You're Beautiful To Me

Mikey smiles sadly at me but doesn't answer as the doctor starts poking and prodding at me, shining a light in my eyes and asking me questions that seem vague and confusing to me and while they examine me Mikey's hand slips from mine and he disappears. When the doctor is finished with me he leaves the room and as the nurse lingers behind and starts to make her way out after checking the bag of fluid that's pumping itself into my body I clear my throat and she turns back go look at me. "Do you need something hun?" "Why am I here? What happened? And where is my husband?" She frowns slightly before saying "Mr Iero what do you remember from before you woke up?" I close my eyes, trying to concentrate and sift through the fog in my mind until I remember "I remember fighting with my husband and he was yelling at me in front of Anna and Miles and then I went into the bedroom to get away for a minute and my chest really hurt." She nods slowly before saying "Mr Iero you have suffered a massive heart attack, which I understand is not your first. We had to restart your heart three times and you were so high risk we had to put you into a coma for a little while to give you a chance to heal." I stare at her in disbelief before saying "How long?" "I'm sorry?" "How long was I out for?" "Two months. Your latest scans yesterday showed significant healing and improvement so the doctor decided it was time to wake you up again." I take a deep breath as I feel my eyes well with tears and the nurse says "Mr Iero we need you to keep calm as much as possible, too much stress is not ideal in your current state." "Can I be alone, please?" I ask and she nods before telling me to call her if I need anything and she leaves the room. I feel a single tear roll down my cheek as I think about all the things I would have missed if I have been unconscious for two months. Anna's first words, Miles growing and being able to move around more on his own. More tears start to fall as I hear the door open again and I look up to see Frank coming into the room, his own eyes red and swollen, his face pale and gaunt and his hair and clothes are a mess. His eyes lock with mine and he stays where he is, just staring at me for a few long seconds before he launches himself across the room, climbing up onto the bed to straddle me and I am pulled up to half sit, being crushed to his chest as his smashes his lips to mine and I feel wetness on my cheeks from his tears which start my own again as I kiss him back, my hands coming up to clench in the back of his shirt and the monitor I am hooked up to starts beeping rapidly and Frank pulls away, cupping my face in his hands as we both pant for breath, me more so than him and he smiles weakly and says "I should fucking hate you for doing this to me but I'm so fucking glad you're ok. I love you so so much baby." I gulp in another deep breath before saying "I love you too, I'm sorry." Frank shakes his head and the beeping monitor starts to slow down a little but a nurse comes in and falters in her step a little as she sees Frank on the bed, straddling my lap but he turns and smiles softly at her and says "Sorry, that was my fault." She smiles warmly at him and says "Ok, just don't make a habit of it" before turning and leaving the room.

After a few more minutes later there's a knock at the door and both Frank and I turn to look in that direction, seeing Mikey come back in with Miles on his hip and Anna walking beside him, her little hand wrapped around two of his fingers. She looks around and when she spots me and Frank she giggles and points as she says "Dada." Frank smiles back at her and climbs down off the bed, going over and scooping her up, bringing her back over to me and putting her down on my lap. "No" she says firmly and I frown as she reaches out for Frank and says "No dada." Frank picks her back up again and I feel my bottom lip quiver slightly as Frank sighs and says "Baby don't you want to have cuddles with daddy?" Anna wraps her arms around Franks neck and cuddles closer to him and he chuckles at her misunderstanding but I feel like screaming that she doesn't seem to know who I am or want anything to do with me. Mikey crosses the room and lays Miles on my chest, my hand coming up to rest on his back and he looks up at me with a big grin on his face and he lets out a little gurgle and I smile back at him before picking him up and pressing soft kisses all over his face.

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