I'm Not Okay

When I woke up Gerard's hand was draped over my semi swollen belly and still asleep. I heard Bryce making some noises from the monitor and I wanted to go check on him; I slowly moved his hand off of me and started to get out of bed.

"Don't even think about it." Gerard mumbled, I turned to look at him and he was half asleep.

"But Gee, you said he was better."

"I said I think he would be better by today. I made no promises." He said and started to get up. "I'll go check on him, if I deem him not sick then you may."

"Since when do you get to make all the decisions?"

"Since it doesn't matter if I get sick or not." He said.

"I'm getting annoyed." I told him.

He sighed and came over to me and pulled me into a hug, I wasn't hugging him but he wasn't letting go of me.

"I'll check on him I'm a minute okay? And then today how about we go get some paint and we can paint Bryce's new room. Does that sound good?"

"Yes." I whispered and hugged him back.

"Okay, I'll be right back." He said then kissed my head and left. While he left I put on some clean clothes, when I turned around I saw Gerard holding peanut.

I squealed in delight and ran over to hold my baby, he was chewing on his fingers and drooling everywhere but I didn't care, I cuddled him to me and started to kiss him everywhere.

"His heads still kinda warm so I'm gonna go out and get some medicine along with the paint okay?"

"Okay babe." I said and reached over to kiss him on the lips.

"Any color?"

"Let's do a light blue then you can paint a design or something on it."

"That's a great idea." He said. "I'm gonna go get some supplies as well. Be back in a few hours babe."

"Okay." I said then gave him a kiss before he pulled on some real clothes and left.

After he left peanut and I went downstairs, I laid him down on a blanket and gave him a few toys while I went into the kitchen to make us some food, I got a healthy smoothie for the twins and I and my baby boy got some yogurt. When I walked back into the living room my baby was on all fours and about to start crawling. I mentally squealed of happiness and pulled out my phone to Face Time Gerard.

"Come on gee pick up." I mumbled to myself as I positioned myself on the sofa so I could capture Bryce about to crawl.

"Hey babe, what's-"

"Gerard look!" I yelled at him and then flipped the camera so he could see his son.

"Oh my god! Is he about to crawl?" He asked wide eyed.

"I hope so!" I said back smiling.

Both Gerard and I stared at Bryce for a few minutes until he slowly and shakily started to crawl across the room to his teddy bear, stopped in front of it and started to play with it.

"Our baby just crawled." I whispered.

"Dear god I feel old." He said.

"You should you turn thirty in a few months." I told him.

"Thanks."

"Anytime babe."

"Okay I'm at the store I'll be back soon."

"Bye love you."

"Love you to." He said then hung up.

"I'm so proud of you!"! I said as I went over to my baby and held him in my arms and then above my head. He started laughing and waving his arms around.

"It looks like we're going to have to start baby proofing the house for you." I said as I put him down and started to tickle him, he was laughing a lot and it was the cutest thing ever. "Now let's eat!" I said then started to feed him while I slipped on my smoothie, it wasn't very flavorful but it was good for the twins so it was okay.

After we had finished eating I put Bryce in his crib while I ran off to the shower, while I was in the shower I started to think about Gerard in some pretty inappropriate ways and I felt a lot of blood flow down to my friend. I knew Gerard wouldn't be home for a while and since I had my problem right now I decided to take care of it myself. I slowly grasped myself and let out a shaky moan while I pumped myself till I was fully hard. By this time the shaky moans coming out of my mouth had turned into full blown moans; that's also when I started throwing some trick into pumping myself, like twisting my wrist or randomly swiping my thumb over the tip. It didn't take much of that before an intense feeling of pleasure swept across my body and I came in my hand. After a few minutes of calming down from the high I was in, I cleaned off my hand and finished washing myself. When I got out of the shower I went into peanuts room and took him back downstairs. While I was giving him Eskimo kisses our doorbell rang.

"Now who could that be?" I asked peanut while I have him a toy to drool on, I also threw on a jacket as I walked to the door.

"Hello?" I asked as I opened it, I thought it would be Mikey or my mom, but I was shocked to see Gerard's parents standing there.

Notes

I'm sorry about the wait and the fact that this is a filler chapter, I was supposed to update yesterday but my mom was in a car acident (shes okay) so I was kinda busy. Anyways I'm sorry.

Till next we meet my killjoys