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I didn’t end up sleeping much last night because I kept dreaming of Gerard dying. I didn’t want that to happen. How am I supposed to get him to stop when truth is I’m a major fuck up? I guess no matter what I did I wouldn’t be able to stop him. That didn’t mean I was going to give up though. No fucking way. He needed help and I was going to help no matter what it took. Mikey knocked on my door and I got out of bed, walked towards my door and unlocked it. “Yes?” I asked and he gave me a little smile. “Urm two things. You need to get up for school. We’re all ready just waiting for you. Gerard’s going home and staying there. He doesn’t want to go to school.” If he goes home who knows what he’s going to do? “He can stay here with me. I don’t want to leave him on his own and I think you know he shouldn’t be left alone either.” He nodded and sighed.”Yeah thanks Frank.” I smiled at him which he returned. After a minute of silence and him still not leaving I said “You said there was two things?” He nodded and looked at his shoes, placing a hand on his neck and rubbing it gently, his knees bent in an awkward position. This guy was nervous but about what? “Look last night, I’m real sorry I took it the wrong way twice.” I chuckled.”Mikey that’s in the past. The only thing in the past we should focus on is Gerard.” He agreed and walked towards the stairs leaving me to get changed.

“So he’s in there still. He’s dressed but won’t come out till everyone’s gone.” Mikey said as he pointed to the guest room door. “Good job I’m staying in then.” I joked trying to lighten the mood, which didn’t work because they all gave me funny looks.”What the fuck are you on about Frank?” Boblin asked. “If he waited till everyone had left my door would be unlocked ALL day. My mother went to work and my Father’s joining her.” They all made an oh sound. Jesus tough crowd.”We better get to school. Text me and keep me up to date?” Mikey said looking at the time.”Of course.” They nodded and all left. I followed them downstairs and locked the door behind them. Once I got up stairs I heard faint crying emerging from where Gerard was. I reached for the handle and it got worse. I could tell he was mumbling something too but with the crying it was hard to make out. I opened the door and he had his back towards me. He was on the floor on his knees with his head in his arms and his hands tugging hard at his hair. “You’re a fucking stupid twat Gerard! Now Frank’s never going to want you. You’re are pathetic scarred whore. I should of cut deeper.” I let out a whine and Gerard’s head shot up. He turned to face me with wide eyes. He cleared his throat and wiped his tears.”What are you still doing here? I thought everyone left for school.” I simply told him I was staying.

I had pulled Gerard into my arms and hugged him tightly while he started to cry again. “Gerard listen to me okay?” I felt him nod against my neck. “I don’t care if you have scars, I still love you. I have them too. I don’t want to lose you either. I don’t care if we end up not dating because I made a mistake by going over to Zacky’s. I want you in my life whether that’s friends or you’re my boyfriend.” He removed himself from my arms and gave me a small smile before wiping his eyes. “Thank you Frankie.” “No need to thank me, So how about we make a coffee and I cook us some breakfast? We can watch TV or a movie?” He giggled at me, “I bet you can’t cook. I heard Bob does most of it.” I gasp and mock hurt. “I certainly well can, Bob is just a mean cook when it comes to pancakes. His are always better.” He raises his eyebrows. “I don’t believe you.” A smirk crawls it way up to my face. “Oh really? How about I cook you something and we’ll see?” He nodded. “Oh it’s on.”

I stand up and hold my hand out for Gerard to take, which he does and make my way downstairs. “How do you not get lost?” he asks while sat at the kitchen table. “I’m used to living in this massive house. It’s always my father that gets lost because he was hardly here.” I can’t help the smile that creeps on my face when we first moved and my dad managed to get around as good as the rest of us, right up until he started to work and go on business trips. I came home one day and he was sat on the couch dying for the loo but couldn’t remember how to get there so I had to walk him there. I laughed and he lightly punched my arm telling me shut up. I laughed as I put the pancake mix I made from scratch (Which Boblin DOESN’T do. He uses readymade! Cheater!) into the oven.”What you laughing about?” I turn to Gerard and shake my head. “Just remembering when I had to show my dad where the bathroom was. He went on a business trip and forgot the layout of the house. I still never let him live it down.” Gerard laughed and I was glad. “So movie or TV?” He made a sound in thought and said “Movie. Scary one though.” I raised my eyebrows “At this time? It’s only just gone 9.” He shrugged. “Can’t you make your room dark enough to pretend it night? I want to watch a scary movie now so I have an excuse to cuddle up to you.” I laughed and shook my head as I passed him his coffee. “Sweetie you don’t need an excuse to cuddle me. This house has black curtains everywhere. So making it seem like night time is easy.” He smiled and nodded. “So which would you rather do?” He asked before I took a sip and he groaned at the taste. No lie I swear my dick stirred from that. God imagine what noises would come from him when I was fucking him. NO FRANK! BAD BOY! I cleared my throat and shook the thoughts out. “I’d rather just cuddle you but I’m guessing you mean either Movie or TV. So Movie because TV is shit at the hour.” He blushed from my first comment. It was so cute.

There he goes again that fucking groan. “Fuck Frankie.” His face twisted in pleasure. “So I take it you like my pancakes then?” I chuckle. “Mhmm I fucking love them.” I laughed again and finished up my serving of pancakes. One I’d finished I washed them up and then turned round to face Gerard.”I’m going for a quick shower so you can either wait for me here, Your guest room or my room.” He nodded and I left the Kitchen heading for my room. I went straight into the shower without even bothering to wait for it to get warm. I started to shiver but that was okay because it would soon warm up. While I washed my hair and body I started to think of ways I could stop Gerard from hurting himself. The water started to get cold and I realised I’d been in here more than half an hour. I stepped out and grabbed my towel. “Shit.” I mumbled once I’d realised I forgot my clothes. I headed for the bathroom door and once I’d opened it I regretted it. There sat on my bed and now facing me was Gerard and he wasn’t alone.

Notes

Hey guys!
So I'm actually writing the next chapter now.Not updating it without one guess though.
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