You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

Bert and I spend the rest of the afternoon hanging out in his dorm room and just as it starts to get dark he drags me out to a movie, trying to take my mind off everything. We end up seeing some crappy comedy and by the end of it I feel somewhat better and after the movie we head to a diner and have dinner before walking back to the dorms and on the way there my phone buzzes in my pocket. I pull it out to see a message from Ian and three missed calls from Frank and I open the message, not in the mood to return the calls. 'Gee I'm sorry I played a part in what happened earlier, please come back or atleast call Frank so he knows you're ok.' 'Im not coming back Ian, I don't want to see either of you right now but one thing I need to know, was your office a test too?' I slip my phone back into my pocket as Bert and I keep walking and just as we get to his room my phone buzzes again and I pull it out to see Ian responded to my message. 'No it wasn't, that was real and I know Ive missed my shot now. We don't have to tell Frank, you don't even have to speak to me again just please come home so we can see you're ok.' I don't bother responding, slipping my phone back in my pocket and I sit down on Bert's bed, sliding across to lean back against the wall and I bring my knees up to my chest, curling in on myself a little as Bert turns on the tv, crawling onto the bed and sitting with me. "Gee it'll be ok" Bert says softly as he reaches out and gently rests his hand over mine and I turn my hand over and grab a hold of his, needing the comforting touch. We sit in silence for a while, just watching tv together when there's a knock on the door and Bert looks over at me before saying "Just a second," letting go of my hand and climbing off the bed. As Bert crosses the room I turn my attention back to the tv and when he opens the door a familiar voice says "Is Gee here?" My head snaps around and I see that where I am isn't visible from the doorway. I shuffle further across on the bed, moving away from the door and Bert says "Why would he be here?" "Look I kinda fucked up and now I don't know where he is. Have you heard from him? I really need to find him so I can apologise and you were the only person I could think of in the city besides his old roommate that he might have gone to and he's not with Patrick" Frank says, his voice wavering slightly and I stand up, sighing softly as I walk over and stand beside Bert. "Frank I...." "Baby I'm sorry" Frank says and I shake my head. "You're not sorry, you just say that because you want me to come home but deep down, you're not really sorry are you?" Frank takes a deep breath, glancing down before looking back up again and when his eyes meet mine he says "Ok no I'm not sorry deep down. I know what I did to you in the past was wrong and worse than what you did but I was fucking hurt and I had to be sure I wasn't getting fucked around." "And you don't think I felt that way when you kept fucking me around and kept lying to me? And I never pulled that kind of shit on you." Frank swallows hard and softly says "I'm shit, I get it. I don't deserve you, just please come home, I won't stay there, I'll find somewhere else to stay but just please come home so I know you're safe."

An hour later I walk inside the apartment with Frank, both of us keeping a safe distance between us and Ian comes out of the kitchen and steps towards me with his arms held out for a hug and I take a step towards him and reach out, shoving him harshly in the chest and he stumbles back a few steps as I walk past him and into the bedroom, slamming the door behind me. Once I'm separated from the two of them I pace back and forth across the room a few times before sinking down on the bed and shifting into the middle, laying on my back and staring at the roof. A few minutes later there's a soft knock at the door and Frank softly calls out "Gee can I come in?" I don't answer and another few minutes go by before he says "Babe please, can I just talk to you for a minute?" I huff out a breath before saying "One minute" and the door slowly opens, Frank edging into the room and closing the door behind himself, staying where he is as he gazes over at me and opens his mouth to speak.

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