Dear diary...

Alex's P.O.V:
Touring had certainly been hard for both Frank and I. We had a couple tour dates together but he seemed to be afraid for the baby. We had a failed pregnancy before, he wanted me to rest but since Derek had taken the year off due to health complications I had to take the lead and tour with FFTL. We hadn't told anyone but our families and close circle of friends. The press didn't know much about it but they were certainly suspecting, I was three months along the pregnancy and would start showing soon. I noticed a small bum on my belly was forming but it was concealable with baggy clothes and the guitar. We were touring until Warped and then had a few months off. Frankie and the rest of MCR had tour date in Asia en Europe afterwards so I was probably having to stay by myself or go to Europe with my parents and him. We hadn't talked it through but I was pretty excited. I was half French due to my mother, I always wanted to raise a kid in calm France.
"Alex? Are you feeling okay?" Asked the tour manager
"Yeah, I'm just a little tired, it's been a rough couple of shows. You know, packed venues and heat"
"Go rest, please. You need to take care of yourself, meanwhile go backstage. I want to make sure you're fine. I'll send a doctor to check on you"
I nodded and grabbed a cold bottle of water as I sat on top of an amp, watching Frank perform.
I was completely blank, staring at nothing when a female doctor came in. She was very beautiful. She was a bit taller than me, probably 5'7, she had short brown hair and a petite body. Although, her most remarkable asset were her big blue eyes and delicate face.
"Excuse me" she said with a sweet voice "are you Alex?"
"Yes, hi"
"Okay so, your tour manager sent me to check you out. What's wrong? Wait first. I'll ask you some questions, okay?"
"Sure"
"Full name?"
"Alex Iero"
"Iero? As in Frank Iero? You're Frank Iero's wife or are you related to him, nah I would've met you"
"What?"
"Oh, I'm Stephanie. I was sorta dating Frank well... We got married in High school and then got divorced like a month later. Huh, like that would last."
I felt my confidence go way down, Frank was married to this beautiful lady?! He definitely didn't get an upgrade, I'm a mess. What the hell was I thinking with my tattoos and piercings and plain brown eyes and not as tall or petite as her. She interrupted my thoughts with that perfect voice of hers.
"So, you're married to him then, that's nice. I'm glad he found someone suitable for him. We made a promise to keep in touch if one of us got serious I think he might've been busy, although he called me when He was recording that record of his. Black festival is it?"
"Black parade" I said mumbling in a worried tone
"Oh yeah, that, I'm not really into rock music I'm not too involved"
"So he called you?"
"Yeah, we got together and had dinner... It was nice"
I had to fake a smile and nodded.
"So what's up? What are you feeling?"
"Well, I'm feeling a little dizzy and exhausted. I think it's the heat"
"I think so too. You look pretty dehydrated. Look, drink some Gatorade and I can give you a pill for dizziness, okay?"
"Uhm... I don't know about the pill, I'm pregnant"
"Oh" she looked down and had a disappointed look on her face "congratulations, how far along are you?"
"Three months, it's been great. I had a miscarriage before that."
"Well, then just drink the Gatorade and rest please"
She sat down, sighed and mumbled something. I didn't really understand what she said because I felt the urge to puke so I rushed to the back and went to the bathroom.
By the time I was done, I walked outside the toilet and watched my face. I grabbed a towel from our dressing room and dried my face. That's where I saw Frank and Stephanie talking. I was about to walk in but...
"What happened?"
"I don't know, I mumbled that I still loved you, I thought I said it to myself. She ran away and left"
"Did you guys talk? Does she know who you are?"
"She does, I just talked her in briefly"
"Did you tell her we slept together in NY?"
"No, I just told her we had dinner and that's it"
"Good, I just... I can't break her like that. That was a fucking mistake Stephanie, we shouldn't have done anything"
"Don't you still love me?"
"No, I just fucked you that one time"
"Why?"
"I don't fucking know, I want to find my wife"
"Why didn't you tell me you were married?"
"I thought you knew, that shit is everywhere"
"You know how I am..."
"Yeah, look get away. I want to look for her. Just shut up, she can't-"
I walked in and looked at him, I felt a knot in my throat. I tried so hard not to cry, he didn't deserve any of my tears.
"I can't find out that you cheated in me?"
"Alex, babe"
"Shut the fuck up."
"Alex, it wasn't Frank's fault. He was drunk and well I sedu-"
"Shut up, I don't need to hear it. Frank I want a divorce, you can stay here with your fucking Doctor. I've had enough of this."
"Alex please, think of our baby"
"Fuck you, here's your ring. I'm filing for divorce"
He grabbed my waist and tried kissing me.
"Get off me, you kissed and touched her with those lips and hands. You fucking disgust me"
I walked away with hands in my pockets and started crying, I heard him scream my name several times but deliberately ignored him.
I went to the dressing room to gather my stuff and left a note for the boys. I walked backstage once again to look for our tour manager. That's were I saw Frank with a scared look on his eyes, I lurked around but didn't find him. I'll call him later, whatever.
Frank kneeled down and wrapped his legs around my waist.
"Please don't leave me, it was a mistake, Alex please. It didn't mean anything, I love you please sweetie"
"Get the fuck off me or I'll call security"
Part of the crowd saw what was going on, I was expecting some awful rumours about this. Gerard came in and looked surprised.
"What's going on guys? What happened?"
I grabbed hands and removed them from my body, "ask this fucking idiot"
"What happened?!" He inquired desperately
I hugged Gerard and smiled at him, "I'm leaving to Europe for a time. I'll call you before I leave. I need some time alone, meanwhile ask him what happened. Don't worry Gerard, I'll be okay"
I kissed his cheek and left, he had a blank stare on his face.

Frank's P.O.V.:
Gerard took me backstage with the rest of the band while they tried to calm me down and find out what had just happened. They all gathered around and sat in a circle as if we were kindergarteners waiting for story time. Gerard was the only one talking.
"what happened, Frank? Why did Alex leave?"
"Well.. You know Stephanie, right?"
They all nodded and looked at me directly
"While we recorded The Black Parade, I was feeling quite lonely and felt my marriage was crappy and felt down due to Alex's depression"
"No..." Said Gerard
"Well I fucked her, we went for dinner because I was drunk and called her. I new she'd be available and well it happened. Alex didn't know but she overheard us talking about it, I though she had told her because she had rushed out but she probably just felt sick."
They were all silent, Bob just stood up and left. Ray was so disappointed, I think I saw his fro lose volume, he gave me a disapproval look and left. Both Mikey and Gerard stayed and tried to process what I just said.
"Why would you do that to her, dude she loved you." Said mikey
"I wasn't thinking straight I just felt lonely"
"FUCKING MASTURBATE THEN. YOU HURT MY BEST FRIEND AND SHE'S LEAVING TO EUROPE NOW BECAUSE OF YOUR FUCKING GARBAGE. SERIOUSLY FUCK OFF"
"What?"
"She left to Europe, I hope she never comes back because you don't deserve to see that baby. You didn't give a fuck about her or your marriage or your fucking baby"
"Gerard, what the fuck?"
"Tour is cancelled, I need a few weeks to assimilate this. Also, you be a fucking mand and use those fucking balls for something useful and go tell FFTL they don't have a guitar player because you let a fucking miserable ugly ass doctor suck your dick"
"Calm down Gerard"
"No, I'm over this."

This was it, this was my world crumbling around me in just half an hour.

Notes

Woah.