Even Lights Can Fade Away

RECAP FOR THOSE WHO REALLY DON’T WANNA HAVE TO GO BACK AND REREAD THE ENTIRE THING CAUSE THE AUTHOR DIDN’T HAVE TIME TO KEEP UP WITH THE POSTING

Frank wakes up and discovers that he is a newly transformer vampire. After he drinks blood for the first time to get his memories back he is thrilled to realize that he is now immortal and gets to spend forever with Gerard. However it isn’t long before problems occur. Gerard starts having nightmares and won’t tell Frank anything about them and just tell him he doesn’t want to talk about it. He also won’t let Frank leave to go to work in fear that he might accidently end up biting someone. Finally Frank gets tired of his overprotection and sneaks out of the house to go to work at Skeleton Crew. When he gets there he is welcomed back warmly by his receptionist Ellie, and the band Storming the Academy. Along with Ellie, four other new OC’s are introduced, Ember, Ashlyn, Cas, and Riley who are all in the band. It’s when hanging out with them that Frank first starts to miss his human life. When Frank gets home that evening he starts to worry about how Gerard will respond to his absence. He finds him asleep when he gets there but Gerard is soon woken up by another nightmare, which he again will say nothing about. Needing answers, Frank decides to go behind Gerard’s back once again and go visit Mikey. When he gets there he finds out that Mikey is actually still mourning the death of Ray and has turned to alcohol. Frank decides that he needs to help Mikey before he can get help himself and tries to act as a counselor. Mikey later asks why Frank came in the first place and Frank promises to tell him later. Which leads to the present chapter…

