i had been confused for the past two days on what to do. I'm doing shoots for james and getting compliments and making money off of perverted men, but i was torn between crawling back to my family or staying as far away as possible.

“we have a requested one.” james said to me.

“okay so what am i supposed to be doing for this lucky customer?” i asked sarcastically.

“treat the customers with respect they love you man. now here do this.”

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franks pov

“frank this can’t be real.”

“mikey i’m not lying okay, why would i lie about this?” i said

“i just- gerards been doing this for how long?” he asked shaking his head

“uhm probably a few years..” i answered truthfully.

“im the shittiest brother ever, like i knew he was gay and i wasn't accepting but i wouldn’t have said anything if i knew he was fucking random dudes in pictures because he was far gone he just didn't care anymore.”

“ya no offense but you were a horrible brother to him at the worst times possible.” i told mikey and he frowned biting back tears

“but why would he be doing this now if he told you he’d stop?” mikey said gesturing to the computer screen with bright bold letters that said party poison and had a picture of gerard with hands covering his private area then a link that says ‘click to see more or order your own’ in a bright rainbow font

“i don’t know, i don’t want to believe its real either but there’s only one way to find out.”

“we are not ordering custom photos of my brother naked frank,’

“how else do expect to know if its real?”

mikey groaned but after thinking it through he looked at me. “fine but don’t make the picture to….y’know..of stuff i don’t want to see.”

“trust me i’m not the happiest person with your brother either but like wouldn’t it be suspicious to ask for a picture from a porn site with a clothed model?”

“ya but this is just a site dedicated to gee…so idk”

“don’t say idk just give me an answer in full words.”

“ya it would look suspicious but what should we order?” he asked

“what if we do something that’d let him know its us?” i suggested.

“like what?” he asked

i tried to think about something,anything to let gee know we had found his site and then it hit me.

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gerards pov

“well were using props for this one.” james smiled at me.

“what kind of props” i asked tiredly. lack of sleep was getting to me, because id be up every night debating what to do.

“were going to have you wrap a measuring tape around your stomach and pull it tight while looking at the camera.”

“who the fuck ordered that? it isn't even sexy and im not thin.”

“gee are you fusing blind, anyone can see your thin like extremely. its hot though in my opinion being able to see your bones when you move around.”

“who ordered this?” i asked again hoping to get an actually answer for the reason behind the weird shoot.

“i don’t know i only get the money information and what they want so lets get this over with, i have to be at the studios in like an hour.

i shut up and took the pictures then tagged along with james to his afternoon shoots.

i kept my head down the whole way through the building hoping frank would not be there but of course it wasn’t frank who stopped me, it was mikey.

“leave me alone.” i spat.

“no we need an opinion on jamias shoot hold the measuring tape like this or the other way?”

i stared at him before looking over to jamia who was standing on a platform in a beautiful black dress with a measuring tape wrapped around her waist, and frank staring me down behind her.

i ran over to frank and grabbed his arm before dragging them both into an empty studio on another floor. once i was sure no one could hear us i let loose.

“you told mikey?!”

“what else was i supposed to do? tell me gee!”

“you didn't have to do anything mikey never had to know there is not one reason to tell him, and then go stalk me on the internet!”

“gerard i wear frank didn’t-“

“shut the fuck up mikey!” i yelled pointing a finger at him. “you don’t get to make any comments on what ive been doing since you didn't give a shit my whole life then recently decided you wanted to be apart of it again. i was so worried about you finding out and telling everyone you know because thats how you acted before and if thats what your gonna do then do it. tell everyone your brothers a cheap fuck”

mikey looked at me with watery eyes. “gee i didn't know.”

“of course you didn't know! you barrel had time for anything except calling me a faggot and teasing me about bert.” i said whispering the last part.

“you havent gone back to him again have you?” frank asked me.

“so what if i have?” i snapped at him

“gerard calm down.” mikey said

“you also don’t get a say in this mikes, franks the one who shatters my heart and told me he didn't love me anymore because im a worthless piece of shit.”

“i did not ever say that gerard.” he fought.

“really? because thats what i remember.” i said starting to cry. “thats all i remember anyone ever telling me. that im worthless, they all say it, whats different about you that would make you think otherwise?” i asked frank.

“mikey give a moment to us alone please.”

Mikey glanced between us and walked out of the room, as soon as he was gone frank engulfed me in a bone crushing hug which i wasn’t expecting.

“i dont think you're worthless because i still love you gerard.”

“what?”

“i fucking love you and i just couldn't take the heart break of you cheating on me anymore, for christ sake you went to your ex who beat you instead of apologizing to me. all i wanted a simple sorry, or just an i love you.”

i looked at frank and had no words.

“please just tell me you'll sorry and we can back to how it was” he begged

i just stared at him.

“gerard please. please please please.” he begged after my silence “i miss you.”

“frank you shouldn’t forgive me. i fucked up way to much and im doing shoots for james again i can’t just quit…and that was low to order a picture from me about eating and my size.”

“i just wanted you to know it was us and that we cared.”

“stop caring about me. it just makes it harder to leave.” i told him.

“gerard i don’t want you to leave. on my life i don’t want you to go, i want to be with you as long as you promise not to hurt me like that again.”

Frank stared at me waiting for an answer. “i never slept with that girl.”

“what?”

“the one from vacation i never slept with her, i didn’t want to cheat on you and shoved her off me, but mikey re told the story differently”

“are you telling the truth?”

“i swear on my life that im being honest. oh and i havent been back to bert’s at all.”

“did, did you really sleep with him?” he asked

“sadly i did, but the first time was because i was drinking and upset you’d left me. i did it almost as a way to make you jealous and come back, but then i realized you weren’t and-“

“shh just stop. i don’t want to hear about bert, but know one thing. I’m back.”

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