Snap shot

“you- you’re forgiving me?”

frank nodded and kissed my lips. “i can’t stay mad at you forever. No matter how hard i try i just want you to be the one one holding me and loving me.” he smiled “but i do still want an honest apology.”

i nodded. “you deserve one.”

“im sorry. for everything. For cutting myself when i could’ve went to you for starving myself and scaring you, for doing the shoots after i promised i would stop, for sleeping with bert, for just even talking to bert and doing what mikey told me while we were on vacation and almost cheating on you with that girl. i’m sorry for being a shitty boyfriend and thinking more about myself than you, im sorry for ignoring you and im sorry for not giving you the attention that you deserve.” i finished and looked at frank. he was smiling at me.

“apology accepted.”

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“so how did mikey react when he found out about me and the modeling?”

“i think he had some sort of revelation, he felt bad and said he wouldn’t have done anything if he knew.”

“really?”

“ya i mean he was hurt that you resorted to that but i told him how shitty he was for it already so” frank said biting his lip.

“so what?” i asked him.

“are you going to have james take the site down?”

“frankie i know you want me to but it’s his site, i have no control as to what goes up there and have no way of taking it down without confronting him.” i said as we laid together on my bed.

my mom was shocked to see me home but when she tried to talk to me i blatantly told her i was still angry and walked downstairs after moving all the shit i originally barricaded my door with.

“can i ask you a question?” frank asked quietly

I nodded at him. “what were you thinking when you drove that car into the wall?”

“frank-“

“no i want to know.”

I sighed “i was just thinking about how i let my life turn to shit, how i let my body be abused, how mikey had yelled at me moments before, how you didn’t love me anymore.”

frank placed his lips on mine. “im sorry. i still loved you then i was just hurt. I can’t believe i almost you.”

“i can’t believe i failed and didn’t die.”

“don’t say that.” frank whispered, cuddling closer to me.

“frank it fucked me up look at my body i broke so much and it’ll take a life time to heal”

Notes

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