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Dear diary...

Liquor & pot

Frank's P.O.V.:
I had been looking for Gerard for almost two hours. Mikey, Ray, Alicia and Bob were downtown looking for him. I hadn't seen Alex either so decided to go to the woods to look for her, after all Gerard had run this way.
"Alex! Gerard! Guys come out, it's getting late" No one answered... As I kept walking inside the forest I heart silent screams. I ran towards the screams were coming from, it was Alex and an unknown figure on top of her. Her shirt was up, he was undoing her pants.
"Get off her!" I yelled
"Frank, help me, it's Bert" she was crying, her hands were tied up
"Bert what the fuck, get off her"
"Fuck you Iero, Gerard doesn't want her nor you. I might as well fuck her, I know she wants it"
"You're sick man, get off her" I said as I tied his neck with my arm, he was taller and stronger than me. Bert managed to push me against a tree, where I hit my head and lost it. I couldn't see strait, I felt my body not responding. In the background I heard Bert laughing while unbuckling his pants, Alex was screaming with a piece of cloth inside her mouth.

Alex's P.O.V.:
Bert was looking for a condom in his pockets and wallet, my mouth was tied up with a cloth he had with him. I dreaded the fact I came here looking for Gerard, Bert was making me sick. When he pressed his body against mine I could tell he hadn't seen a shower in days, his lips were chapped and his breath smelled like liquor and pot. I cried as a saw him removing his pants, the only person I've ever been with was my ex boyfriend from Jersey. As I cried and tried to get myself away from my reality he took my pants off and touched my underwear as if studying it. Frank was on the side, he had hit his head hard and hadn't moved ever since.
"You'll be mine now, no one is here to save you" I looked at him, he didn't have any sign of remorse in his eyes.
"No she won't" said Ray with Bob beside him, he had finally come to save me. Behind them, Mikey was running towards Frank to help him out. Both Ray and Bob grabbed Bert and took them to the lot. Mikey was left with me and Frank.
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I woke up in an unknown bunk, in the background I heard Ray talking with Bob.
"I think we did a great job, I never really liked Bert. I hope Alex is feeling better"
"How do you think it happened? I didn't know he wanted to be with her"
"I talked to Alicia and apparently he was like hung up on her, probably Gerard told him something about her" said Ray.
"Right, Gerard! We should go look for him, Frank and Alex can stay so they can rest"
"Yeah, let's tell Mikey to keep an eye on them from time to time"
"He's in the FFTL bus, let's just let them be, they're probably tired", said Bob as they left the bus.
I stood up and crawled into Frank's bunk, I didn't feel like being by myself. The simple though of Bert on top of me made me sick to my stomach.
"Frankie?"
"Alex! Hey, wanna get inside?"
"I don't feel like being by myself..."
He stood up and let me in, same as a few nights before.
"Alex... Are you okay?"
"I was scared... Thank you for coming to save me"
"Well I didn't do much, I could've been more helpful if he hadn't almost cracked my skull" He wrapped his arms around me, he definitely had a rough night. Gerard had beat him previously, Bert had punched him against a tree and on top of that his band had a missing singer.
While I rested my head on his chest I heard his heartbeat, when I touched him or traced his tattoos it seemed to go faster. I grabbed his hand and played with his fingers while studying his tattoos.
"You really think you're hopeless?"
"It's supposed to say hopeless romantic, I tattooed the other part on my other hand"
"Well... Are you?"
"You'll tell me later"
"What?"
"I don't know... I really like you"
"Yeah, I dig you too. You make me laugh"
"Are you friendzoning me?"
"Frankie hahahaha please!", he let my hands go and crawled on top of me, "what are you doing?"

He didn't say a word, just looked at me and came closer.
He cleared the hair from my face, "I want you"
He ran his fingers through my hair and played with my earlobe. I knew it was probably too sudden but I grabbed his neck and pushed him closer to kiss me. His kisses were soft at first, as if he .,were scared of hurting me. As I wrapped my legs around him he got more aggressive, he licked my bottom lip as if asking for permission. The feeling of his tongue with mine was making my hormones go wild, my skin felt sensitive. He bit me from time to time and ran his hands up my shirt. He played with my bra while we kissed. As we came closer I could feel him between my legs.
"Frank? Alex?"
"Gerard, hey, didn't hear you come in"
"Yeah... Am I interrupting anything?"
I blushed and hid on Frankie's chest, "no, we were just talking"
"May I speak to you? Uhm... I think I owe you an apology"
"I'll go for a walk, I'll leave you guys alone"
As I got off the bunk, Frank grabbed my waist and smiled at me.
"Alex, stay close. I'll catch you up in a minute"
"Yeah, Alex we should go to my house to hand out or something. Since tour is over this should be fun. Go get your stuff, you're staying with us okay?"
"Sure, I'll be back in a minute then" They both looked at each other and sat down in front of each other, Frank's expression changed to a serious one as soon as I left.

