You're Beautiful To Me

When I come to I am in hospital for what feels like the millionth time in my life and the only person in the room is a nurse playing with my iv. "Hey sweety, how are you feeling?" She asks in a gentle voice and I sigh softly as I say "Is it possible to see the doctor?" "Sure, I'll go get him for you." "Oh and can you make sure no one else is allowed in here? Just the doctor." The nurse turns back to face me, frowning in confusion as she says "Mr Way your husband is in the waiting room with your children and..." "I don't want him in here" I tell her and she nods once and turns to leave the room. A few long minutes later the doctor comes in and closes the door behind him and he offers me a warm smile as he says "Well Gerard I didnt expect to see you again so soon" trying to lighten the mood but I sigh softly before saying "This procedure, how long does it take? And what's the recovery time? Will it hurt?" The doctor looks slightly taken back by all the questions I'm firing at him and just as he opens his mouth to answer me the door opens and I see Frank coming in. "Get out" I spit at him and Frank swallows hard as he ignores my request and the doctor looks back and forth between us before focusing on me again and saying "Gerard I think your husband should probably be present for this discussion." "What discussion? What's going on?" Frank asks and the doctor pales as he realises I haven't told Frank yet. "We're planning my abortion and I can organise it myself so get out." Frank freezes where he is, stunned for a few seconds before he rushes to my bedside and says "You're pregnant?" "Yeah and it's killing me so I need you to get out and I need you to get this thing underway" I say as I shift my attention back to the doctor on the other side of my bed. "Uh Gerard I think you need some time to process this before we do anything, you need to be in the right frame of mind when entering a procedure like this."

The doctor leaves a few minutes later, telling Frank and I and we need to talk about what's happening and when he's gone I roll over so my back is to Frank and when he reaches out and gently touches my back I squirm away and say "Get those filthy fucking hands off me." "Gerard stop it" Frank snaps and I roll back onto my back, staring up at him in disbelief. "Don't you dare tell me to stop it, how about you fucking stop fucking that guy behind my back." "Gerard I'm not fucking him." "How stupid do you think I am?" I snap at him and Frank lets out a small huff and says "Stop overreacting. Nothing is happening, your hormones are just going wild at the moment because of the pregnancy and I know you're upset about the abortion but..." But he's cut off by me ripping the needle from the back of my hand and flipping myself off the bed, my fist connecting with Franks jaw before he even registers what's happening. "What the fuck?" He spits out as he stumbles back a few steps and as he straightens up I scream "Fuck you you fucking lying cheating scumbag, I can't believe I forgave you" before I swing at him again, my fist connecting with his nose this time and it starts gushing blood, covering my hand and and mixing with my own from the large gash in the back of my hand from where I ripped the needle out. "Get out, get away from me I never want to see you again" I scream as a doctor, two orderlies and a nurse run in, tackling me to the floor and I feel my arm pricked with a needle as I thrash against them, screaming in protest until a few seconds later my body feels heavy and my eyes start to slip closed, the last thing I register before I pass out again is Franks choked off sobs as he wails out "Gee, I love you."

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