Kill This Venom From My Heart

Gerard and I spend the whole afternoon in his room playing video games and I end up staying at his house for dinner again. After dinner we go back down to his room and put on a movie and halfway through we get into the bed, sitting back against the headboard with the blanket pulled over our laps and we shift around to make ourselves comfortable, our hands linked under the blanket. A few minutes later I feel eyes on me and when I turn my head to look at Gerard he leans in and kisses me, his tongue sliding into my mouth and I groan in appreciation as I kiss back and we end up making out heatedly, sliding around to lay down, our hands gently wandering each other's bodies. "Frank" Gerard pants softly and I bring my hand up to cup his cheek. "Will you stay the night?" I stare at him wide eyed, searching his face for any sign of hesitation but he seems sure so I say "Yeah, if it's alright." Gerard nods and slowly sits up, climbing out of the bed and saying "I'll be back" before leaving the room. I roll over onto my back and let out a soft sigh, running my fingers through my hair as I think about just how gone I am for him. A few minutes later he comes back downstairs with a smile on his face and I sit up and smile back at him. "So, my mom kinda knows" he tells me as he climbs back onto the bed and I stare at him confused for a second before it clicks and I say "About us?" "Yeah, she won't tell Mikey but she knows." I nod slowly and his face drops slightly as he says "Should I not have told her?" "Oh no no it's alright" I tell him, smiling softly at him. "I just, I'm happy we could tell someone." Gerard smiles wide again as he says "Are you going to tell anyone?" "Maybe Bob when the time is right" I tell him and he nods before I reach out and grab his wrist, tugging him towards me and sealing my lips to his again.

Later that night before we go to bed we go upstairs for a drink and Gerard's mom and dad are in the kitchen doing the dishes. "Hey boys" Donna greets us and his dad smiles way too much at us and it makes me feel a little uncomfortable. We get our drinks and as we go to leave the kitchen Donna turns and says "Boys I know you won't want to hear this but if you are going to do anything I want to make sure you have protection and..." "Oh my god Ma stop" Gerard shrieks and I lower my gaze to the floor, biting my bottom lip against the awkward giggle that wants to escape me at the look on Gerard's face. "Gee I'm not stupid, I know what's going to happen and I just want you to be safe." "We're leaving now" he says softly as he grabs my hand and starts pulling me from the room and when we reach his bedroom door Gerard's dad steps out of the kitchen and says "Boys." We turn to look at him and he comes down to us, resting his hand on Gerard's shoulder as he says "I know that was embarrassing but your mother is just being a mother and I actually agree with her, we just want to be sure that you're being responsible." Gerard clears his throat and says "Its fine dad, I swear." After we go back into the room we strip down and lay beside each other, both of us shirtless and Gerard leaves the lamp on as he lays beside me and bites his bottom lip before saying "I'm so sorry for that." I smile softly at him as I say "It's alright, they're just being parents. It's actually kinda sweet that they care so much, I've never had that before." "Really?" "Yeah, my dad left when I was three and my mom worked four jobs to support us so when I was at the age for all that she was never around to show concern so it's nice that your parents are so caring." "Oh" Gerard says softly, not knowing what else to say. I lean in and press a soft kiss to his lips before pulling away again and Gerard reaches out to turn the lamp off, snuggling closer to me in the dark and I wrap my arm around his waist, our faces almost touching and I can feel his warm breath brushing over my face every time he breathes. "Gee" I say softly after a few minutes of silence. "Yeah?" "I...." I hesitate, unsure if I should say what I'm thinking and the longer the silence drags on the more I freak myself out and I eventually saying "Never mind."

The next morning I am woken early by my phone ringing and I reluctantly drag myself out of bed and away from Gerard's warmth as I stumble over to my pants and grab my phone, seeing Bobs name on the screen. "Hey fucker, what are you calling so early for?" I croak into the phone and Bob chuckles before saying "Sorry dude, forgot about the time difference. Listen the guys want to get together and do some work on the new album, when can you come back?" "Fuck, I was kinda hoping to stay for a little longer." "What's going on? It's a little strange that you flew across the country to hang out with some kid who happens to be a fan. The other guys saw your twitter post and they had a lot of questions, I didn't know what to tell them." "Look Bob you can't tell anyone else but....we're together." "What? How old is this kid? What the fuck are you doing Frank? This kid is probably using you for popularity." "Don't you fucking talk about him like that. He's seventeen and...." "Seventeen?" He yells at me. "Are you fucking insane? Do you want to end up in jail? Not to mention destroy the band?" "Bob I haven't slept with him or anything and we've talked about it, we're keeping it private until he turns eighteen. Please don't tell the guys because I really don't think they'll understand and Gerard isn't like that at all, I trust him completely and you know how hard that is for me." Bob sighs softly into the phone before saying "Ok, I'll keep my mouth shut but if anything happens I'm going to kick your ass." I smile as I know I can trust Bob and a few seconds later he says "So tell me all about him." I chuckle as I say "That was so gay of you." Bob laughs back as he says "Yeah, it kinda was." "Look I'll talk to Gee and I'll get back to you about when I'll be back." After we hang up I go back over to the bed, sitting on the edge and watching Gerard sleep for a few minutes before he starts to stir and I reach down and gently run my fingers through his hair. "Gee" I say softly and he opens his eyes and smiles up at me. "Baby we need to talk." His smile drops as he slowly sits up and I reach out and take his hand in mine. "Are you breaking up with me?" He asks and I smile as I say "No of course not. Look Bob just called and the guys want to start writing for the next album so I kinda...." "You have to go back?" "I don't really want to but yeah, I gotta go back." Gerard nods slowly and says "Ok." "You have a break from school soon right?" I ask and he nods and says "Yeah in three weeks." "Do you think your parents would let me fly you out for a while during your break?" "You'd really want to?" "Of course baby, you let me know when you want to if you can and I'll send you a ticket." Gerard smiles before sliding closer to me and I wrap my arms around him as he snuggles into my chest. "When do you have to go?" He asks softly and I sigh as I say "I'll have to organise a flight but I should probably head back as soon as I can, maybe tomorrow."

Notes

As of today I have spent the last 91 months of my life with one person and that seems kinda scary when I think about it....

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