You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

"Wow, Gee I....I don't know what to say, that's massive. Have you thought this through?" I let out a soft sigh, taking a small sip of coffee before I say "Mikey it's just....how much am I meant to take?" I pause, taking another sip of coffee before telling Mikey everything and when I'm done he says "Wow Gee, that's crap. I really don't know what to say, I guess the most important thing is, do you still love him?" "I do Mikes, I love him so fucking much but it hurts and isn't love meant to be easy? I don't think it's meant to be this hard if it's right and that means Frank and I aren't right for each other, no matter how badly I want us to be." "Gee you know I'm here for you no matter what happens, and if it makes you feel any better, I still love Pete." "Really?" "Yeah, I do, crazy huh?" "No, it's not crazy, I get it." We sit at the coffee shop for a while longer, our conversation dying down and we sit in comfortable silence while we finish our coffees and after we finish we start to head back to the apartment, talking some more on the way. "So have you been in contact with Pete?" I ask, glancing over at Mikey and he smiles sadly as he shakes his head. "Nah, I tried calling him the other day but he didn't answer and when he called back I didn't answer because I panicked." I let out a small laugh as I say "If you wanna try again I'll sit with you if you wanted." "Thanks Gee, maybe later."

When we get back to the apartment both Ian and Frank are out so after Mikey puts his bag in my room we settle in the living room, sprawled across the two couches playing video games against each other and throwing the small pillows off the couches at each other in an attempt to distract each other and I can't help but smile to myself, finally having the kind of relationship I've wanted with Mikey. It starts getting late in the afternoon and Mikey and I are just discussing ordering in pizza in between laughing and joking while we have an intense boxing battle on the game when the front door opens and Frank comes in, a small smile on his face as he stands in the doorway looking at me and Mikey temporarily distracts me by throwing another pillow at me and I lose the game, Mikey gloating loudly. "In your face Gee, you have to pay for the pizza now loser." "Hey that wasn't part of the deal." "Oh it totally was, loser buys the pizza, it was in the fine print." "Oh well did the fine print mention being a dirty cheater?" Mikey just laughs and Frank joins in with a little chuckle and when I tilt my head to look at him he smiles sadly at me. "Do you mind if I join you guys?" He asks softly and I shrug and say "It's your apartment too." Frank nods and slowly comes into the room, sitting in the arm chair by himself and I excuse myself, getting up to use the bathroom before going into the kitchen and calling for pizza, stopping to grab three beers on my way back to the living room and when I walk in Frank and Mikey are playing against each other so I sit their beers on the table and sink back onto my couch, making myself comfortable as I watch them battle it out, Frank eventually winning and Mikey sits his control on the table and picks up his beer as he pouts. Frank does the same, gloating silently instead of pouting and I shake my head, a small smile on my face as I suggest watching a movie. We argue for a while before finally deciding on a movie and just as the opening scene comes on there's a knock at the door and I get up, opening it to find the pizza delivery guy and I pay him, taking the three boxes from him and when I walk back into the living room I hand Mikey his, stopping on my way back to my couch to give Frank his and he smiles up at me, reaching up and grabbing my wrist and when I look back down at him he smiles and softly says "Thank you." I shoot him a small smile back as I continue to my couch, the three of us eating and watching the movie in silence and halfway through I notice Frank staring at me rather than the tv and ten minutes later he's still staring at me so I continue to stare at the tv while I subtly pat the couch beside me, sitting up a bit and Frank practically launches himself out of the armchair and onto the couch in the spot I just made for him and when he's settled I lean back into him, his arms wrapping around me and I sigh softly as I make myself comfortable and focus on the movie again, ignoring the looks Mikey is shooting me as I smile to myself.

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