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You're Eyes are Getting Tired

Rooftop sadness

"GERARD?!" We pulled apart and I looked up and saw Cassidy standing in the front of the Coffee shop looking directly at us. I felt tears start running down my cheeks. I don't even know why! I looked at Gerard and he looked stunned. Cassidy marched over to us and smacked me right across the face. I screamed in pain and then felt more tears come out. "You little piece of shit! You're fucking brainwashing my boyfriend and trying to make him gay you little faggot! Stay the fuck away from him!" She said. I looked at Gerard and he just stared at her. He didn't say anything. He was willing to punch the biggest guy in school for me, but he won't even stand up to Cassidy. She grabbed him by the hand and pulled him out of the booth and dragged him out of the shop. I curled up in a ball and started sobbing. I heard the sound of a motorcycle starting, then it faded away.
I pulled myself up from the booth and stumbled out of the shop. I walked all the way home and just collapsed on my bed. No more tears came out. Probably because there were no more tears left. I just felt so much emotion building up inside me. I needed to let it all out. I walked to the corner of the room and grabbed my guitar, Pansy, off of her stand. I plugged her into my amp, then just started strumming away. I found myself getting lost in all of the notes, and by the time I was done, I couldn't even remember what Gerard looked like.
I sighed in exhaustion and laid down on my bed. I was so ready for a nap. I had been through way too much in these last few days. I rolled over and closed my eyes. I stayed like that for hours, but sleep never came.
I sighed in defeat after trying to sleep, and got up and went to my window. It was dark out now. I went outside and sat on my roof and looked up at the stars.
"It's fuckin beautiful isn't it?" I nearly fell off of the roof when I heard a voice. I looked over and saw Gerard sitting on his roof. "W-What are you doing?" I asked him. He never took his eyes off of the sky. "Same as you, love. Watching the stars." He said smoothly and I envied him. Everything about him. He had the perfect life. He had a beautiful girlfriend, rich parents, tons of friends, and I heard he could sing. But what I envied about him the most was the fact that he got to live a long, healthy life, not caring about anything.
I blinked back a few tears as I looked at him. He looked at me and his eyes finally met mine. He stood up and I thought he was going to leave, but instead, he jumped across the gap between our houses. He walked over to me and sat down, then draped his arm across my shoulders. "Frankie, I'm sorry I didn't defend you earlier, I was just so...frozen. I couldn't move for some reason." I put my fingers to his lips to shush him. "Don't worry about it." He smiled and I leaned my head on his shoulder and he rested his chin on my head. I smiled. I felt so comfortable.. like I belong in his arms. I want to stay in his arms forever. I want to smell his scent forever. Coffee and cigarettes. My smile suddenly fell when Cassidy's face popped into my mind. I moved his arm away from my shoulder and stood up. He looked up at me and he looked sad. "Whats wrong?" He asked me. "You know what's wrong, Gerard." I said, and I stepped back into my room. I turned around and closed the window. He walked over to the window and I closed the blinds. I laid on my bed in hopes that sleep would come, with the sad reality, that I knew it wouldn't.