I went into the FFTL bus and grabbed my stuff, Sonny grabbed my hands and hugged me. I wasn't aware he was there.
"I'm so sorry for what happened to you, we should've been with you"
"Sonny, it's fine, I only got scared. Luckily nothing happened"
"I'll go look for him... This can't keep going on" As soon as he stopped talking Derek and Travis came in. Without any hesitation they all pinned me to the floor and hugged me.
"Guys, I can't... I can't... You're hurting me"
Travis helped me get up and made me lean on his shoulder while hugging me, "We have to look for that son of a bitch, this can't go on like this. I want to smash his face against a fucking wall"
"Guys, chill... Maybe he was high or something... I don't know. He doesn't deserve being harmed that way" Derek approached me and held my hands, "you're so nice to everyone, this is what you get. You shouldn't have any mercy on anyone. That fucker needs to get hurt, what he did or attempted to do to you isn't okay by any means. Whether he was high or not it shouldn't matter, he should've respected you"
I didn't understand why tears were running through my face, I had been molested as a kid yet somehow felt more secure now with them than any time in my life.
"Alex, you're like family to us and we'll take care of you. We know tour is over and you'll be here but if anything happens don't ever hesitate on calling us, okay?" Said Sonny
"I promise, I'll miss you guys..." Travis wiped the tears running down my face and all hugged me.
"We love you so much." Said Derek
"Where are you going?" Asked Sonny while looking at my bags
"Uhm... The guys from MyChem asked me to stay with them... I mean, I know almost the entire band, we grew up together and stuff. They live near me so I'll just hang out with them"
"Okay... Just take good care of yourself. I'll help you take your shit to their bus, I want to talk to Mikey and Alicia. Travis, Derek go do what we had planned, I'll meet you up in a minute"

After Sonny walked with me to the bus and said goodbye, I saw him leave with both Mikey and Alicia. While I walked inside their bus I saw Frank and Gerard hugging each other, apparently they had solved things.
"Well, it's nice seeing you hug and not hitting each other"
"After kissing him onstage this is the least i can do" added Gerard as he walked towards me to help me with my bags.
"Looks like Frank's lips have been having a very busy day" I said while winking at him
"What?" Asked Gerard
"I hope I get them working out in a few minutes" said Frank while smirking
"What are you guys talking about?"
Neither one of us answered, we just looked at each other as if we were remembering what had happened earlier.
"Okay so... Alex there aren't enough bunks so you have to choose your bunkmate"
"Uhm... Well... I had slept with Frank before... I guess-"
"Okay then, we should let him sleep by himself tonight, you'll sleep with me. Like old times" he said while smiling.
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I woke up to the smell of alcohol beside me, apparently Gerard had gone out drinking before bed. It was 2:37 am.
"Alex, sweetheart, why are you still up?"
"I just woke up, are you drunk again?"
"Nah, I just had a few beers with Bert"
"Bert?"
"Yah, ah he says hi"
"You don't know... I don't like Bert"
"Really? He's a cool guy, you just have to get to know him. He was interested in you, I should probably set you guys up"
"No, I don't like him nor do I want to date him"
The smell of alcohol and pot was making me sick, it reminded me of what happened with Bert earlier. I got off his bunk.
"Alex. What's wrong?"
"Nothing, just go to bed. I'll hang out here"
"You're being irrational Bert is a cool guy you don't even know him"
"Shut the fuck up, Gerard"
"Hey, calm down. Are you with your period or something?"
"What the fuck? Eat a dick Gerard, you have no fucking idea of how Bert really is"
"You don't either, I don't think you even talked to him. Stop being a bitch"
"Seriously, Gerard?"
Ray and Frank had woken up, we weren't exactly whispering.
"Gerard, you're talking bullshit, just go to bed. I'll sleep with Alex tonight" said Frank as he pushed me closer to him.
"You just want to fuck her, she's gonna be like one of your hook ups. Stop acting nice, I know what you're doing"
"I should probably leave. I don't feel comfortable here" I said while I removed Frank's hands off me.
"Alex, Gerard is very drunk and high right now. Don't listen to him, stay, please. I don't want any more harm done to you." Said Ray while he refrained Gerard from falling
"Yeah, Alex, stay" said Mikey from his bunk, he apparently woke up.
"Stay so Frankie can fuck you" said Gerard
"Okay, that's it. Thanks guys but I'll go look for a place to sleep in" I grabbed my stuff and started walking towards the exit door
"Alex, please, stay" yelled Frank
"He's talking bullshit, Alex. Come on!" Said Ray

Notes

Hey guys, delayed update because I had a long day at band practice. anyway, I'll update tonight again, I'll see you in a while :)

Comments

IT WAS ALL GOING FINE!!!
FUCKING STEPHANIE!!!

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11/25/14

IT WAS ALL GOING FINE!!!
FUCKING STEPHANIE!!!

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11/25/14

IT"S A GIRL!!

Left Shark Left Shark
11/21/14

No, Rays fro lost volume..THAT CAN'T HAPPEN!!
Serious note, Bad Frank. Why would you do that??

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11/21/14

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!

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11/17/14