Kill This Venom From My Heart

The next morning I get a call from the vet telling me that they are still awaiting some test results and that Mama's condition hasn't improved by much so they would like to keep her another night and I feel my heart clench as I agree, tears stinging my eyes as I end the call and when I turn to go and find Gerard and give him the news he comes into the room, taking in the look on my face before he freezes and says "Oh god, did she....." "No, no she's....they're still not sure yet so they want to keep her an extra night" I tell him and Gerard nods, coming over to me and wrapping his arms around my waist as he buries his face in my chest and I wrap my arms around him and pull him close. "I love you" I whisper into his hair as I press a soft kiss to the top of his head and Gerard pulls back to look into my eyes, his own a little swollen and watery too as he says "I love you too." "Do you have classes today?" I ask after a few more minutes of us holding each other and Gerard shakes his head as he says "No, did you want to do something?" "Yeah lets get out of here" I tell him and he steps back away from me, reaching out and taking my hand and we go upstairs together, changing before coming back down and getting in the car, leaving Jamia at the house by herself as we head out for the day. Gerard and I end up going to a restaurant for an early lunch before catching a movie and to end our afternoon we end up driving to the nearest beach, both of us taking our shoes off and rolling our jeans up and we walk hand in hand along the beach as the sun starts to set, casting long shadows over everything and I can't keep the smile off my face, all the stress and worry of the last two days over Jamia and now Mama fading into the background and Gerard and I end up wandering to the far end of the beach where there is no one else and we take a seat on the sand, making ourselves comfortable as we sit and watch the sun set and the waves break until Gerards hand reaches out and gently tilts my face towards his, his lips catching mine in a sweet kiss and after a few minutes I have him pinned to the sand as I lean over him, kissing him breathless and just as my hands start to wander down his side Gerard turns his head away to giggle, his hands gently pushing against my chest as he says "As much as I'd love to, we're outside and sand seems like kind of a hazard" making me laugh too and I sit back, helping him sit back up too and he shakes his head, one hand coming up to comb through his hair as he shakes all the sand out of it and I climb to my feet, reaching down to help him up and as we walk back along to the car I gently run one hand up and down his back, helping brush the sand off and copping a few sneaky gropes of his ass as I go, pulling more giggles from him.

That night after dinner Gerard and I are curled up on the couch in the music/art room, Gerard half laying back against my chest as one of my acoustic guitars rests in his lap and my hands are over his, guiding them as I teach him to play a simple tune and when we have run through it a few times I let him go and he tries it for himself and he does so well until his fingers slip when changing for the last chord and the sound he makes is not good, making him groan softly and I lean around to press a kiss to the side of his neck as I say "You're doing so well baby." "I suck" he tells me, tilting his head so I can see his face and I see he's pouting slightly, making me chuckle before I tell him "You really don't, you're only just learning and you almost did the whole thing by yourself. You should have seen me when I first learned to play drums, talk about sucking, my rhythm was terrible." "Well your rhythm seems pretty damn good now" Gerard purrs at me, his eyes slightly glazed over and he winks at me, making me smile wide before leaning down to press a kiss to his lips, the angle slightly awkward as he kisses back. "You charmer" I say back, making him giggle before leaning back in for another kiss and as our lips move together he sits the guitar aside and flips himself around, crawling to his knees and shifting along to straddle my lap as I move to accommodate him."So I don't know if it's a teenage hormone thing I haven't grown out of yet or if it's you but I want you so fucking bad all the time" Gerard growls against my lips and I feel mine pull into a smirk as I tell him "If it's hormones I haven't grown out of it either" Gerard giggling softly as he squirms in my lap, grinding down against my dick as his lips attach to the side of my neck. "Mmmm, you wanna....." I moan out before the door opens with no warning, cutting off my question as Jamia steps into the room and her eyes widen when she realises what she's walked in on, Gerards hips shifting again before he pulls away to see why I stopped talking, his cheeks going red when he spots Jamia. "What?" I snap, anger and frustration clear in my voice and Jamia clears her throat as she drops her gaze down to the floor. "Sorry I was just going to ask if you guys needed anything from the store and....." "No we don't, so get the fuck out" I snap and I feel Gerard tense before his body starts climbing off my lap and Jamia turns and leaves the room, Gerard standing beside the couch and rubbing a hand over his face before saying "You don't have to be so damn rude." "Are you fucking kidding me?" I ask, pushing myself to stand too and as I reach out for him Gerard steps back out of my reach and turns to leave the room. "Where are you going? We were in the middle of something" I ask, my dick still throbbing in my pants and Gerard turns to look back at me with an angry expression on his face as he says "I'm not in the mood anymore" slamming the door shut behind him as he leaves and I sink back down onto the couch, my head dropping into my hands as I wonder what the fuck just happened and I feel even more pissed off at Jamia for ruining my moment with Gerard.

A few hours later Gerard is still brushing me off and when I go into the bathroom to brush my teeth before bed I walk up to stand beside him at the sink and when I reach out to gently grab his free hand he pulls it away and turns the tap back on, spitting and rinsing his mouth out before turning and leaving the room without a word, a sigh escaping me before I start to brush and when I'm done I make my way into the bedroom, Gerard already in bed and when I climb into my side he rolls over and turns his back to me, reaching out and turning the lamp off on his side and I sigh to myself again as I turn my own off before settling on my side and a minute later he still has his back to me so I slide over and plaster myself to his back, Gerards body tensing a little at my touch and when I slide my hand down to rest over his lower stomach his hand grabs mine and pushes it away. "Whats wrong?" I ask, starting to get frustrated and Gerard breathes in deep before saying "I can't stand the tension between you and J, you're being so rude and....." "J?" I spit, moving back a little and Gerard rolls onto his back so he can look at me in the limited moonlight shining in around the blinds. "What is she your best friend now or something?" "Frank I know she's done some fucked up shit but she's changed, it wouldn't kill you to give her a chance" he tells me and my mouth drops open in disbelief. "I can't fucking believe this" I mutter to myself as I slide across and get out of the bed. "Where are you going?" Gerard asks as I walk away from the bed and I turn back to see him sitting up frowning at me and as I reach out for the doorknob I say "Out. Maybe your best friend can come cuddle with you instead" slamming the door behind me as I make my way down the hall to the music/art room and I grab a spare pillow and blanket from the hall closet as I go, curling up on the couch in there and staring out the window as sleep eludes me, my body too tensed and pissed off to relax and sleep.

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