Kill This Venom From My Heart

Gerard and I end up just spending the day at home, laying around watching tv and playing with Mama inbetween making out and by the time we are discussing where to order in from for dinner Jamia comes home and she pauses to say hi on her way past the living room, heading upstairs and I roll my eyes before turning my attention back to Gerard and he frowns for a second but doesn't say anything. Gerard and I decide where we want to order from and when he gets up to grab his phone to call and order I hear his footsteps go further down the hallway than the kitchen where he left his phone and I get up and look out the doorway just in time to see him disappear up the stairs and a few minutes later he comes back down with Jamia and I hear him make the call while they are both in the kitchen, ordering three meals and I realise he went upstairs to ask what she wanted and I groan to myself, shaking my head and Mama jumps up from her blanket in the corner and comes running over to me, jumping up on my legs and I lean down and pick her up, helping her into my lap and she stands on my legs and looks up at me, her head slightly cocked to one side and I rub the top of her head as I say "This isn't right Mama and I know you know it too. I need you to keep an eye out for daddy for me alright?" and Mama opens her mouth, her tongue flopping out a little as she pants and I smile as I play with her ears, feeling like she's got my back on this. A few minutes later Gerard comes into the room followed by Jamia and he crosses to take his seat next to me again while Jamia takes the arm chair over the other side of the room and when Mama turns her head and looks over at Jamia she lets out a small bark, Gerard frowning down at her while Jamia looks over at us concerned and I try so hard to keep my smirk in as I rub her ears again, mentally praising her for being so smart and knowing that Jamia is someone worth barking at.

Later that night when Gerard and I climb into bed I strip down naked and climb under the covers, sliding up behind Gerard and pressing my bare chest to his bare back, my hand sliding around to run down his chest and stomach until I reach the waistband of his boxers and I gently slip my fingers under the edge, easing them down just a little and Gerard turns his head back to look at me and says "Again baby?" "Just wanna feel you" I tell him and Gerard shifts around a little until his boxers are off and he drops them on the floor, getting comfortable again and now that we're both naked I press right up against him again and I let my hands wander his body as I press soft kisses to his neck and shoulder. "You have no idea how much I missed this" I tell him, one of my hands rubbing against his stomach while the other caresses his bare hip. "All those lonely nights in the bunk, just wanted you, your warm perfect body in my arms. I never want to let go of you again" I tell him and after a few more seconds Gerard rolls over, our chests pressed together now and one of his legs slides between mine, entangling us as one of his arms wraps around me, his warm fingers splayed across my lower back. "Dream about this every night. This is almost better than sex, feeling your warm perfect body pressed up against mine, nothing at all between us, wish we could always be like this" Gerard whispers back and I smile wide to myself as I lean down and seek out his lips in the dark, moving mine with his soft and slow until we both eventually fall asleep, our arms tightening around each other as we shuffle just a little closer together, helping each other feel warm and relaxed. The next morning I wake up to the feeling of being watched and when I crack my eyes open I see Jamia standing on the other side of the room a few steps back from the bed and I realise the blankets have slipped down in the night and Gerard and I are only just covered from the waist down, Gerards trail of pubic hair and his hip bones visible as he's splayed out on his back, the bulge of his dick obvious through the blankets. "What the fuck do you want?" I hiss out, not wanting to wake Gerard as I grab the blanket and pull it higher over him, not wanting her greedy unworthy eyes to see him like this. "Sorry I just wanted to let you guys know Mama threw up downstairs, I think she's sick and I have a job interview so I need to leave now" she tells me and I sit up fully, the blanket pooling around my waist and I see her eyes wander my upper body before glancing over at Gerard again before she turns and quickly leaves the room, closing the door behind herself.

Later that afternoon Gerard is out at class and Jamia still hasn't come home and Mama is still unwell, throwing up a few times and she hasn't eaten or drank anything all day, even refusing her favourite treats and I decide I've waited long enough, bundling her up and driving her to the vets, telling the assistant her symptoms and she tells me to take a seat and while I am waiting Mama curls up in my lap, looking up at me and whining softly, looking so sad and I pick her up against my chest, letting her rest her head on my shoulder as I gently stroke my hand up and down her back and her little body shakes against mine, another small whine escaping her before she goes still and I gently shush her, telling her softly that I am getting her help and a few minutes later a man comes out and calls my name, smiling as he gestures to an open doorway behind the front counter and I follow him in, walking over to the exam table in the middle and putting Mama down, taking a step away and she lets out a small whine so I step back over and gently run my hand down her back again, her little body seeming to relax at my touch. I tell the vet her symptoms and the time frame of her being sick and how she was perfectly fine last night and he frowns before grabbing around her stomach, digging his fingers in slightly and feeling for anything unusual and while Mama looks uncomfortable she doesn't bark or whine or pull away and the vet tells me that means there's no tender spots meaning she hasn't swallowed anything that could have become stuck. While he continues to conduct little tests he asks about her environment, asking about any chemicals or anything she could have gotten into and I tell him no, that we're really careful about things like that in her reach and he smiles and nods, taking out a stethoscope and having a listen to her chest before saying that he will need to take blood and run some tests but she appears to probably have eaten something she shouldn't have and that the blood tests should tell them more but that this stage he would suggest she could have been poisoned as no other explanation can be found.

I leave the clinic without Mama, the vet suggesting it be a good idea to leave her overnight so they can observe her and try to get her to eat and by the time I get home Jamia is there, Gerards last class due to finish soon and when I see Jamia in the kitchen I march over to her and get in her face as I say "If I find out you did anything to my dog I will make you pay, dearly." "Frank what are you talking about? Where is Mama? Is she ok?" Jamia asks, looking genuinely puzzled but I scoff as I say "Oh give me a fucking break, I know you don't really care, Gerards not here so drop the fucking act." Jamia stares at me wide eyed before pushing past me and fleeing upstairs to her room, the door slamming shut and when Gerard gets home I fill him in on all the details about Mama, both of us searching the house and backyard for anything she could have potentially eaten but we find absolutely nothing out of the ordinary and after we eat dinner we settle together on the couch to watch tv, my eyes staring at the screen but my mind isn't focused on it, too busy worrying about Mama and Jamia stays in her room all night, not daring to come back near me.

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