The Boy With Scars

~frank's point of view~
i groaned and rolled over in bed. I really didn't want to get up and have to face Tessa.
I threw my arm up to cover my eyes forgetting about last night.
"Ah!" i yelped pulling my arm down quickly. I pulled my sleeved up and sighed.

I showered then went out to see her.
"Hey Frankie! I made breakfast" Tess said as i sat at the table.
I nodded to her but stayed quiet.
"Look, Frank, i know you're not doing so great right now but i was wondering if you minded me inviting Jake over for dinner tonight?" She asked .
"Jimmy?" I asked and she nodded smiling.
"He's she guy i told you about! My boyfriend " She said excitedly and i pretended to be happy for her.
"Sure whatever its fine. I can get out of the house that night if you want" I said hoping she would let me go.
"No! i want you guys to meet" She said and i sighed quietly.
"Yea cool" i said.

that evening i was sitting on the couch as Tess got ready in her room. There was a knock at the door. I got up to let the guy in.
I opened the door to a tall muscly blonde guy in blue jeans and a white shirt with cowboy boots on. Ugh the country type of guy.
"Hi! i'm Jake! you must be..Franklin?" He says and i roll my eyes.
"Frank." I say and let him .
"Tess he's here" I call to her. As we wait in the front room he studies me. He takes in my long sleeved Avenged Sevenfold t-shirt black skinny jeans and vans and seems to be a bit confused.
"Why the long sleeves if its not cold out?" He asks and i shrug.
"I like this shirt" I say simply not telling him the full truth.
"i'm sure." The dick said sarcastically .
Before i could say anything Tessa walked in.
"Hey Jake! i see you met Frankie" Tessa says way to happy.
Jake is instantly being super nice to her .
"Yea babe. i did. He's nice" He said smiling.
We headed into the kitchen to eat.

After dinner they sat in the living room and i went back to my bedroom playing music.

-A month later-
I groaned as i walked into the kitchen to find Tessa sitting on Jake's lap full on making out with him.
She giggled as he said
"Got a problem little boy?"
Tessa didn't seem to notice how mean he was or the fact that he totally hated me.
I sighed but ignored him like always.
"Hey i gotta run to the store, stay here with Frank okay?" Tessa said as she got up and grabbed her keys. Before i could protest she was out the door.
"So, faggot, I mean, Frank how has your emo day been?"Jake said to me. God i hated him.
"Hell of a lot better than yours dick head" I said
"Don't talk to me like that Homo" He said and i rolled my eyes
"I'll do whatever the fuck i want cowgirl" I said. It got on his nerves when i called him 'cowgirl' and it was so funny
"Why don't you just go slit your fucking wrists and die?!" He said. I gasped then he added
"Tess doesn't want you here. I sure as hell don't and she told me about your fag of a boyfriend you left behind and let me tell you something cupcake, I can guarantee you he isn't sitting by the phone waiting for you to call. He has already moved on from your sorry ass. No one likes you or wants you around so why are you here?!" He said and i felt tears in my eyes. No. I refused to cry in front of him.
"Go kill your self" He said one last time.
"Gladly" I said and walked out of the room.
God maybe i should fucking kill myself. I hadn't talked to Gerard in over a month and he probably had moved on. Tessa was sure as hell tired of me. We had gotten into multiple fights. The most recent one the worst. i got lost in the memory of that fight




"hey Frankie?" Tessa asked as she stood in the doorway of my bedroom.I looked up at her.
"Look i'v noticed you wearing the sleeves recently and...And you seem kinda depressed and i was wondering whats up?" She asked and i sighed. I had been expecting this.
"Nothin" I said simply and she looked at me almost angrily.
"Look Frank you have been brushing me off lately and i want to know why!" She said and i turned my head.
"to bad you don't always get what you want" I said.
"Oh my god Frank! i deserve to now whats going on with you!!" She was suddenly yelling. I rolled over on my bed to look at her.
"Just stop!" I said loudly but she ignored me.
"You think i don't know you have been fucking cutting yourself?! you think i don't hear you cry at night?! DO YOU THINK I DON'T FUCKING SEE THE DEPRESSION?!" She screamed
I yelled back this time.
"JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP TESSA YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT!! I'M FUCKING FINE!!!"
"NO YOU'RE NOT!! YOU'RE NOT OKAY" She screamed.
"AWW FUCK OFF. I'M O-FUCKING-KAY!! why don't you just go back to your dick boyfriend!" I screamed.
"JAKE IS A NICE GUY !" she replied. I laughed.
"sure" I said.
She rolled her eyes.
"YOU LITTLE FUCKING JERK. WHY DID YOU EVEN AGREE TO COME HERE WITH ME IF ALL YOU DO ALL DAY IS SIT AROUND WRITING SUICIDE NOTES AND PLANNING TO KILL YOURSELF?!?!" she screamed and that really hurt. I didn't say anything.
"OH NOW YOU'RE QUIET?! YOU'RE SUDDENLY SERIOUS WHEN IT COMES TO SUICIDE? WELL LET ME TELL YOU I WON'T FUCKING LET YOU KILL YOUR SELF AND GET RID OF ME THAT EASY" She yelled and now i was even more pissed
"I'LL DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT! EVEN SUICIDE" I screamed tears falling down my face.
"IF YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF WHY DON'T YOU, YOU LITTLE SHIT " She screamed then left the apartment for a while.



I sighed at the memory of that fight. I had cut a bunch that night. I flopped down on bed and cried. I would wait- wait until i was alone for long enough to get the job done then i would do it. They would finally be rid of me.

Notes

what is wrong with me.

MattyTheKilljoy~