The Boy With Scars

~Frank's point of view~
It's been a month since i have seen Gerard. I have only heard his voice over the phone twice and i'm falling apart inside. Outside however i'm trying to look happy for Tessa's sake. School has been whatever. People ignore me and i ignore them. I'm glad to be out of that god awful place i use to live in but i miss Gee so fucking much. I was home alone because Tessa was off at collage right now. I pulled out my phone and checked the time. Gerard should be home by now. I decided to call him.

"Hello?" He answered and i smiled.
"It's good to hear your voice" I said quietly
"You to sweetie. Miss ya" He said and i smiled. Our relationship right now is weird. We call each other stuff like sweetie or darling or whatever and we kissed and he told me he loved me but we haven't actually talked about being together or not so i'm not really sure what we are
"I have the best idea!" Gee said.
"What?"
"Get on your computer! i'm skyping you Bitch!" He said as i laughed. I did as he asked and soon enough i was answering his call on my computer. I hung up on him as i looked at his face on the screen.
"God it's been so long" He said smiling and i grinned as much as i could. Despite seeing him i was still really sad. It wasn't just being away from him either. I'm not sure what's wrong with me.
"You to." i said.
We talked for a while but then he had to go to hang out with Mikey and Ray. At least he had friends still.
I paced the apartment not sure what to do. I flung myself down on my bed and felt tears fall from my eyes. I was so alone. Why was i such a freak. I mean i had a boyfriend kind of...even if he did live really far. Distance wasn't that much of an issue...I just don't understand what is so wrong with me!

i ran over to my dresser. In the bottom drawer in a small box were my blades. I had promised myself i wouldn't use them since moving here but i couldn't help it. i pulled on out and yanked my sleeve up. I pulled it down over my left arm again and again. I was crying my the time i dropped the blade and lay down on my side.
I sobbed and sobbed until i ran out of tears.
It gets so hard feeling alone.

"Frankie?" Tessa called as she knocked on my locked bedroom door. i guess i had missed her getting home.
"You okay?" She asked sounding worried.
I tried to hide the fact i had been crying.
"Fine. " I said and she shook the door nob.
"Can i come in?" She asked and i cried harder trying to be silent.
"I'm gonna go to bed. i'll see you in the morning" I said thankful i didn't have school the next day.

Notes

What do you guys think about tessa? Should i write a diffrent fanfic about her and someone eles from the band? Also! if y'all have twitter follow me and i'll follow you back! My @ is MattThyKilljoy
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