I'm Not Okay

After my shower I sat in my bed listening to the baby monitor; hearing my baby cry and Gerard trying to calm him down. After what feels like forever, Bryce finally stopped crying and Gerard came I to the room. When he saw me holding the monitor he sighed and grabbed my hand and led me into the bathroom and sat me on the toilet. Soon he started to strip.

"Are we having shower sex?" I asked when he was in just his boxers.

"I'm showering off the germs so when you suck me off later you won't get sick. But you're here because I know you're gonna try to go to peanut when I'm in the shower."

"All true, except for the me sucking you off later."

"You promised!" He whined.

"Fine."

"Good now to make sure you don't leave." He started then turned on the shower and stood completely naked in front of me, "you're gonna sing."

"Shouldn't you be the one singing, I mean you're the lead singer and I don't really-"

"Just sing so I know you're here and not sneaking off to the baby." He interrupted me.

"Fine."

When the lights go out
Will you take me with you
And carry all this broken bone
Through six years down in crowded rooms
And highways I call home?
Something I can't know 'til now.
Till you pick me off the ground
With a brick in hand, your lip-gloss smile,
Your scraped-up knees.

And if you stay I would even wait all night
Or until my heart explodes.
How long?
'Til we find our way in the dark and out of harm
You can run away with me anytime you want

Terrified of what I'd be
As a kid from what I've seen
Every single day when people try
And put the pieces back together
Just to smash them down
Turn my headphones up real loud
I don't think I need them now
'Cause you stopped the noise.

And if you stay I would even wait all night
Or until my heart explodes.
How long?
'Til we find our way in the dark and out of harm
You can run away with me anytime you want

Well, anytime you want
Well, anytime you want

Don't walk away [3x]

'Cause if you stay I would even wait all night
Or until my heart explodes.
How long?
Until we find our way in the dark and out of harm.
You can run away with me
You can write it on your arm
You can run away with me anytime you want
"You have a beautiful voice baby." Gerard said when he shut off the water and opened the curtain, he didn't bother covering himself up, at which I didn't mind.

"Thanks you, can I go see Bryce now "

"No, when I put him down he was fine, he seems a lot better than earlier. He should be fine by tomorrow.”

“Gerard. My baby needs me.”

“My penis needs you too.” He sassed back.

I rolled my eyes then quickly got on my knees in front of him in seconds and pulled the towel down so his semi-hard was in front of me. Before he could react I grabbed him with one hand and started to pump him while I sucked on his lip bone. He let out a shaky moan and lanced his hands in my hair and started to tug on.

“Fuck baby.” He moaned out as I pulled away from his hip bone, which now had a large hickey on it, if I may add, then, closed my mouth around his tip and started to lightly suck on it.

After a few seconds of sucking I got bored and started to push further down his length then go back up. I wanted to stop and go hold my baby then go to bed but Gerard’s moaning kept me going. I bobbed my head further down till I was deep throating him, soon I cupped my hand around his balls and gave it a tug; that sent him over the edge and without warning he came in my mouth. I gagged a bit at first then swallowed all of it.

“I forgot how good you were at that baby.” He said as he calmed down and caught his breath.

“Yeah yeah I’m good at giving head, can I go hold my baby now?”

“No.” He said then picked me up then carried me to the bedroom. He set me down and pulled on a par of sweat pants and took me to bed and laid me down and held me close.

“Goodnight baby.” He said then kissed me.

“Night gee.”

Notes

So this guy I like tried making me jealous but it ended up hurting my feelings instead but 'm willing to overlook it because I really like him but if he pulls that shit again I'm done.

Till next we meet my killjoys