You're Beautiful To Me

The next time I wake up the room is brightly lit from the sunlight streaming through the window and I turn my head to see Frank slumped over in the chair beside the bed, his head resting on the mattress beside me as he breathes deep and even. I let out a soft sigh as I lay there and watch him sleep, feeling my heart throb painfully as I think about what he's done. I let him sleep for a few more minutes before I slowly reach out and start running my fingers through his hair, gently waking him up and when he sits back to rub at his eyes i pull my hand back and rest it on my stomach again. "Hey baby, how are you feeling?" I let out a soft groan as I say "Like I got hit by a truck. These beds are so uncomfortable." "Aww babe is there anything I can do?" "Convince them to let me go home." Franks face drops as he says "I can't babe, you need to be here. I would do anything else for you but that's the one thing you can't have." "Go back in time and unfuck that guy?" Franks face goes from sad to a frown and he says "Babe I...." "How could you do that to me? I've done some fucking shitty things before but I never ever even entertained the idea of cheating on you." "I told you I was...." "You were scared that I was gonna die? It's really that easy to replace me and move on? I wasn't even fucking dead yet. Sorry for living and fucking it all up for you." A single tear rolls down Franks cheek and he sniffles softly before saying "I made a mistake." "No, a mistake is forgetting to buy something at the grocery store or something, you repeatedly thrusted your dick in and out of someone who wasn't me, that's not a mistake or an accident in my mind." Frank lets out another sniffle as he says "I fucked up, what am I meant to do to fix it?" I look up to meet his gaze as I tell him "I don't know if you can fix this" and I can see the pure heart break in his eyes. "Gee, baby please don't say that." "I'm not that guy that puts up with his husband having an affair or hitting him or anything like that and I know you aren't either." "It was just one time." "How do I know that?" I snap before I realise what I'm saying and we both fall silent for a few long seconds before saying "See, the trust we have had for nine years is fucked. How am I meant to move past this?" Frank doesn't answer, his bottom lip quivering before he gets up quickly, almost knocking over the chair he was sitting in as he runs into the bathroom, closing the door behind himself, a faint sob sounding out before it slams shut.

When Frank finally comes back into the room his eyes are still red and swollen but he's no longer crying and he comes back over to the bed and takes his seat again, looking everywhere but at me. "Frankie" I say softly and when his head turns to look at me footsteps sound just outside the door and we hear a high pitch little giggle right before Mikey comes in pushing Miles and Anna in their pram, both of them awake and Anna is leaning over poking Miles softly as he bats at her hand and makes her giggle. "Hey little monsters" I greet them cheerfully as I sit up as much as I can and Anna turns her head to look at me, reaching her arms out and clenching her hands open and shut as she says "Dada." Frank gets up and takes her out of the pram, carrying her over and sitting her in my lap and she immediately turns herself around to face me, standing up in my lap as her hands reach for my face and I nibble at her fingers whenever she puts them near my mouth which makes her shriek and giggle as she says "No dada." After a few minutes she pulls her fingers away and I say "Can daddy have a kiss?" Puckering my lips and she leans forward and plants a sloppy kiss to my lips, making a little "mwah" noise and I can't help but chuckle as she pulls away, Anna giggling softly too and I shift around, laying back against the pillows and pulling her down with me and she lays down on my chest, her fingers playing with the sweater I'm wearing. I look over to see Frank sitting beside the bed with Miles in his arms, both of them watching me and Anna and I slide over as far as I can on the bed, gesturing to the now empty space and Frank climbs up and sits beside me, sitting Miles up in his lap and I reach out one hand and gently stroke my finger down his cheek and he smiles at me as he reaches his little hand up and wraps his fingers around my finger, squeezing as hard as he can before he brings my finger down to his mouth and starts gnawing at it and I chuckle as I let him go, my finger getting covered in saliva. "Missed you so much baby boy" I say softly to him as I lean over and rest my head on Franks shoulder, just watching Miles chew on my finger. After a few minutes Frank slowly removes one hand from Miles and brings it up under my chin, tilting my head up and leaning in to seal his lips to mine and in the moment I close my eyes and let it happen, kissing back and just as his tongue swipes against my bottom lip Anna lets out a squeal and we break apart, both of us looking at her and she giggles and claps her hands at the attention and Frank chuckles and says "You're still breaking daddy's balls baby."

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