Return To Me, My Love

FRANKS POV

As Gerard and I climb the stairs to the apartment I can't help but sneak glances at him every few seconds, his face not hostile for a change and after dinner and our walk home I feel like things are finally starting to take a step in the right direction. After I let us in I leave Gerard in the living room while I quickly use the bathroom and when I'm done I stop and stare into the mirror, taking a moment to calm myself down as I feel myself suddenly get nervous about Gerard being here. I finally manage to pull it together a few minutes later and I take a quick sip of mouthwash, rinsing my mouth out with it before leaving the bathroom but as I open the door I see Gerards shirt laying on the floor at my feet. I pause in confusion for a second before stepping out into the hallway and as I glance towards the living room door I see his shoes and jacket and when I turn to look down the other way towards the bedroom I see his socks and jeans and belt and I realise he's probably in my room getting something more comfortable to wear but as I approach the room and step inside I realise I was wrong, Gerard laying back on my bed in just his boxers and it's the most seductive sight I've ever seen. My dick starts to twitch in interest immediately and as Gerard turns his head and reaches out for me, asking me to come to him the logical part of my brain starts to scream at me that if we do this right now we'll just slip back into old habits and nothing will get better. I glance down at my feet before looking back up at Gerard and when I see the lust in his eyes it breaks me a little, my body wanting nothing more than to go to him and fuck him senseless but logic wins out and I slowly shake my head, seeing slight hurt and confusion cross his face as I say "Gee, I don't think this is a good idea."

A few long seconds of silence pass before hurt takes over and Gerard blinks hard a few times, his eyes looking a little more watery than usual and he quickly sits up, sliding to the edge of the bed and standing and as he steps away from the bed I quickly cross the room to him and reach out to gently cup his cheeks. "Baby it's not that I don't want to, I do, trust me" I pause to push my hips forward a little so Gerard can feel my semi hard dick against his hip and I see his lips twitch a little before I continue. "I know we slept together the other day and it was honestly the best sex I've ever had in my whole life but I feel like if we do this now, as much as its killing me to say no, it's not going to be the right thing for us. I think if we do this nothing will change and we'll just slip back into how it was and I don't want that for you, I want to be what you deserve for a change." Gerard breathes in slowly, his eyes searching my face as he slowly exhales again before he says "Frank, I love you and I don't want you to leave again tomorrow." "Baby I know but I can't just cancel my tour" I tell him and his face falls, his bottom lip catching between his teeth as his head drops down and I slide one hand under his chin and guide it back up, his eyes meeting mine and I see the sadness in them. "Gee please don't be sad, you know if I had any choice at all I would stay here with you, it wouldn't even be a choice, I just got you back and I don't want to let you go ever again but I have to go and I promise you I will be right back here with you every chance I get." Gerard nods slowly, his mouth pulling into a small smile but it doesn't reach his eyes, his forehead still creased a little and I frown to myself as I slide my arms around him and pull him into my chest, his head nuzzling against my shoulder as he melts into me and I slowly slide one hand up to stroke the back of his hair. "I love you so much" I whisper in his ear and Gerard hums softly as he shuffles a little closer, his body pressed tight against mine as we stand there and hold each other.

Gerard ends up spending the night with me, soft kisses being shared in the dark but we don't go any further than that, Gerard eventually falling asleep in my arms and I hold him close as I let myself drift off too and when I wake up the next morning he's laying against my side with his head on my chest, his finger tracing soft patterns over my bare stomach as he softly hums to himself and I lean my head down to press a kiss to the top of his head. "Morning baby" I greet him and Gerard slides back to lay his head on the pillow beside mine. "Stay?" He asks softly, his voice sad and I can tell he knows what the answer will be but is still daring to ask and I frown as I lean in and kiss his lips. "Babe" I start, my voice sounding sad too and he nods, sniffling softly before saying "I know." We spend another twenty minutes in bed just sharing soft kisses and holding each other before my phone starts ringing and I reluctantly climb out of bed and answer it, the tour manager telling me we need to be at the bus within the next hour and a half and after I hang up I turn back to see Gerard digging through my closet for some clothes, both of us dressing before I tell him I need to get going. "Can I come? To say goodbye?" He asks and I smile as I say "Of course baby, I'd love that."

An hour after my phone call Gerard and I are at the bus and after my stuff is loaded on we settle together in the back lounge, Gerard laid out with his head in my lap and I gently card my fingers through his hair as we talk. "I'm gonna miss you" Gerard says as he lets his eyes slip closed and I sigh softly before saying "I know baby, I'm gonna miss you too but as soon as I get the finalised schedule later today I'll be able to plan trips home and here" I trail off, digging into my pocket and finding my keys as Gerard sits up again and once I've found the key I want I take it off the ring before offering it to him. "Go over any time you want, if you want" I tell him, giving him his key to the apartment back that he left behind ages ago. Gerard's smile makes me smile and as he goes to kiss me again we hear footsteps come into the back and when I look up Ian is standing there, his face hardening a little when he sees Gerard before he says "We're leaving in five."

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