Love Is Insanity

FRANK'S POV:
Ray and i stood there, completely ignoring the fact that Gerard and Mikey were wide eyed and staring at us. I looked up and down at Ray in his well fitted suit and grey tie, with his frizzled hair tamed down, and his hand stiffenening in Mikey's. I didn't think about it, but i could guess my mouth was probably wide open right now.
"I'll leave you two to it." Mikey whispered in Ray's ear, looking concerned, like he was not expecting my reaction to be so abrupt. He knew about me being Ray's friend too? He gestured for Gerard to come with them, and before leaving he rubbed my shoulder, and smiled slightly. I grinned back, but my stomach was churning even more now. From the discovery in the plane, Ray's leaving farewell, and him standing hear now dressed like a doll with his pretty and posh boyfriend.
"Listen F-frank...i can explain it all." He stuttered out walking nearer to me.
"You fucking bet your ass you can." I said a bit too loudly, getting slightly ticked from the whole situation happening around me. Just when i leave to escape everything, some problem i never realised existed has hatched up to come and bite me right in the neck.
"Listen, i'll tell you everything. Do you want to get a coffee?"
"And we'll talk there huh?" He nodded, and i shuffled my way out of the door, him trailing behind of me. From the corner of my eye i could see his head was down, and he looked like he was close to breaking into pieces. We continued the journey, at a silent pace and eventually arrived withought exchanging a word to eachother.
"You can sit, i'll order."
"It's the least you can do." I muttered under my breath, a buzz of emotions still racking at my head. Soon after my rude comment, Ray arrived back with two steaming cups of coffee. We both stared at eachother awkwardly before anyone spoke.
"Im sorry i never told you all of this before."
"Including the fact you were in a major band."
"You hear?"
"Damn right i did!"
"Ok let me explain everything. I was young okay, and i know i was stupid not to tell you, but i was scared i would be judged. You have always been a close friend, so i never reallly understand why i didn't feel like i could trust you enough to tell you that. But i'd been through a lot you know? Im sorry i didn't say, but my mum passed away when i was younger and withought any love or friends i just got turned away at every open door. I would constantly befriend people and then after some fun and games they would kick me out. So with you i was suprised i was finally being treated different. Same with Mikey, and after the incident with not telling you, i've learnt to trust him. Im just sorry i never felt like i could tell you. I was having a hell of a time and i also thought if i told you it would be to much to take in, with the rest of stuff you had going on in your crazy life. Overall, it's a shit excuse..but yeah." He managed to spark a small grin, and i leaned over on the counter sighing lightly.
"Oh god Ray. I don't know whether i should forgive you or get mad." He sniggered slightly, and i chuckled back. "Ok i guess i can." I reached my hand forward and he took it shaking back.
"I appreciate it Frank i really do. Mikey will be glad to."
"As long as there is no more lies Ray, cause i can't stand it!"
"No more, i swear." He grinned, and we walked out of the shop him dismissing me to go back to Mikey's house.
I walked across the crushed leaves whistling lightly. I had to take a different route back, and thank gosh i had been down San Diego before. I knew my way back, and it was through a forest covered in autumn leaves. It looked so beautiful, all brown and firey red as i skipped through the grass. I fell into my thoughts the further i delved, and soon started to imagine me and Gerard here. Under a blanket of stars, out in the open field next to the edge of the forest, hands linked and eyes locked on one another.
'"Your eyes remind me of ones only an angel could have." Gerard had said lustfully staring into my eyes, my cheeks burning bright red.
"Say some more poetry to me.." I whispered back, our shoulders bumping gently together.
"I'd love to my darling, but i would rather share this perfect time with you sneaking a kiss." I looked down at my lap sniggering, feeling his slender fingers reach to cup my chin and bring it up.
"You didn't have to ask if you just wanted it." I bravely replied toothily smiling as he leaned forward and....'
"What the!?.." I yelled feeling my feet slip underneath the ground, and sliding into a muddy ditch. Groaning i hit the floor with a load thump, my legs clicking inwards and the slosh of mud hitting my face. I looked up, realising whilst in my dreams i had falling into what looked like a deeply dug hole. The light was fading from the gaps in the wailing trees, and i slouched downward beginning to cry into my lap. Why was i constantly becoming distracted by Gerard? Why was i becoming so attached to him that everything i did had to result in something bad because of my thoughts towards him. It was ridiculous how obsesed i was becoming with him, even though i had no idea my true feelings towards him. Although, i believe in a matter of time something will happen that will really show how i feel for him. I looked back up as the sky darknened orange, and began to yell.
"Help help!" My throat was burning from the volume of my voice "Gerard! Mikey! Ray! Its Frank help!" I began to cough and started to wheeze. It was useless. What were they even doing right now, i mean surely Ray was going to come back down this way soon. I hoped that he would arrive before it became dark.
What the heck have i done?

Notes

OOOOooo whats gonna happen next?! Thanks for the reads <3