Dysfunctions

G e a r a d

I’ve been here before,
The fresh air and sweet
Smelling flowers.

The breeze blowing
And the world
Standing
Completely still
Underneath me.

True peace.
Something I’m not
So used too.

I never want to leave.
I want to be here till
The day I die,

But everyone wakes
Up eventually.

I’ve heard that waking up
Is like being born.

You’re in
A peaceful
Place, with
No worries
What so ever.
And then
You’re forced
Into a world of pain
And struggle.

But there is
Nothing you
Can do
About it.

You just have to
Live your life.

I groan
And sit up,
Hearing giggles
And light
Conversation from
The other room.

Great,
People.

I stand up as
All my bones snap
Back into place,
My eyes wondering to
The bright green
Numbers on the clock.

7:34 pm.

The dark evening
Sky outside
My window confirms
That,
The frost from the
Intense
Winter weather
Making
Me long to be out there
For a smoke.

My fingers
Intertwine around
My pack which is
Laying idly on my dresser,
As I slip on my shoes.

I swing my bedroom
Door open to see two
Boys looking up at me,
Both hovering over a
Poster bored covered
With cheap clip art and
Paragraphs of random facts.

“Good morning.” Mikey says,
His thin lips curving into
A small side smirk.

I habitually roll my eyes,
And walk past the two,
To the door.
“I’m goin’ out for a smoke,
I’ll pick up some burgers
Or something if you’re hungry.”

I say looking at Mikey’s face contort
In to a look of disgust,
“I’m not hungry.” He says,
Typical,
“But if you are Frank
I’m sure Gerard wouldn’t
Mind some company…”
He and Frank share a small
Nod making me raise an eyebrow.
Why would Mikey suggest that?
I knew he wouldn’t want to eat,
But why suggest that Frank comes
With me? He’s hiding something.

“That sounds like a good idea,
If you don’t mind,
I’d love to come for the ride.” Frank says,
As Mikey sends him multiple
Looks of Approval.

I want to ask what’s going on
But knowing Mikey,
He’ll just denounce the idea
And forget it as
Soon as I say something out of
Place.
So I simply nod, “If you want to Frank,
You sure
Your gonna be okay here alone Mikes?”

“Yeah. I’ll be fine.” He says
In a rushed way,
Standing up and practically
Pulling Frank up with him.

Suspicions
Bubble with
In my core.

“Okay…
I’m bringing something
Back for you though Mikes.”
I say, deciding to play his game.
Mikey looks satisfied as well as
Frank, who’s smiling at me
With those wide eyes.

Why he needs me out
Of the house is
Beyond me, but concern
Is powering me
Right now. The only
Obstacle
Right now is
Frank.

Mikey likes to think he’s crafty
And able to surpass me and be
The rebellious teenager he is,
But he’s wrong. As his brother
I know everything that’s
Going on in his life, and keep
Him as Naïve as possible of my
Knowledge to make sure I have
The taps I need to insure his safety.

I probably get my
Over protective nature
From our mother.

She was the master of scrounging
Information and reading faces.

She was a great women.
She was truly an amazing person,
But now she’s gone.

Now it’s me in control
And I hate it.
Responsibility and worry
Go hand in hand.

“Ready to go?” Frank speaks up,
Both the boys staring at me.

“Yeah…
Let’s go.” I say, gripping the
Door knob and stepping out.

Now I have two options,
Trust the untrustworthy to
Tell me what’s going on.

Or get back to the house
Fast enough to find out
For myself.

Mikey sure is testing me,
And I’m letting him.

I’m so passive.
Or Maybe that’s passive aggressive.

I lead Frank to
The car without a word.

Opening the door for him
Watching the boy closely.
Desolately I was still thinking about
What he said last time we met.

“Girl, guy. It’s all the same.
Listen…I’ll help you with
This, frustration.
Free of charge.”

The words ring in my mind,
Along with the formation
Of his thin pale lips as the vile
Words flew off them.

Distraction or not I still have
A task at hand.
I slip into the driver’s seat and flash
The boy across from
Me a small but sure smile.

I have to get on his good side if
I’m going to get anything out of him.

“So Frank…How’s it been?”
I ask as I start the car.

He smiles,
This new positive attitude
Of mine hopefully easing
The tension.

“I could be better…”
He trails off,
“Long Day.”

I nod politely,
Looking at him
And seeing something
I’ve never seen in
Him before.
Something
Human.

A glimmer
In his eyes that
Shows pain.

“Care to explain?”
I say pulling out of the drive way.

“You wouldn’t get it…”
What your drug addiction?
I think I have that part down.

“Try me.”

Notes

Hello! I hope you liked this chapter, I know it's not the longest but It's something. Tbh I'm really proud of this chapter and the one that follows, my goal in them was to get the story moving along, so expect a lot to be reviled in the chapters to come, things like MIkey's secret, Gerard's feelings, Bob's story, ect. Please Please Please comment if you liked it! Constructive criticism is excepted aswell <3 Next chapter will prob be up in the next few days !
~Phobias