break my will to fly or love

"Frank? No!" A familiar voice yelled. A strong force knocked me down and the gun fell out of my hand.
"No, no! I want to die. Just let me die" I searched for the gun. Two hands wrapped around each one my wrists.
"Frank" the voice cried I looked up and it was Gerard. Tears rolling down his face as he looked into my tear stained eyes. "I just want to die" I whispered
"So do I" he whispered back
"Gerard you're a father now, you can't kill yourself"
"I told the nurse, that I never want to see the baby or Lyn-z again"
"Oh" he pulled me into his lap
"I want you to run away with me"
"What about school?" He wiped the tears off my cheeks with his thumb
"I'm gonna quit and I'm gonna homeschool you" "I love you, gee"
"Pack your stuff, I'm gonna go get mikey-"
"What about my friends?" I interrupted him
"Tell them you are moving"
"I guess I'm gonna have to, I'll meet you at your house when I'm ready to go"
"Okay"

***

"You ready mikes?" I called upstairs to him
"I told uncle tim to sell the house like you asked"
"Good. You packed?"
"Almost, ray is coming too"
"What happened to Eric?"
"He was an asshole so I broke up with him"
"Okay then... I'm going to go pack"
"I'll watch for frank and ray"

Notes

Idk y I cried while writing this