You're Not In This Alone

Dad arrives fifteen minutes later, being better in these situations than pa and I have packed myself a bag, packing one for Sophie too and when I hear him knock on the door I scoop Sophie into my arms, wrapping her in her blanket before shifting her into one arm and reaching down to grab the two bags, slinging them over my shoulder before heading to the front door and I see Ryan passed out on the couch, blood smeared all over his lower face. I open the door and my bottom lip quivers as dad steps forward and wraps his arms around me. "Come on baby girl" he says as he steps back and takes the bags from me and when he spots Ryan he says "What the fuck happened to him?" I hold up a clenched fist and dad chuckles and says "That's my girl," kissing my forehead before leading me from the apartment and we get a cab, going back to his apartment. Once I have Sophie settled in her crib I join dad and pa in the kitchen and we sit at the table drinking coffee, pa sitting beside me with his arm around me. "What happened baby?" Pa asks and I lean into him as I say "We had....I don't even know what it was, it wasn't exactly a fight but....he told me he didn't think Sophie was really his and I hit him." "He said what?" Dad snaps and I sigh before saying "Last night he tried to....and I froze, I just couldn't do it and he just turned his back to me and then when I got up this morning he took off all day and when he came home he was drunk and I got mad about him dumping me with Sophie all day while he went out and had fun and he said that's my job because she's my kid and I said she was his too and he said how does he know the doctor didn't fuck up the tests." By the end I am crying again and Pa pulls me tighter into his side. "Baby girl, he was drunk, he probably doesn't even really know what he was saying." "I don't care, he should never have said it. I was going to move across the country for him." "What?" "I... I don't know, I thought I wanted to go but I know it's a mistake now." Dad stands up and huffs out an angry breath before saying "I should go back over there and...." "Don't" I say softly and he sighs again before rounding the table and pulling me up from my seat, wrapping his arms around me tight and I melt into his chest.

The next morning I wake up and Sophie is gone from her crib so I climb out of bed and wander out into the kitchen where I can hear dad talking and making weird noises and when I walk in I see Sophie sitting in her high chair being fed while he makes train and plane noises as he waves the spoon in front of her face and she giggles and squeals as she eats. I stand in the doorway watching, a huge smile on my face when I hear a knock at the front door and dad looks up and spots me. "Hey baby girl" he says and Sophie turns her head to look at me, sending me a huge smile. "Hey I'll get that" I say as I turn to leave the room but pa is already there and I hear him say "What are you doing here?" And I step back into the kitchen out of sight as I know who it is. "Yeah you hate me, please just get my wife for me" Ryan says and I turn to look at dad, wondering what I should do. "That's not going to happen" I hear pa say and we hear Ryan argue with him before he yells out "Ruby get out here." Dad stands up and walks over to me, Sophie whining in protest at being left alone and dad touches my arm as he says "You finish breakfast and I'll finish this." "Don't hit him" I warn him before he leaves the room and just as I take his seat in front of Sophie I hear dad say "Don't you ever fucking speak to my daughter like that again, she's not an animal and you'll be lucky to ever see her again after what you did." I don't hear anything for a few seconds before Ryan says "Ok fine I'll go but I need Ruby's answer about LA by tonight." The front door bangs shut and a few seconds later both dad and pa come into the room, dad's hands shaking and he looks ready to break something. "Dad" I say softly and his gaze meets mine as I stand up and cross the room to him, wrapping my arms around his waist as I rest my head against his shoulder and he wraps his arms around me. "It's ok dad" I tell him softly and he sighs, his body relaxing a little.

Notes

No matter how many times I listen to Bullets I still fall in love with it all over again every single time
Just curious what is everyone's overall favourite MCR song?