Laugh with me

Over the years gerard and frank grew into handsome boys it was on gerard’s 14th birthday when frank got him that one comic gerard was missing, he had been looking for the first published batman comic since last year, frank found it online a while back and broke open his savings he had since he was 7, he was planning to buy his own guitar for himself but he knew gerard meant more to him, the smile on gerard face made frank happy too.

It was not late summer on august 16th a year later the boys grew closer they were practicality bestfriends they had never thought of them selfs as each others brother, they were close friends, but the longer the school years went on things tilted a little, frank stayed out longer, he’d ditch gerard at school, he didn’t help gerard when he’d get teased in the locker rooms frank would just look at him then throw his shirt on and walk out, but what meant to Gerard more was when frank would sneak into Gerard’s window half drunk and crawl into bed with him like he’d always do, he’d still talk to frank about things, they’d still joke and play fight with each other, yes gerard knew he could be an asshole but he still loved him more then a friend, what frank said that night in the tree house all thoughs years ago still stuck with him ‘im bigger then your nightmares’ he was right, gerard smiled and curled into frank’s warm body, faint beer filled his nose but he didnt mind frank kept the monsters away.

Gerard grew more in love with frank, they were brothers but not my blood so i was okay he sat on his bed doodling random things until linda called for dinner
“okay!” he shouted back he jumped off his bed and fixed his hair, once we was at the table frank was next to him eating fast
“frankie slow down youre gunna puke” anthony scowled
“hey gerard wonna come to my room after dinner i need help with homework” frank huffed and took a sip of his water
“sure” he smiled back
Once they were finished frank ran into his bedroom with gerard slowly walking behind him
“so what do you need help with?” he questioned
“here” he said throwing a beer at gerard
“what” gerard asked
“drink it and lock the door i dont want mom to know i own porn huh” frank laughed
“come on gerard” he nodded to the beanbag chair next to his and grabbed the remote and quiet moaning filled the air
“frank what are you doing?” he sounded scared
“porn duh”
“i-i dont i-”
“have you ever jacked off?”
“n-no?”
“dude!” frank giggled taking a sip of beer
“come on you gotta see this girls tits they’re fake but man i’d love to shove my head in between though’s”
“uh i-i dont want to” gerard mumbled setting the beer back on night stand
“the fuck man why?”
“i dont like it thats all” he shrugged
“what are you some faggot?” frank joked
Gerard stayed silent
“no gee dont tell me your-”
Gerard ran out of franks room and down the stairs
“gerard sweety where are you going?!” linda yelled he just ignored her and ran out the door
“GERARD!” frank called from the window, tears rolled down his face and he ran down the street ignoring the calls of his name, he knew he was gay, he knew he has been since he was 13 years old and he knew he was in love by the age on 16 and it was shitty to know it around 10 at night gerard came home to a silent house he planned on telling frank he loved him but he didnt know when.

One month later
Gerard’s POV

I pace back and forth in my room trying to build up my nerve. I've been here for a few years now and in that time Frank and I have grown so close, I can even stand to talk around him some days and we have confided in each other dark little secrets we have never been able to tell anyone else and we both know we'll take them to the grave. Frank is always there for me, he's the only person who has ever just supported me the way I need, my late night nightmares still an occasional occurrence and even after we hit our teen years he showed no hesitation in letting me into his bed, holding me close and telling me I would be alright because he was there, only over the last year the comforting touch he provides has sparked feelings in me that took me a long time to realise what they meant. I'm in love with Frank, and today is the day I am finally going to tell him. I pace back and forth across my room one last time before taking a final deep calming breath and opening the door, marching across the hall and wrapping my fingers around the doorknob to Franks room. Loud music is playing so I don't bother knocking, Frank and I that comfortable around each other and I doubt he would hear me anyway. I slowly turn the knob and push the door open, immediately wishing I hadn't. Across the room on the bed is Frank, naked from the waist down with a completely naked girl I recognise from school bouncing and grinding in his lap, her head thrown back in pleasure, her eyes clenched shut and her mouth parted and Franks hands are wrapped tightly around her hips, low breathy grunts escaping his own parted shiny lips. I stand there unable to move or look away as I feel my heart shatter and in that moment I truly wish I could die, cease to exist and the pain of my heart shattering spreads though my entire body. I hear a small whimpering whine and Franks head snaps over to look in my direction and his eyes lock with mine, something that looks similar to guilt flashing across his face and it's only then that I realise the whimpering whine came from me and I suddenly gain control of my body again, turning and fleeing down the hall, leaving his bedroom door open as I run downstairs and past Linda on my way out the back door, running down the garden path and out the back gate, running to the tree house we built just into the forest when we were nine, my vision blurred with tears and I huddle in the corner, pulling my knees to my chest and sobbing violently into them as I rock myself back and forth, images of Frank and the girl moving together like that flashing through my mind like some sick torture device.Two hours later my tears have stopped and I am leaning back against the wall, my legs spread out in front of me when Franks head appears in the doorway, his body entering the small space as he climbs to the top of the ladder. "I'm sorry you walked in on that" he says softly and I shrug, not wanting to speak to him. "Gee please don't go silent again, talk to me." "Who is she?" I ask and he says "Jamia, from school." "Do you like her?" "Well yeah she's my girlfriend." I swallow hard as a lump forms in my throat and I say "Girlfriend? For how long?" "Two weeks" he says with another flash of guilt spread across his face. "I was going to tell you Gee I just...." "We tell each other everything, or so I thought" I snap before sliding over to leave the tree house. "Gee wait." "No" I snap, sliding over the edge and climbing down to make my escape but Frank is right behind me. "Gee I'm sorry I didn't tell you I just didn't know how." "Well I know now so don't talk to me" I snap as I turn and run back to the house, brushing past Linda and Anthony on my way to the stairs and when I reach my room I slam the door shut and throw myself on the bed, anger replacing my sadness.

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