I'm Not Okay

"Why?" I groaned as I through my head against the seat.

"What?" Gerard asked while making faces at Bryce.

"He always does stuff for you, he started kicking for you, and now he's giggling. I guess I'm just the useless person who gave birth to him." I sighed.

"Frankie,"

"Whatever, he better walk for me though." I said as I took Bryce from him, "Come on, andlet’s not keep Ray waiting."

***** Five Weeks Later*******

"I don't know if I want to do this." I said while biting my nails.

"We don't have to if you don't want to." Gerard told me as he turned on Bryce's monitor.

My peanut is now six weeks old. About five weeks ago Gerard got his staples out and was able to starting carrying around Bryce and helping out a lot more, I am really thankful for that. Gerard also was now living here full time; not too long ago we went over to his house and picked up all his belongings. We tried to keep Ray in the dark about our relationship but he walked in one day on us making out on my sofa and just smirked at us, we tried making up excuses but he just looked at us and said, "I ship it" then left. Really the only people who didn't know about our relationship was Lynz and the rest of the world. Gerard and tried to continue the divorce with Lynz but she like disappeared off the planet when she was released from the hospital, I started to freak out about that but Gerard calmed me down, still all I wanted why the three of us to be a real family but we can't do that until Lynz signs the papers. But all that aside, it was time to start working on the next album, I didn't want to leave peanut so all the guys agreed to come over to my house and work I my music room.

"We were supposed to start working on the next album like three months ago. We need to start."

"Frank, you had a high risk pregnancy, its okay that we postponed."

"No we need to start."

"Okay then we will."

"But peanut needs out full attention."

"Then I'll call and cancel." He said and picked up his phone.

"Gerard don't! Think about the fans!"

"I don't know what you want from me Frank." He said.

"It just kinda hard to go back to work with a baby."

"I know frank." He said then pulled me in my lap and stroked my hair. "But he's just in the next room, if he starts to cry we can easily go get him, okay?"

"Okay." I said and I sunk further into his arms.

He started to rub my back and hum a random song, I liked moments like this, just the two of us without a screaming baby. As I leaned up to kiss him, my doorbell rang. I groaned and dropped my face into his neck and he just laughed. At the same time Bryce started to cry.

“Ugh!” I groaned sinking further into Gerard.

He laughed at me and gave my ass a squeeze before going in to bite my neck. Did I ever mention that I find it such a turn on when people bite my neck?

“How about this,” He said seductively, “Since it’s been five weeks, we do the band work here then tonight, I get to have my way with you in bed.” I shivered from the way he said that. “Does that sound good?” He asked, I nodded franticly and he kissed my head, “Now go answer the door and I’ll take care of peanut.

“Hey guys!” I said as I opened the door and both Mikey and Ray came in.

“Hey Frank, how are you and the baby?”

“Were good, baby is asleep though.”

“Then why is Gerard carrying him down the stairs?” Mikey said pointing behind me. I gave him a questioning look and turned around and sure enough Gerard was coming down the stairs with peanut.

“Sorry, he doesn’t wanna go back to sleep.”

“It’s okay, he can stay with us!” Mikey said as he rushed for my baby and picked him up in his arms and started to tickle him. Bryce was at that stage in life where all he did was laugh and giggle, it was so damn cute.

“He has baby problems.” Ray whispered to me.

“You have no idea.” I whispered back, “Okay, let’s get to work!” I yelled for everyone to hear, everyone’s head, including peanut’s snapped in my direction, then in the silence peanut started to laugh making everyone smile.

We worked for a good six hours straight, making real progress for out next record, Mikey mentioned something about going back to the ‘Danger Days’ and I don’t know about the other guys, but I liked that. We kinda had the gist for one song, and that was about it before we decided to take another one of our many breaks.

“Mikey give him here!” Gerard whined, “You’ve been hogging him!”

“You live with him! I don’t get to see him as much as you do.”

“So?”

“Gerard!”

“Mikey!”

“Ge-” Mikey was cut off by my doorbell ringing; we weren’t expecting anyone so we were all confused.

“I’ll get it.” Mikey said standing up.

“Not with the baby.” I said taking him from Mikey’s arms. Gerard opened his arms out for him but instead I passed him to Ray, Gerard gave me the death glare but hey, he gets to see him a lot more than Ray gets to. We all were making small chat when Mikey came back, he looked kinda nervus.

“Uh… Gerard, Lynz is here to see you.”

Notes

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Till next we meet my killjoys