Divided

It's been half a week since the last time I saw Frank. On the one hand I was relived that he hadn't tried to contact me, on the other I was devastated. All I wanted was to see him again, but I knew it was to dangerous and I would never risk his life like that.
It was the day of the Summer Solstice, and it was Caster tradition to celebrate that day, wich in my house meant, a ball.
The Way parties were well known in the Caster community for their luxury, and this one would not be different. The best food, the best music, the best decorations, and, of course, the best clothes.
But somehow, Mikey convinced Gerard to do something different this year. He convinced Gerard, to have a Masquerade.
Although everyone at this party would be Dark, I was a bit excited about this. I always liked the parties at our house because they always looked like something out of an fairytale, a very dark and goth fairytale, but a fairytale none the less.
Normally it would have been my mother that would have made, or bought, my dress. But this year I had to do it all by myself.
After spending hours imagining it, drawing it and bringing it to life, I was finally finished and was admiring my work. The dress was blood red and black a sweetheart neckline and a red and black corset. The skirt was black tule and underneath was a satin blood red skirt, all the way to my feet. At the waist, was a belt made with black jewels. It was simple, but it was the way I liked it.
I was admiring my dress when Mikey came into my room. I didn't notice he came in until he spoke.
"It's beautiful." He said, making me jump and turn around to face him.
I've been giving them all the silent treatment, only coming out of my room to eat, and sometimes not at all.
I was mad at all of them, but I was the least upset with Mikey. I smiled a little to thank him.
"I know you don't want me here, but I just came to give you something. It was moms, and I'm sure she would want you to have it." He was holding a rectangular red velvet box, and he held it so I could see what was in it. He opend it, and inside was a mask, a black lace mask with small blood red jewels.
"Mom wore this the night she met Father. Also in a Summer Solstice ball. Even though your true love isn't downstairs to meet you, I know mom would want you to have it. And luckily it goes great with you dress!" He smiled at me and I smiled back. Mikey knew I was hurting, but he couldn't do anything about it. "Gerard asked me to tell you that the sacrificial ceremony starts in a few minutes." I nodded and he turned around to leave, not before glancing back at me and giving me a comforting smile, like he was saying that everything would be ok... I sure hoped it would...

After sundown the guests started to arrive and I went back to my room to get dressed and ready. When I came back down, the house was filled with people, talking and drinking. The classical music that came from the quartet playing in the piano room filled the house. Everything was decorated in black, white and red, with red roses and red candles spreaded through out the house. I came downstairs to meet my brothers who were in the library talking to other men. Gerard was stunning in his black Italian tuxedo and black and white mask. I could almost forget that I was angry at him. When he saw me I noticed a small gasp escaping his lips and his eyes going wide in surprise, but he quickly composed himself and returned to his conversation. And then I felt Mikey giving me his arm and pulling me away to the dance floor.
"You do not want to go there now, The man Gerard is talking to is Andrew, I noticed you didn't recognize him."
We waltzed a bit and then a Mikey left me to go and talk to someone I also didn't recognize. But before I could turn around and leave to find a drink, someone was holding me in his arms.
"You really think you would get rid of me that easily?..." He whisperd in my ear
"Frank?" My heart stopped, not only because he was here, holding me again, he looked like something out of a dream. He wore a black tuxedo and white shirt with a bow tie, but his bow tie was undone. He wore a blood red mask with black drawings that coverd the top half of his face.
"You shouldn't be here!" I whisperd at him in panic
"I needed to see you again, I needed for you to explain me that letter!"
"You can't be here!!" I was starting to panick, thinking that at any moment Gerard would see us "If my brother finds you here..."
"I don't care!"
"You should care!" I said a but to loud, wich caused several eyes to look at me.
I grabbed his hand and pulled him away form the dance floor, always looking out to see if Gerard was watching, but he was nowhere in site.
I pulled Frank up the stairs into my bedroom and locked the door behind us casting a barrier and sound proof spell around us.
I turned around to look at him but before I could say a word, his lips were on mine, kissing me desperately and passionately. At first I started to give in, but I pushed him away
"Listen to me!!!" I said "You can't be here! If they find you..."
"They'll what? Keep me away from you? They already did that!!"
"They'll kill you!"
Silence grew between us. I was gasping for air and shaking with nerves. Frank looked like he was thinking deeply about what I said.
"Please Frank... Just leave and forget about me. Don't ask me to see you get hurt just because we can't stay away from each other..." I was begging him, tears forming in my eyes
"Do you want me to leave?" He said, looking straight at me
"Yes!"
"Because you don't love me? Or because you're afraid of what might happen if they find us?"
"I...I don't want to see you get hurt..."
Frank stepped closer to me and placed his hands on both sides of my neck and leaned in closer to my face
"Tell me you don't love me and I'll leave... Look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't love me and that you want me to leave!"
He was so close, I could smell his breath on my face...
"I....I....I can't..." I said, crying "I can't, I love you! I love you much it hurts! But I can't be with you! If my brother finds you he'll kill you Frank! And he's not bluffing!"
"Then I'll die a happy man, having to kiss you one last time..."
He kissed me strong and passionatly, his body pressed up against mine and his tongue exploring my mouth...
I couldn't fight it anymore...and I didn't want to...so I just gave in...

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