Divided

When I opened my eyes again it was morning. The sunlight was still weak to cast a lot of light but I could see some rays of sunshine illuminating the place where Frank's fire messages appeared.
"I can't see him again..." I thought, one single tear rolling to my pillow.
I sat on the bed and tried to wake up a little bit better, but deep down, I didn't want to wake up, I wanted last night to be a dream...All of it, even my meeting with Frank... Because if it was a dream, then I wouldn't be hurting him, and myself, by not seeing him again...
But it wasn't a dream, it all happend and Gerard's threat was true, he was going to kill him if we saw each other again. I couldn't let that happen, I had to try to at least warn him to stay away...
I crawled out of bed noticing only now that my feet were full of dirt. With the excitement to go and see Frank outside I forgot to change and put on some shoes. My summer pajamas had tree stains on the back and my hair had one or two leafs. I walked to the mirror with some difficulty, my ankle was hurting again because I got stressed out last night and walked on it when I shouldn't have... "I wish Frank was here, he could make the pain go away...all of it..." I thought to myself. But he wasn't, and I had to accept it from now on...
I looked in the mirror gasping with surprise. On the bottom of my neck, clear as day, was a rather large hickey. "Great... How am I going to cover this up?..." But I immediately stopped that thought. That mark on my skin was proof that it hadn't been a dream, Frank loved me and I loved him, and last night we were together and he told me that, and I belived it, I felt it in my heart it was the truth. So no, I wouldn't cover up the mark to hide it from my brothers, Gerard obviously had already seen it, and Mikey probably already knows what happens last night.
I turned around to go to the bathroom and take a shower. I was in no mood the leave my room to face my brothers, but I needed to get cleaned up and remove the leaves from my hair.
After I finished getting ready, I looked around at my room. It was a mess. Broken glass by the window, books and other things on the ground... With a wave of my hand everything was back in its place. I walked to the broken glass and placed on finger on it. I was able to control everything that was made of earth things, glass is made of melted sand so I was able to control it. I started to make the glass hotter and hotter to the point of almost melting and made the pieces glue back together. When I was done, a wave of my hand and the glass was back on the window like it never happend.
I looked outside to were Frank was standing last night. I felt like crying again but I stopped myself. I needed to be strong. Gerard wasn't going to break me that easily, and I was not going to let him hurt Frank.
I grabbed a piece of paper from my desk and started to write a letter for him. Somehow, I needed to warn him to stay away. I started,
"Frank,
Please forgive for what I'm about to say. It's is the hardest thing I ever had to do because every time I think about doing it, it feels like my heart is being torn away from my chest.
But I need you to know... I need you to know that I love you with every fiber of my being and that I've been waiting a long time to find someone like you.
And it's because I love you so much that I need to ask you the hardest thing on this earth. Forget about me. Pretend like I never existed. We can't be together and last night was a mistake. We can never see each other again.
You're probably looking at this words and not understanding anything, but believe me when I say that it's for your own good. You shouldn't want to be with me. You deserve better than someone like me, someone that, one way or the other might end up hurting you, emotionally and physicly.
Please don't try to see me again. DO NOT come to the house! Please Frank, I know that I'm hurting you right know and you want an explanation, but I can't give it to you. You just have to accept that it's for your own safety.
Please, please forgive me...
With all the love in my heart,
Jane."

I finished the letter and folded it into a small square. I walked over to the window and closed my eyes. It's almost impossible to send a fire message without knowing exactly where a person is, but I had to try...
I closed my eyes and concentrated as hard as I could on his image, his face, his body... My hands started to burn and the message was gone.
"Please, let the letter reach you..." I prayed.
I was crying again and I didn't even notice. I turned to the mirror to look at myself. Downstairs I started to hear voices... One in particular made me shiver in rage...Andrew Melt was here...
I wiped away my tears I made the best "Bitch" look I could manage. "They're not going to break me."
I clenched my fists and left my room and went downstairs for breakfast. "I'm going to show them that they don't mess with me. They want to control my life? I'm going to make they're lifes hell..."
I started going down the stairs, the voices were getting louder, I could hear them all talking in the dining room.
I took a deep breath and entered the room. They all stared at me. Gerard looked angry, Andrew looked surprised, and Mikey looked shocked. I could see his eyes jumping from my face to my neck, were the visible hickey was. I didn't say anything when I entered the room. I just walked to my seat and started having breakfast. After some time, they all got over the shock and restarted the conversation. But I could still see Mikey staring at me from the corner of my eye. I kept quiet, eating and desperately hoping, that Frank would get my letter ...

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