Chapter 18
Jamia’s POV
“Lyn you will tell him, you can’t just tell him it’s his, that will never work!” I yelled at her, she knew she couldn’t pull that off, the only reason she brought it up is because she wished she could. “Lyn, I know it’s going to hurt, but promise you will be honest with him, for-” The sound of my ringtone cut me off.
“Who is it?” I could see the terror on her face, if it was Gerrad, she knew I would make her talk to him.
“Lucky for you, it’s frank, I answered the phone, “hello?”
“Don’t tell him!” she repeated frantically in a whisper.
“Are you… ok?” Frank asked, caring as always. There wasn’t enough joy in me to smile but if it had been just that, a smile would have spread across my face.
“I’ve been better,” I said with a yawn running my hand through my hair. Forced to come up with an excuse, because I knew Frank would ask, “I’ve been helping a friend at home.” From the corner of my eye I watched Lyn-z begin to freak, “she’s got some problems at home,” Lyn-z let out a sigh of relief.
“Jamia, promise me,” Lyn-z begged. I had to get out of the house, Frank was sure to hear her in the background. I started to walk out the door.
“Who is it?” Frank questioned.
“She won’t let me say,” I closed the door behind me; I began to pace the porch. He knew almost immediately it was Lyn-z with the problems. “Mhmmmm,” I muttered.
“Gerard hasn’t said anything,” well of course he hasn’t I thought rolling my eyes.
“Frank, he doesn’t know yet,” I couldn’t lie to him, even if I tried, he would know, he always managed to catch me.
“What?” it was obvious how confused he was.
Shit I shouldn’t have said that, he was going to say the something, the truth was on its way out, I was screwed. I couldn’t form words; my mind just couldn’t put a sentence together to fix the situation. I stuttered and mumbled; almost a whimper escaped my lips, my situation felt so helpless, so pathetic.
Franks was getting upset, “Jamie, what the fuck happened?!” He never got angry, never used my name.
I leant against the window to cover up Lyn-z’s gaze out to me. “Lyn-z’s pregnant.” I was nearly crying as I was forced to break a promise to keep my boyfriend happy.
“You can’t let her drag you into this stuff…” he paused for moment as he realized what I said. He was Gerard’s best friend, he probably knew Gerard’s virgin status, “Wait what?! She’s pregnant since when?” I felt Lyn-z hit the window, she heard what I said, she was sure to make it obvious, winced at the shake of the window, her presence was lost as I was sure she had walked away.
“About two months ago,” I rubbed my forehead, my brow lowered, the worried expression came through in my voice no matter how much I fought it. He didn’t respond, thinking I suppose, “Frank?” I questioned after a moment, still no response, “Frank don’t tell him please! I heard the pathetic begging in my voice.
“Why shouldn’t I?” He doesn’t deserve this shit,” Frank Growled, he was normally so kind, and so soft, but not at that moment. "He's going to find out eventually you know."
"Do you think we're stupid?!" We know that! She needs to tell him herself, Frank, this isn't your place. We have it handled."
"Why do you insist on saying we? You aren’t her, and she's not you, and if she was, we'd all have a lot less shit in our lives."
"Frank, please stop," I cried, I gave up trying to hide the sadness in my voice.
"No! Listen to me! I know you're her friend and you want to be there for her. You get too involved in her problems, it's going to end up hurting you, and it's already hurt me," Frank was so stern. All of lyn-z's problems did make me grow weary. Although, she was my best friend, it was my responsibility there for her.
"What are you saying?" It couldn't be true. He didn't mean it; he wasn't going to break up with me now right? Right when i needed him most? He said he loved me, he always had.
"Jamia, I think we should take some time.
“Frank, give me a second chance i can change, i can stop all of it."
“Jamia, no. You need her and she needs you. I could never ask you to leave her that would be selfish of me. I know we had something, but i think it's time to let us go."
"Frank please, you told me you loved me like a week ago, what changed?" It took me only a moment to realize the flaw in that statement, I took in a little breath, Frank hadn't told me that since before Lyn got pregnant. He gave me a moment to process the information he knew I had recently realized.
"I did, I do," He corrected after a moment, "I don't know- Jamia, I don't know myself, not like I used to. So on top of this, Lyn-z thing, I need to figure myself out, know myself before I can know someone else too."
"Promise you'll consider fiving us a second chance when this entire thing over?" I wasn't crying as hard as before, it had died down. Frank didn't say anything but I could tell her was nodding.
"Thanks," I whispered then hung up the phone. Anger and sadness swelled up inside of me. I through my phone at the wall hoping it would break. I walked over picked up my phone and without even looking at it, I put it in my pocket. I entered the house to find Lyn-z sitting on the couch waiting for me. She looked at me with expecting eyes, to be told what my screaming and hysteria had been about. "Frank just broke up with me," I muttered.
"I'm so sorry," Lyn-z only stared at the floor, she knew frank didn't like her, and she knew i had told him, so she probably figured this whole situation probably set him off, causing her to feel responsible.
"N- No," I stuttered as I looked up trying to recompose myself to look strong, "he's not the one that needs me, you are, I don't need him to be a distraction from being her for you.
"Thank you J," She smiled at me," I was sure to get over him, I had to.
"Anyway," I ran my hand through my hair getting back to business, "You need to be honest with Gerard, for me."

_Lyn-z's POV_
Jamia sat down next to me after coming inside, she made me promise I would tell Gee, which obviously i would have to, but when i made no move to call him, she took the phone from my lap and found his name in my favorites. Jamia put the phone to my ear so I could hear the dial tone, "hello?" his unexpecting voice rang.
"Gerard, I need to talk to you..."