Early the next morning I was back in front of Mikey’s door. I bounced nervously on the balls of my feet, but I wasn’t sure why exactly I was nervous. Maybe it was just cause I hadn’t eaten in a couple of days. Anyway, here I was waiting for the door to open.
I hadn’t told Gerard about visiting his brother yesterday or what a mess Mikey had been. I figured he was already under enough stress from whatever it was that was bothering him. Besides, I had decided that it would be Mikey’s decision to tell him. I knew the younger Way brother, and I was positive that he would tell Gerard eventually.
The door opened slowly and Mikey’s head peeked out. To my slight disappointment he didn’t look better than the day before. His eyes were still bloodshot and had heavy bags under them and his entire figure stooped over with an unseen weight. I guess it had only been a day though. I couldn’t expect that much of a change. He caught my concerned stare and hung his head.
“I know,” He whispered, trying to give me a small smile but soon giving up, “I’m working on it.”
“I’m sorry Mikes, I’m just worried about you,” I apologized, feeling rude.
“No no, it’s fine. It’s actually nice to see how much someone cares.” He admitted shrugging the door open further and letting me into the house. To my relief the house was still clean like I had left it the day before. I did notice a couple of empty beer bottles on the coffee table, but I decided to ignore them for the moment and turn my attention to Mikey. “So why haven’t you told Gerard you’ve been visiting me?”
His question startled me and I tensed up for a second before relaxing. “How’d you know I hadn’t told him?” He gave me a small smirk.
“Easy, I know my brother.”
“And?” I prompted following him as he walked into the living room and sat down. I sat across, leaning forward with my elbows resting on my knees. I absentmindedly played with a loose fray in my jeans while he talked.
“And knowing my brother he would have come with you, or at least called.” I sighed because I knew he was right.
“Well actually two reasons,” I began. He raised his eyebrow as if questioning the fact that I had more than one reason to not tell his brother I was with him. I waved him off with a flick of my wrist. “First off, I think its up to you to tell him about your…um…struggles?” I wasn’t sure what to phrase what Mikey was going through.
“Depression and a slight alcohol addiction Frank,” He told me in a dry voice.
“Yes well that. I didn’t see it as my place to say anything to him about it. Although you will be telling him right?”
“Thank you for not telling him,” Mikey ignored my question for the moment. “I do need to be the one to tell him about it…” He drifted off into his own little world thinking. I let him sit for a minute before I cut in again.
“So when are you going to tell him?” I questioned softly not wanting to upset him. He jolted back into reality and was blank before a second before his eyes welled up and he sank into himself crying. I quickly switched spots so that I could comfort him. “It’s okay Mikey. I swear it’ll be okay.”
“No it won’t” Mikey sobbed into my chest and I hugged him closer. “Frank I’m scared to tell him!” I wasn’t expecting him to say that. Out of all the things that could have come from Mikey Way’s mouth that moment, him being afraid to tell Gerard about his problems was the last thing I would have imagined.
The Way brothers were close to each other. I remember meeting Mikey for the first time when I walked in on him and Gerard having the most unmanliness hug ever. I mean I’m not one to talk. I fawn over puppies and cried when the Doctor left Rose in the alternative universe without getting to finish saying ‘I love you’, but I was still manlier than that hug. But it showed the brothers love for each other. I couldn’t count the amount of times Gerard had told me stories of him and Mikey growing up. For Mikey to be afraid of him seemed odd and out of place.
“Mikey, why are you afraid? This is Gerard, your brother, we’re talking about.”
“But Gerard was an addict before he turned vampire!” Mikey was still crying into my shirt and I was trying my best to think of ways to calm him down. “And I promised him that I would never do what he did. But here I am now, and he’s going to be so upset!”
I sighed deeply as I thought over what he just said. It was true; Gerard would be disappointed. I was pretty sure though he would want to know so that he could help his brother.
“Mikey, we both know Gerard would only want to help you out. You mean so much to him how could he not? He’s going to be disappointed, but he’ll understand,” Mikey sniffled and nodded into my chest. “He lost James and he almost lost me remember? He knows how feels.”
“Frank, just please promise me that you’ll be there when I decide to tell him!” He locked our eyes together, his still red and swollen and still filling with fresh tears.
“Of course,” I swore. If he wanted me to be there then I would be there no matter what. Mikey straightened up and started trying to compose himself again. I wondered how many times he had done this in the last couple of weeks.
“You said there were two reasons.”
“Huh?” Mikey glanced over at me before shifting away from me on the couch so that he could see me better.
“You said there were two reasons you didn’t tell Gerard you were coming over,” He reiterated reminding me of what I had previously said.
“Oh! Okay,” I stopped and played nervously with my fingers. “It’s actually the reason I came to see you in the first place. I don’t wanna make you worse though by adding on stress.” Mikey set his jaw firmly and seemed to be pulling himself together.
“I care about my brother and if he needs help, then I’m going to help him.” I sighed but didn’t bother trying to argue.
I spent the next hour explaining to him about the nightmares that Gerard had been having. I also explained how something just always seemed off and how protective he had been when it had come to me returning to work and how he wouldn’t open up to me or tell me anything.
“So you came to me because I know him best,” Mikey clarified when I had finished.
“Exactly,” I slumped over in defeat, resting my head in my hands, “I just don’t know what to do anymore. I keep finding myself wishing I were human again, Gerard is having nightmares and won’t talk to me, and you’re mourning.” I turned and looked at him. “God what’s happened to us?”
“I don’t know Frank, I don’t know.” He sighed heavily and it gave me an unsettling feeling. “But anyway about Gerard.”
“Yeah,” I replied, hoping he would tell me something that would give me answers I desperately needed.
“When we were waiting for you to wake up Gerard was going crazy,” Mikey began. I nodded, indicating that I was following along. “You know he has an issue with guilt. He blamed himself for you dying.” He paused for a second, “Like actually legit dying dying. He felt so much pressure about the fact that he didn’t know if you would want to be changed or not. He felt that when you woke up you would wake up hating him for making you into what he himself hates.” I nodded again. This pretty much sounded like Gerard. “Now like you said you want your human life back. Gerard is an artist. That means he’s very perceptive. He’s probably—whether consciously or subconsciously—caught onto it. I’m guessing his nightmares are focused mainly on you like you said and on you hating him and leaving him.”
I felt incredibly stupid. It all made sense and it had been there the entire time and I was too dense to put the puzzle together.
“That being said it could also be mixed with a combination of everything that’s happened to him finally crashing down on him now that it’s all over.”
I sighed and clasped my hands together. “Mikey Way, this is why I come to you.” I expected at least a small laugh at that but nothing came. I glanced over at him and he seemed sad and solemn, much like he had the past couple of times I had seen him. I sighed again. “Okay what’s up?”
“Why do you want to be human again?” He suddenly blurted it out startling me. “You still love him right? Like a lot?”
“Yes of course I do!” I exclaimed stunned but recovering from the outburst.
“Then why would you want to become human again? That would mean that you would die and leave him alone. Don’t you still love him? “
“Mikey,” I began gently, “I love Gerard with all my heart. I would never give him up. There’s some things I enjoy about being a vampire, and being with him forever is number one on that list.”
“But there’s bad things too?” He prompted.
I nodded. “I’m wary around people now. I don’t want to hurt them but I’m aware of the fact that I so easily could. And I can’t eat like normal people do. I can’t even stand the smell of food yet. My old friends don’t know what I am and neither does my family. Suddenly my boyfriend can’t help but feel guilty whenever he looks at me and suddenly I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life.”
“What do you mean?” Mikey asked raising an eyebrow.
“I mean I wanted to sign bands and watch them get big and maybe one day be in a band of my own. But I don’t know if I can do that anymore. I can’t run Skeleton Crew forever because people will notice when I never age. I’ll have to leave it. And the same goes for the band. Never aging gets old after awhile.”
Mikey nodded in sympathy and leaned back over and hugged me again. “We’re all just a bit of a mess right now.”
“That we are Mikey Way,” I agreed, “That we are.”

Notes

Okay so yes it is summer so I actually have time to post again. I will try to update it more frequently now. I really think I'll stick to summer writing and let it die out during the winter so that means I'm hoping to complete all my fan fictions by mid August.

The recap above is for those who might have forgotten what was going on in this story or who just needed a refresher since I didn't update this for over SIX FREAKING MONTHS *cringes at lack of writing*

So question time:
About a year ago (maybe longer) I started writing my first ever fan fic. It's really crappy and I kinda let it die off. Lately though people have been commenting on it and asking me to write more on it. In hope's of keeping it alive, would you guys like to see me post it on here? I think I may have asked this before but I'm not sure. It would obviously go on the back burner until i could get this fic doe and another one that I'm writing on Wattpad (That one was the second one I started writing and it's also really bad but for some reason people seem to enjoy it so I might post it too). Anyway let me know either in the comments or by messaging me. I'd appreciate it.

and uh by the way...
I SAW GERARD MOTHER FUCKING WAY IN CONCERT AND IT WAS AMAZING AND HE WAS JUST AS SASSY AS EVER

that is all