Dear diary...

I can't tell him we won't be able to keep this baby... Maybe I shouldn't have told him. I walked uphill while looking at the humid soil. He was probably back home having dinner or worried about where I am...
Maybe I should go back, I think he'll understand. I mean, it's not like we planned it... It's not like we're ending with this voluntarily.
I turned around and made my way back down, I wasn't too far from home anyway. As I walked down the road I looked at my wedding ring, we had promised to be beside each other whatever came in our way. I was definitely being irrational. It started raining while I walked, it soothed me. The sound of rain crashing with leaves and the concrete road was somewhat therapeutic.
"Alex!"
A car had pulled up beside the road, it was Frank.
He ran towards me and hugged me.
"Come, let's get in the car..."
I nodded silently at him and got inside. He placed his hand on mine and drove back home, without saying a word.
We walked inside the house, he held my hand and made me sit in the living room.
"Alex, wh-"
"Honey... May I speak first?"
He nodded and sat in front of my while holding my hands.
"Babe... I know you're aware that I'm pregnant but that's not the reason I left. We can't keep the baby, it's an ectopic pregnancy."
"Wh-how?"
"Well... Apparently it's because the birth control pills."
"Does it hurt?"
"Not yet but if we wait longer it will. The group of cells will keep growing and if we wait it'll breakthrough my Fallopian tubes"
"When are you having this done? You aren't touring then.."
"I am babe, I have to get this done as soon as possible"
"Okay then, let's go tomorrow. Let's call the doctor and schedule this, I don't want you to get hurt"
"Frankie... I'm sorry I failed. I'm sorry I can't give you kids for now, I'm sorry I can't even do this right"
"What are you talking about? This is not your fault, I wouldn't mind waiting nor having a kid right now. We just have to keep calm and do it properly"
"Do you want kids?"
"I always wanted kids, I want them to look like you"
"No, they should be beautiful like you. With big hazel eyes and thin pink lips"
"Or with brown eyes and full pink lips, with beautiful hair like yours"
"I'm sorry"
"It's okay babe, I partially understand. I mean, I know it'll be hard but I'm here for you. Okay?"
"Okay, so how was L.A.?"
"Well... I bought something for you, close your eyes"
I covered my eyes with my hands and waited eagerly.
"Open"
I put my arms down and saw it. I'd been begging for an Xbox for months.
"FRANK WHAT THE HELL OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU"
"I knew how much you wanted it, it's one of the last ones"
"THOSE ARENT EVEN IN STOCK ANYMORE HOW"
"Well... Ray and Mikey are friends with the owner of the store, I told him my wife wanted one so..."
I pinned him to the couch and kissed him all over, almost like a dog does with it's owner after a long period of absence.
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Frank's P.O.V.:
I was outside the waiting room. Alex had been inside for almost two hours.
According to the doctor, he could barely be called a baby, she was only three weeks pregnant. I'm not sure if we were ready for a baby or if this is going to mean we're going to try getting pregnant agai-
"Mr. Iero"
"Yes, Doctor, how is she?"
"She's fine, she'll be able to leave in a few hours. Her body responded properly and she's not feeling pain at all"
"So... She's fine? May I see her?
"Sure, Mr. Iero, we've been watching over her the last 45 minutes. She's feeling great and asking for you, come in please"
I walked in as he signalled the way into her room.
"Mr. Iero, I wouldn't worry too much about this. You can have kids, this probably was due to the birth control pills or any stressful situation she's been through these past few months. I know you guys won't have any trouble having kids"
"Thank you, doctor"
I opened the door and saw Alex talking to a nurse while smiling.
"Hi, honey, how are you feeling?"
"Great, Frankie, I can't feel pain at all"
"Look... I know we'll be able to have kids later. I'm not disappointed at you nor do I feel upset"
"I know things will get better babe"
"The important thing is that you're safe now"
"Uhm... Do you want me to stop taking birth control?"
"Well... I think after this album we'll go on a break. I want to be by your side when you get pregnant but... I think you should get off the pill. If it happens it wouldn't matter, we'll be together anyway"
"Okay then, hand me my bag please"
I grabbed her bag and gave it to her. She smiled at me and pulled out a stack of pills.
"Throw them away, we're trying from now on"
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah, Frankie, let's have a kid. I mean... Were married, are economically stable and love each other. I think it's the perfect timing"
I grabbed the pills on her hand and kissed her lips softly. I held her face and caressed her cheek while she gave me the look I always loved of her. I was sure in that moment that I married the right person, I found someone that completed me and made me as happy as I ever felt.
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(3 weeks later)

"Frankie, have you seen my guitar picks?"
"I sent them to Chicago yesterday, you just have to pack your bags" I yelled downstairs. We were packing our bags, touring was going to be harsh for both of us. We only had two matching dates, Chicago next week and Seattle in about two weeks. Gerard and Lynz were already there, Lynz was going to come back with Alex in a few weeks, her tour ends earlier than mine.
As I finished packing my bags and almost standing of top of my suitcase for or to close I felt Alex's hands wrapped around me.
"Mr... Iero" she whispered while nibbling on my ear lobe, "I want... You"
I turned around for us to stare at each other face to face, "we're going to be late if-"
She smirked at me while sliding one of her hands inside my pants, I loved the fact that her hands were always cold. I felt chills run down my spine. She never stopped looking at me, she traced me with the tips of her cold fingers. I felt myself loosing control from time to time, growing harder.
She pulled her hand outside my pants and gave her back to me, she pressed her butt against my crotch and bit my neck, "you're right babe, if we-"
I grabbed her waist and made her wrap her legs around me, "you found me"
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Alex's P.O.V.:
As he ran her hands all over my back and undid my bra y couldn't help to notice how much I missed having sex with him. Ever since we got married things weren't easy on us, he was usually recording the album and as soon as we came back we spent time together with the guys or family. Besides that, we had the ectopic pregnancy on the way, that really affected me so I wasn't able to be intimate with him. He was very apprehensive about it and didn't nag over it, now I felt like making everything up to him. He stood in front of me, pulling on my pierced nipples softly with his teeth. His hands gripped on my butt as he kneeled down progressively. His chest had been covered with tattoos, he had been getting lots of pieces lately. From my name on his chest to several horror movie related tattoos. Our marriage date was on his arm and our engagement date on his neck. His hair had grown long, almost up to his shoulders, he had been over the flashy colours and settled for his natural hair colour. I felt his long hair tickle my belly button and stomach as he undid my jeans without stopping his kisses. He flickered his tongue as he came down to me. I felt him give me a mischievous look and introducing his tongue inside me, I missed him so much. His hands gripped tighter on me as my moans got louder. I ran my fingers through his hair and pushed me softly closer to my body. We were interrupted my his phone ringing. He pulled away from me slowly and opened his phone while still kneeling down.
"Hello?"
"Hey, man, uhm our flight is earlier. You have to get to the airport right now otherwise you and Alex will miss it. Sonny is here already with the band too"
"Okay, Ray, we'll be there soon"
"K, see you here"
He hung up and hugged me, "We aren't finished yet"
He winked and carried our luggage into the car.

Notes

Finally hot time to update, any mistakes will be corrected later.


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