You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

After Jake leaves Frank asks me to join him on the balcony and I follow him out, Mikey and Ian going back to his room to give us some privacy. I sit on a chair out there and Frank offers me a cigarette but I refuse, crossing my arms across my chest and Frank sits opposite me and stares me straight in the eye. "So you're sleeping with him?" "Babe it's not....I didn't want to but I didn't think you would understand." "So you're sleeping with him still?" "Yeah." "But that's not all you're hiding is it?" Frank shakes his head before saying "When I first came here with Jake we went out one night and got really drunk and....we ended up going home with this girl at the bar we were at and she got pregnant." "You got a girl pregnant?" "We don't know for sure if it's mine or Jakes." "So you potentially got a girl pregnant, lied to me about it even though you promised you were going to be honest with me from now on, after all the other lies you already told me and then to top it all off you had an affair with Jake to try and keep it from me?" Franks head drops and I feel my hands start to shake, my whole body vibrating with hurt and anger. "Babe I didn't want to....." "Fuck you Frank" I yell at him as I stand up and walk past him, going back inside and Mikey and Ian step out of his room as I go past. "Gee" Mikey says softly as he reaches out and touches my arm and I shrug his touch off as I turn to look at Ian. "Did you know this too? Is this all some big fucking joke to you guys?" "Gee what happened?" "Franks going to be a father, a single one at that because I'm fucking done." I hear a choked off sob and I turn my head to see Frank standing up the hallway infront of the living room door. "No, please" he chokes out but I ignore him and go into the bedroom, grabbing a bag and starting to fill it with my clothes, grabbing another one I use for my art supplies and packing those up too before taking off my wedding and engagement rings and leaving them on the bedside table, picking up my wallet and phone and leaving the room again, pushing past Ian and Mikey on my way to the door and as I go to pass Frank he launches himself on me, making me drop my bags and knocking me to the floor. "You're not going" he tells me and I thrash around beneath him, managing to get one hand free to slap him across the face and he snaps and hits me back and we roll around on the floor punching and slapping each other until Ian and Mikey rush over and pull us apart. I shrug out of Mikey's hold and stand back up, grabbing my bags and rushing out the door without another word.

I wander around for a while, my phone constantly buzzing in my pocket but I don't want to speak to anyone so I let it ring out before it starts again. The sun starts to set and I just want to lay down and never get up again so I check into a hotel, going up to my room and dumping my bags in the corner, climbing onto the bed and closing my eyes. The next time I wake up my phone is still buzzing and I pull it from my pocket, seeing Mikey's name on the screen. "What?" I ask when I answer and Mikey says "Gee where are you? Are you ok?" "I'm fine but I'm not coming back." "Look Gee, Frank took off about an hour ago after talking about doing some pretty horrible things to Jake, Ian's gone out to look for him but he still can't find him." I sigh, feeling my stomach churn and my eyes well with tears again and as much as I don't want to be around Frank right now I also don't want to see him hurt or end up doing something stupid. "Ok I'm coming back" I tell him before hanging up and I call Ian as I climb off the bed and pull my shoes back on. "Hello?" "Have you found him yet?" I ask and I hear Ian sigh before saying "No, no one has seen him and neither he or Jake are at Jakes so I don't know what to do, we've got people looking but I'm worried Gee." "What can I do? Where are you?" "I'm at the practice space with the guys." "Should I come over?" "If you want Gee, I'm not sure what else we can do so it's really your choice." "Ok, I'll be there soon." I hang up and leave the room, hailing a cab and going to the practice space and as I walk down the hall to their room I hear yelling and banging and I run the rest of the way, freezing in the doorway when I see Frank with his hand around Ian's throat, pinning him to the wall and the rest of the guys are tugging him off as he shouts "You know where he is so fucking tell me." The guys pull him off and Ian straightens up and says "I fucking don't, I spoke to him before but I have no fucking idea where he is and it's your fucking fault he left anyway. He's one of my best friends and he doesn't deserve all the shit you put him through." Frank tries to break free of the hands holding him back and I step further into the room and say "Frank just fucking stop it." "Gee" he chokes out and he lunges forward, freeing himself and he stumbles across the room towards me but I take a step back and hold my hands up to stop him. "I'm only here because I don't want to see you end up in jail or something" I tell him and his face drops as he stares into my eyes, pain evident in them but it's nothing compared to how I feel.

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