You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

Franks mouth opens but no words come out and he closes it again and I sigh in frustration and say "Fifty seconds Frank." He nods frantically and opens his mouth again, this time words actually come out. "I don't have a good excuse for what I did, I know I don't have a right to ask you to forgive me, I know it's way beyond that now and I don't deserve your forgiveness but I need you, so fucking badly Gee, more than you'll ever know and I kinda get the feeling this is it for us. After all the fuck ups I've made in this relationship I know we're standing right on the edge and as badly as I want to grab you and pull you back with me I know it's not my choice and I don't want to hold you with me against your will anymore. So this is my final plea, I love you more than you'll ever know Gee and I want to spend the rest of my life with you and I'll fight for you but if you decide you don't want me, I'll respect your decision and I'll sign whatever you need me to." I roll my head to look over into his eyes and they are swollen and watery, his face looking broken and defeated. After a few long seconds he takes a shaky breath and says "I'll leave you alone now, is it alright if I sleep on the couch?" I nod slowly and Frank nods before turning and leaving the room and when he's gone I curl up on my side, pulling the covers over my head and I drift off to sleep, my mind needing a break from all the drama.

The next morning I wake up to the smell of fresh coffee and when I sit up there is a tray resting on the bedside table, a plate of waffles with fresh strawberries and a still steaming cup of coffee sitting on it along with a single white rose and I sit up, sliding back to lean against the headboard as I grab the coffee in one hand and the rose in the other, taking a sip of the hot coffee, perfectly prepared how I like it as I stare at the rose, twirling it around in my fingers. After I finish breakfast I sit the tray aside and I grab my phone, calling Mikey and when he answers we exchange pleasantries before I say "Mikes do you think maybe you could come into the city and meet me? I really need to talk." "Sure, is everything ok?" "I just....I need to talk about this in person, please." "Ok I'll catch the next train and I'll be there real soon ok?" "Ok text me an arrival time and I'll meet you." After Mikey and I hang up I leave the bedroom with an armful of clean clothes, heading into the bathroom and by the time I get out of the shower Mikey has let me know he'll be here in an hour and a half so I finish getting ready and leave the apartment, passing Ian in the hallway and he opens his mouth to speak to me but I keep walking, not interested. When Mikey finally arrives we share a hug before heading towards the closest coffee shop and once we are settled opposite each other in a booth with our coffees Mikey looks up at me and says "What happened?" "I'm thinking about asking Frank for a divorce."

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