You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

By the time the movie is over Frank has tightened his arms around me, pulling my tight against his side and I have my head resting against his shoulder and I'm just on the edge of falling asleep when I feel him lean down and press a kiss to the top of my head. I sigh softly as I slowly open my eyes again and sit up again, Franks arms loosening before letting me go completely and I slowly stand from the couch, stretching my arms over my head and cracking my back a little, most of my joints popping and by the time I put my arms back down my whole body feels loose and amazing. "I'll be right back" I say softly, turning to leave the room and I head into the kitchen for a glass of water but as I reach for a glass on the shelf above the sink hands grip my hips and I jump slightly as I'm turned around and Frank presses me back against the cupboard as we come face to face, his face just an inch from mine, our noses almost touching as he says "You look so amazing today and i want to kiss you so badly right now but I'll leave that decision up to you." I let my eyes trail down to Franks lips and then back up to his eyes before I say "I haven't decided what I want yet and it wouldn't be fair to you if I kissed you right now because I can't promise we'll be ok." Frank nods and pulls away, removing his hands from me and steps back, putting some space between us before he says "I'm sorry" and he turns and leaves the room.

Later that night Mikey and I go into the bedroom, both of us settling into the bed as Frank is sleeping on the couch and when we're both laying comfortably Mikey grabs his phone and dials Pete's number. As it rings I reach out and grab his free hand, squeezing it softly and he squeezes mine back and when Pete answers the phone I continue to hold Mikey's hand for support through the entire conversation. By the end of the call Mikey has arranged to meet Pete for coffee tomorrow in the city and we both roll onto our sides facing away from each other as I turn the lamp off and I slowly drift off to sleep, still confused about what to do about Frank. The next morning when I wake up I roll onto my back, looking over and seeing the bed empty beside me and when I sit up I notice a piece of paper on the bedside table along with a business card which I sit aside as I read the note. 'Gee just call and make an appointment if you want and I will pay all the costs - Frank' and when I pick up the card it's for a lawyer who specialises in divorces and my heart sinks as I start to hyperventilate, the thought of going through with what I've been thinking suddenly seeming terrifying in the moment and I stand up, stumbling towards the bedroom door as I gulp for air and tears stream down my face.

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