I'm Not Okay

"Alright, let's get started." Mikey said into the mic. As soon as those words left his mouth the crowd went wild; not the kind of wild we were used to at a concert but the kind if wild where reports started asking a lot of questions at once.

"Alright if you personal space invaders want answers you will shutup and wait for us to call on you and answer your question. We will answer honestly and try to get all of your questions but no promises. Ok? Only one question per person." Gerard said into his mic, everyone stopped talking and raised their hands.

"You in the red shirt." He called on.

"Legally you and your wife are still married yet there is a witness who says he has seen you and your fellow band member make out. Any comments?"

"Technically yes Lynz and I are still married but we separated about seven months ago, if it weren't for a few complications were would have been divorced already, and since we separated, I've been staying at Frank’s house and helping him with his son. And in that time we grew feelings for each other, we tried not to act upon them until I was officially divorced but it just didn't happen."

"You with the black jacket." Mikey called on.

"What about Lynz drove you away?"

"I will not say anything bad about my ex-wife, she is an amazing person and deserves someone who will make her happy, and that person just isn't me." He said before moving on to the next reporter.

"Frank Iero when did you know you were gay?"

"Uh, I've known since I was sixteen." I answered nervously into the mic.

"Gerard Way when did you know you were gay?" Another one asked.

"I've known for about two years but I was afraid society wouldn't accept me so I hid it that's also why Lynz and I were having problems, but since I've found someone I love and that had made me happy I no longer care what society thinks and am not afraid to be with him." He said then reached out to grab my hand, I smiled at him squeezed his hand.

"Frank Iero are you comfortable with this man who cheated on his wife to be near your son whom you adopted?" Some bitch asked, both Gerard's smile and mine dropped.

"Of course I do, he's my boyfriend and were going through the process of having him legally adopt Bryce as well." I said glaring at this chick.

"How does Lynz feel about all of this?" Someone asked.

"She's not happy about it but it's not my place to speak for her," Gerard said.

"How will having a newborn, and a divorce affect your band from making music?" Another one asked.

"We are currently working on the next album but at a slower pace, Gerard needs his time for the divorce and the first few years of Bryce's life are the most important and he needs all the attention he can get so a lot of our time will be spent with him. But we will continue to make music whenever we can." I answered.

"To add on to that," Mikey said speaking up, "We all could use some personal time," he said then laughed.

"Yea I don't think I wanna be in the same bus as these two love birds for a while." Ray joked and I blushed and looked down, the entire band started to laughing and some of the press did.

"Mr. Iero and Mr. Way," a bitchy looking reporter said to get our attention. "Do you think it's appropriate to share your clearly wrong lifestyle with all of your fans and a new baby?" Great she's a homophobic.

"Love has no limits, whether they be from people who are the same sex. Now if you don't understand that it's not our problem. But if you ever tell one of our fans or any one in general that it's wrong to be gay or lesbian or bi or whatever then you're a horrible person. And if you go near my son I will sue you for everything that is of value in your name, now leave!" Gerard shouted at the women, he started off soft then ended up yelling at her. I was smiling the while time as one of the security guards removed her.

"Please people keep your homophobic questions to yourself." Ray told the audience.

Mikey was about to call on another person when we heard a loud, high screaming come from the side of the room, my head and Gerard's both snapped over to where Bryce was. Sure enough out manger was there rocking his car seat trying to get him to stop crying.

"We're going to take a small break." I said into the mic as I got up and sped walk my baby; Gerard was hot on my heels. Ray and Mikey had also gotten up and were making their way over to us.

I went down and stuck my head inside the cat seat that was covered by the blanket and saw my peanut crying, when he saw me, he reached out for me and kept crying. I removed my head from the car seat and told Gerard to get a blanket ready because I am gonna take him out, he nodded and got one ready for me. When I pulled peanut out Gerard instantly covered him as I tucked his in my neck. His crying went down a bit when I pulled him out and as I bounced him his cries went down even more.

"Check his diaper." I told Gerard, his naps normally last more than forty-five minutes and his next feeding isn't for another hour so maybe his diaper is full?

"It's empty." He said.

"Then why is he crying?" I wondered.

"Maybe he's afraid of the dark, whenever we put him down for a nap we leave the night light on and its pitch black under the blankets."

"Maybe." I said rocking him back and forth, I saw some people snap a few picture of my holding Bryce, it made me uncomfortable, I leaned in closer to Gerard and he noticed my discomfort.

"Do you wanna leave? We don't have to be here much longer."

"Let's get a few more questions out of the way then we can leave."

"Okay." He said.

I leaned down to put peanut back in his car seat but as I started to put him down he started crying again. I sighed and pulled him back into my arms.

"Looks like this little guy wants his daddy." Ray said then rubbed peanuts back.

"I don't think I wanna go up there with him..."

"I'll take him." Our manager offered.

I bit my lip, that was a kind offer but I wasn't so sure about handing my baby over to someone. Yea I've known him for years and I trust him but I'm very protective over my son.

"He'll be fine." Gerard whispered into my ear.

I sighed and handed him over, peanut seemed to be okay with him, I wanted to stay and make sure they'd be okay but Gerard grabbed me and dragged me back to the stage.

"Okay, we only have time for three more questions." Mikey said into the mic.

"Will you and Mr. Way be expecting any more children anytime soon?" Someone asked.

"As of right now we are uncertain but we are open to the idea." I told the guy. Since I was still under twelve weeks I still had a chance to miscarry, so I shouldn't be saying anything just yet.

"What can we expect from your next album?" Another girl asked she looked pretty cool; she had a killer neck tattoo.

"You can expect it to be more upbeat then Black Parade; we're all at happy times in our lives so hopefully it'll show in the album." I said smiling and holding Gerard's hand under the table.

"You said you were all at happy times in your life; how do you explain your partners divorce as a happy time in his life?" Great another asshole.

"I am in a happy time in my life, the ending of my marriage, neither Lynz or I was happy so now that we're free we're happy; I've also found the love of my life and I have a kid and every time he smiled up at me it melts my heart. So yeah I'm happier than I've ever been, so is Frank, and Mikey is in a really happy relationship and so is Ray, so we're all happy. And we're also done here so goodbye." Gerard said then stood up and left, since he was still holding my hand I was being dragged with him. Mikey and Ray were close behind us.

Gerard took peanut from our manger and cuddled him into his neck and made sure no one would be able to see his cute little face. I leaned down to get the car seat but Gerard stopped me and had Mikey carry it instead so I just took the diaper bag. We walked back to the car where people were trying to ask for picture or trying to get some last minute questions answered. None of us spoke or even looked in their directions. When we got to the car Mikey latched in peanuts car seat and Gerard climbed in and put Bryce in then decided to sit in the back, after I put the bag away I sat in the back with them. While we were driving my stomach started to turn and I leaned back in my seat and closed my eyes and prayed that the feeling would go away.

"You okay." Gerard whispered.

I barely nodded my head and I felt so much worse.

"Ray pull over." Gerard commanded.

Within seconds I felt the car come to a stop and Gerard leaned over and opened my door for me, he also undid my seat belt and leaned me over. As soon as my head was out if the car I threw up. It was gross.

"You good Frankie?" Ray asked.

"I’ll feel better when I’m at home.” I said leaning back into my seat and closing my eyes.

Notes

Here's the second update like I promised. Oh and thank you to everyone that has comments those comments really make my day sorry if I haven't responded to any of them. On another not what are your guys favorite song from Danger Days?

Till next we meet my killjoys