Kill This Venom From My Heart

By the time we get upstairs Gerard's mom and dad have gone to church and Mikey is still in bed so Gerard and I sit at the kitchen counter eating breakfast and drinking coffee, our feet playfully tangling together until we hear a creaking on the stairs and we pull apart slightly, Gerard dragging his chair away a little and Mikey comes stumbling into the room a few seconds later. "What are you doing here?" He snaps at me and I raise my eyebrows before saying "Spending time with my friend." "Damn how much did he pay you? I figured it would be a one day thing but you've been here four days now." Gerard's gaze drops to the table and I sigh, the anger I've been trying to bite down finally becoming too much. "You're a real fucking asshole you know that? Gerard is an amazing person and he doesn't deserve a fucking brat of a brother like you, you should be fucking happy he has a friend." Mikey looks at me shocked and when I turn my head to look at Gerard his eyes are swollen with uncried tears, his mouth open in surprise. "Frank..." "You can't speak to me like that" Mikey says, cutting Gerard off and I turn my attention back to him as I say "I just fucking did. You're so lucky to have someone like Gerard in your life and you need to treat him with a bit more respect." Mikey looks between Gerard and I before scoffing slightly and leaving the room again. "Are you alright babe?" I ask softly and he sniffles back his tears and shrugs. "I'm sorry, I probably shouldn't have done that but he just really pissed me off, you don't deserve that treatment." Gerard just nods slowly and I reach out and wrap my arm around his waist, pulling him closer to me as I give him a quick hug, pressing a soft kiss to his forehead. "You wanna head out and do something fun today?" Gerard nods before saying "I'll take a shower first." "Alright" I say softly and I head back down to his room with him, sitting on the bed and watching as he grabs some clean clothes and leaves the room again. While I wait for him I lay back on the bed, staring at the ceiling and I'm startled by the sound of the door opening and when I sit up and look over I see Mikey coming down the stairs. "What do you want?" I ask, displeasure clear in my voice. "Are you fucking my brother?" "Uh, no" I answer, surprised by his line of questioning. "Really? You know he's in love with you right?" "Is he? It hasn't come up." "Don't play fucking dumb with me." "What do you want Mikey?" "I just want to know why you're here." "I'm here because I want to get to know my friend a bit better." He doesn't say anything back, both of us just staring each other down until he charges across the room and jumps onto the bed, leaning in and smashing his lips to mine. I flail my arms around trying to push him off and when he pulls back I bring a hand up to wipe my mouth, glaring at him as I say "What the fuck are you doing?" "You're into guys right? It's always been a fantasy of mine to fuck you and you're not doing my brother so..." He trails off, leaning in to kiss me again and as I go to shove him away again I hear a gasp before loud footsteps stomp up the stairs and the door slams shut and I shove Mikey so hard he almost falls back off the bed and I jump up, turning to spit at him "Stay the fuck away from me" before I run up the stairs, desperate to find Gerard.

When I get upstairs I hear faint sobbing coming from the bathroom and I walk over and open the door, finding Gerard sitting on the floor crying his eyes out. I close the door behind me, locking it before crossing over to him and sinking to my knees infront of him. "Baby" I say softly and he sniffles and wipes his eyes as he looks at me and says "You kissed my brother." "No I swear I didn't. He tried to force himself on me and I pushed him away, I swear nothing happened and I would never want it to." Gerard stares at me looking incredibly hurt and doesn't say anything else. "Baby" I say again softly and he shakes his head and says "It looked like you were kissing back." "I swear I wasn't." Gerard sniffles again and doesn't say anything else and I let out a soft sigh. "Do you want me to go?" Gerard just keeps staring at his lap and doesn't say anything else and after a long minute of silence I sigh again and stand up. "Fine then" I say to him before I turn and leave the bathroom, walking down the hallway and pausing briefly to pull my shoes on before leaving his house, Gerard not bothering to stop me. I start walking down the street, running my fingers through my hair as I wonder what the fuck just happened. After a few minutes of walking I reach a small convenience store and I step inside, looking around for a while before the store assistant recognises me and fan girls hard and I'm really not in the mood but I sign an autograph, refusing the picture she wants and she looks disappointed but I couldn't care less in that moment. I step back outside and light up a cigarette, calling for a cab and leaning against the building while I smoke and when he gets there I get in, telling the driver the hotel I want and we drive away, my eyes welling with tears as my chest burns with anger as I stare out the window, watching the scenery flash by.

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