlling me and it hates that. My dark thoughts have become louder I've noticed. Trying to get my attention, but the fact that I have these amazing people in my life counteracts it. Thank god. I'm about to take a sip of my water when I hear the door creak and a dark shadows enters the room. Mikey. Gosh he looks terrible. His dark clothes doesn't help the fact that he is incredibly pale. He doesnt look like he has eaten in day, maybe weeks. I'm about to ask him whats the matter but he raises his palm to me. 
"Shut up, I'll do the talking." he said in quite a deep, but menacing way. 
"I don't like you. I never have. And I know you and Gerard now have a thing. But he's mine. You hear me? MINE!" he shouts yet still in a whisper. At this point I am fucking terrified. I never knew this. I haven't said anything to him to hurt him, have I?! 
"You're just going to fucking ruin him. He's my brother for fuck sake! You can't have him. You'll drag him down to your ahitty standards. Heck, he will probably try to kill himself again! But I'm saying this to you," he points at me while looking back at the door, probably checking for Gerard. 
"You can't keep my brother, and you WON'T fuck my friends. You stay away from him or else what will happen will be the end of you. Or someone close to you. I want you to disappear. Live your life alone, forever now, nobody will ever want you, you low life. Now fuck off." he ended by walking hastily out the door, shutting it gently behind him

What the fuck. I need to leave. He will do something we will all regret. He will probably fucking kill someone! I need to leave now! I get up, cautiously at first, but then faster as I realise that Gerard will be back soon. Fuck. I see the window near my bed, draw back the curtains and open it up. Cold air hits me yet again and I don't stop to consider again. I leap out the window and don't look back. Tears form in my eyes as I hurry off into the direction of nowhere. 

*Gerard's P.O.V*

After pouring out the last mug, I pick all the steaming cups of coffee and hand them out to their designated person. First Ray, then Frank and I stop for a moment until Mikey comes through the door to the living room. He looks flushed, with a glimmer of something in his eyes that I couldn't quite understand. Oh well. I put his cup down on the table and give him a quick hug. 
"I understand that I haven't been talking to you a lot lately, but things will change. Things will fall into place again. I love you bro." He looked at me, with a tear in his eye and opened his mouth to talk, to simply close it again a moment later. I wonder what he was going to say. 
"Well, I'm going to go and keep Crystal comapany. I'll see you guys in a few." the boys smiled at me, except form Mikey, I just heard a slight snigger from someone. Has someone got a problem for me to be happy?! For all I've done for them-
No. Fuck them. I'm happy for a change and it's not all about them. I follow the hallway down and open the door to Crystals room. Jesus Christ, did someone leave the fucking window open?! It's freezing in here! My eyes then registered what was going on. 

Crystal was gone

"FUCK!!!" I shout and there is a loud bang  coming from the living room. Probably the boys rushing in here. My breathing hitches and becomes heavy. Why would she leave?! What's the reason?! I fucking love her! I confessed that to her! She confessed to me also. My world starts to sway and I manage to keep myself up with the door frame. A pair of hands were under my arms and one of them was lifted over a small person. Frank. Always can rely on him. 
"W-where is she?!" I shout. Mikey just stands with his blank expression opposite me while the boys help me. Fucking teenagers. 
"It's okay Gee, what she did, she didn't do it for herself, that's for sure." frank assured me. I believed him also. She's not Selfish. So why?
Why would she just leave?

Notes

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