Bright Lights That Cast A Shadow

I was jolted awake by the sound of footsteps entering the room. I looked up to see Mikey and Ray enter the room. I held my finger up to my lips in a be quite motion, gesturing to Frank who was still curled up into me. Mikey caught my eye and waggled his eyebrows at us. I glared at him. It was nothing like that. Sure he had kissed me goodnight, and sure he was curled up into me, and sure my arm was wrapped around him, but we were just friends. All of his gestures had been in a friendly matter. Maybe best friends but that was it. He had already said he didn't want to date me. I would get over it eventually. I hoped.
"How is he?" Ray whispered walking over to Bob's bedside and glancing down on him. I heaved a sigh. I really wasn't sure yet. The doctor had yet to come in.
"Well the doctor hasn't been in yet," I bit my lip and they knew I was holding back. I motioned them to come closer so that if anyone walked in they wouldn't overhear. "But it was an attack from Lindsey. She slit his wrists and tore him up by the throat as you can see. He's a strong guy so she probably broke his leg so that she could be sure that she would remain in control." I hung my head in shame. Lindsey gave all vampires a bad name.
"Gee, hey," Mikey lifted my chin up so that I would look at him. "I know what you're thinking, and it's not your fault. This is all on Lindsey." I gave a short humorless laugh.
"Oh but you're wrong little brother. This is all my fault. It's my fault I got turned. It's my fault I decided to become friends with Ray and Bob. It's my fault Lindsey is coming after you guys now. So please tell me how this is not my fault." I didn't get angry. I didn't yell. I just accepted the facts as they were. Everyone who was in danger now only was because of me. "You guys would be better off never knowing me," I realized miserably.
"That's not fucking true!" Frank cried out outraged yanking away from me. I looked at him stunned. I hadn't felt him wake up. He sat up facing me in the chair and crossed him arms with a scowl. I shrunk down under his glare. If I actually thought about it, it seemed funny. The vampire cowering from the short dude. But it was a pissed off short dude, and I was scared. "Gerard Arthur Way that's not fucking true and you know it!"
"But-"
"No!" He jumped up and grabbed my wrist, pulling me up and out of the room. He paused at the doorway to look back at the still frozen Mikey and Ray. "I'm talking to Gerard. Come get us if Bob wakes up." With that he marched out the door and down the hallway yanking me with him.
We reached the end of the hallway and he let go of my wrist and spun around.
"Frank I-"
"Nope you're going to sit down, shut up and listen," He shoved me into a chair that was nearby. I didn't object, just sat there staring at my hands in my lap while he stood above me. I probably looked like I had been sent to the principles office. I know I felt like it.
"How dare you even fucking say that we would be better off if we didn't meet you!" He began. He wasn't yelling but his voice defiantly had an angry tone to it. I knew I was in for a long lecture. I let out a heavy sigh. "You are one of the most amazing people I have ever met. You care about everyone, you think of others first. You're not self centered. You have a great taste in music and a sense of humor. My life got like ten times better after meeting you! It's not like you fucking asked for it. Life's not a fucking menu in which you get to order what you like and pass on what you don't. Lindsey changed you out of spite and now is hunting you down for something that wasn't your fault. You didn't know he was cheating. You were just falling in love with a boy." His voice had lost it's tone and had changed to something between a mixture of gentleness and sadness. "Gerard Way, I chased you down and tried becoming friends with you because I knew you were something special. Meeting you was one of the best things that ever happened to me, so don't you dare say that I would've been better off without you!" He looked like he was close to tears which made me feel even worse.
He pulled me out of the chair and engulfed me into a hug, both of us holding back sobs. I clung to him tightly and thought over what I could say to respond to that. I could argue and have it turn into an impromptu debate. I could smile and nod and go with it and pretend nothing had happened. I could respond bitterly and full of regret. I could say nothing and leave it. Instead the words I didn't want to say stumbled out without my thinking.
"I'm the best thing that ever happened to you but you don't want to date me." My eyes widened in shock as soon as the words were out. I really hadn't meant for that to come out. Frank pulled away and looked at me in confusion.
"Gerard what?" I couldn't read his expression and it filled me with panic. I think I overstepped a boundary and now I might lose him as a friend. I shook my head frantically no.
"No no no. I didn't mean to say that honestly!" I fumbled the words out frantically trying to repair what I had done. I thought I saw a look of disappointment flash across his face and he opened his mouth to speak but was cut off.
"Frank! Gerard! Get your asses down here!" Mikey called out from the doorway to Bob's room, getting a nasty glare from a nearby nurse. I breathed a sigh of relief to have an escape from the awkward situation, and scurried away before Frank could get a word in.
Just as I reached the doorway I felt his hand grip my elbow. I looked back at him, afraid of what he was going to say. He didn't look mad to my great relief, but his words shook me. "You, me. We need to talk later." He held my gaze and I gulped and nodded yes. He nodded back and we rejoined the others in the room.

Notes

holy shit guys this is chapter twenty! to be honest i didn't think it was going to be this long, and its nowhere close to being done. tbh I have a basic (very basic) outline of how I want this to go. I personally don't know how each chapter is going to end. This chapter when I first started writing it didn't have Frank and Gerard having that whole conversation at all. Hell when I first started this fic I was going to have them get together by chapter ten. You can see where that went. Anyways I'm just saying thanks for sticking with it so far and I hope you like so far :)