I'm Not Okay

Gerard's face whitened when Mikey said that, my eyes widened and I stared at him.

"D-did she say why?" Gerard asked Mikey.

"No, just that she wanted to talk to you, and she sees your car so she knows yours here."

Gerard nodded his head then left the room.

"Why does she want to see him? Aren't they divorced?" Ray asked.

"Not yet, he severed her with divorce papers six weeks ago but she never signed them. She's pretty much been missing since then."

"Oh.... I'm sorry."

We all waited a few minutes in silence but it was killing me. Did she know about Bryce? And if she did does she know Bryce came from me and Gerard? Was she gonna tell the world that Gerard cheated on her? Was she gonna fuck everything up for our band and personal life?

I started to get worried and there are only two things that can calm me down, Gerard and my peanut, since Gerard was busy I reached out for peanut and Ray willingly gave him to me, I cuddled him into me chest and just waited for Gerard to return. Soon we all heard footsteps coming down the hall, they were pretty fast so I don't think they were from Gerard, I hid Bryce's face in the crook of my neck just in case. Just as I did that the door to the music room was thrown open and slammed against the wall, I could tell by the sound it made, it either cracked the wall or the doorknob.

"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!" She screamed while she pointed at me, "YOU WRECKED MY FUCKING MARRIAGE AND NOW YOU-" she stopped yelling at started at Bryce. "What the fuck is that?" She yelled pointed at my son.

"This is my son and I'd really appreciated if you refrained from cursing in front of him." I said while I grabbed a blanket and cover Bryce's body, I wouldn't look at Lynz though; I was too intimated by her.

"You are so fucking desperate! You sleep with my husband and when he chooses me over you, you go off and get a kid, the one thing that he wants and I won't give him! You manipulative little bitch!"

"I didn't adopt him to try and get Gerard; I adopted him because I wanted a son! Gerard had nothing to do with it!" Okay that was kinda a lie, Gerard got me pregnant with Bryce but she doesn't have to know that.

"YOU CAN’T HAVE HIM! WHY DONT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?!" She screamed at me. He screaming was scaring Bryce and he started to cry in my neck.

"SHUT THAT THING UP!"

"Lynz you're making the baby cry, stop and leave." Mikey told her.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

"Lynz you need to get out of this house now." Gerard said upon entering the room.

"Fuck you Gerard!" She spat at him. "I should have killed that bitch before she adopted that bastard and now is gonna ruin that baby's life!"

Tears were stinging my eyes as I stood up.

"P-please leave." I told her.

Instead of saying anything she came closer to me and I held onto Bryce even tighter, she raised her hand and slapped me across the face, hard. The tears that my eyes were holding now spilled over my eyes, she raised her hand to strike again but now Ray had his eyes wrapped around her and picked her up and backed her away from me. Gerard gave me a sad look and took a step towards me but I shook my head and ran past them all and into my bathroom. Once inside I locked the door and sunk to the floor and held into peanut even tighter. He wasn't crying any more but he had a few tears leaking from his eyes and I wiped them away and kissed his forehead.

"I'm not gonna let anything bad happen to you, I'll protect you from her." I said as I snuggled him closer.

We stayed like that for a bit, me rocking Bryce and just sitting in the bathroom, until there was a soft knock at the door.

"Frank, it's me Gerard, please open up."

I remained silent.

"Frank I called the police, they'll be here soon to arrest her for assault. Please some out, she can't hurt you."

I remained silent.

The next time Gerard came knocking it was twenty minutes later.

"Frank, the police are here, they want a statement from you, and also I think it's Bryce's feeding time." He told me from the other side if the door, I sighed and reached over and unlocked it. When I opened it, Gerard and two other police officers were there. Gerard had a bottle and a blanket in his hand he reached out for peanut but I shook my head and took the stuff from him.

"Mr.Iero we need a statement about what happened when Mrs. Way came in."

"Ms. Ballato." Gerard injected.

"What?" One of the police officers asked.


"I left her, that's what this is all about."

"Alright, well we still need Mr. Iero's statement before we leave. Please follow us." I followed them into my bedroom where the shut the door and started asking me questions about what happened.

"She came in my house, spoke to Gerard then ran up here and started yelling at me and cursing at me in front of my son." I finished feeding peanut and now propped him on my shoulder so I could burp him, he burped and also threw up on me, thank god I have a blanket between us. "Then she slapped me and she was about to slap me again, but Ray stopped her and I ran into the bathroom with my son."

"Is that all that happened?" They asked.

"Yes."

"Well okay Mr. Iero, your statement pretty much matches everyone else's, Mrs. Ballato will be facing jail time and a restraining order will be put between you to. I am sorry you had to go through this." They said before they left.

When they left I stayed in my room with peanut, I felt like I was gonna cry again but I held the tears in. My back was to the door so when it opened I didn't know who was coming in, but when they took a few steps in and I smelled cigarettes and vanilla, I knew it was Gerard. He sat next to me on the bed and lightly put his hand on me. I didn't respond to his touch but it felt good.

"Frank?" He hesitantly asked.

I slowly turned to face him, I knew I looked like hell and when he saw me his face instantly softened.

"Oh Frankie." He said as he pulled me into his lap, as soon as he touched me I broke down crying in him arms. He soothed me and rubbed my back until I stopped crying, but I still sniffed a bit. Peanut started to cry in my arms and Gerard and I looked down at him.

"Here," he said taking peanut from my arms, "I'll put him to bed and you go run yourself a bath, it will make you feel better."

I nodded and got off his lap and walked into my bathroom and started a warm bath, when the run had finally filled up I stopped off my clothes a climbed inside it. Gerard was right; the warm water was calming me. I closed my eyes for what felt like a minute when Gerard was kneeling down next to me shaking me.

"Wake up Frankie. It's dangerous to fall asleep in the tub."

I nodded and sat up and started stretching, when I looked over I noticed Gerard wasn't wearing any clothes.

"I do believe I promised to have my way with you earlier today." He smirked at me.

Notes

Here you kiddies go, enjoy

Till next we meet my killjoys