I'm a sinner for love

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"Iero quit talking to Gerard" Mr.lechard spoke
Gerard and i just laughed and turned back to our assignments.
But I couldnt think, my mind was all tangled up.
The drugs are really getting to me .. and my friends. I looked over at Gerard and he looked pretty focused on his work. How is he doing that?
I wasnt only bothered by that but the fact i haven't been spending enough time with Gerard compared to how often we used to. I swear to god if i lose him. I cant.
A wave of anxiety crashed into me.
Suddenly it was a lot more harder to breath and there i was gasping for breath probably looking like a complete fucking idiot.
"Frank? You okay man" Gerard whispered
I couldnt bare to look at him, i was to busy trying to catch my breath before i like die in my seat or something.
"Frank!?" he yelled through clenched teeth as he stood in front of my desk
by that point i finally had the courage to look at him, and as soon as we made contact i froze unable to breath.
what the fuck is happening??
Gerard looked horrified,
"Mr. uh whatever uhm. Frank and I be excused? Okay thanks" He said grabbing my arm and basically dragging me into the hall.
when we were sat against the wall in the hallway, Gerard sat crosslegged in front of me still holding my arm in his tight grip.
My breathing was getting easier but i had a feeling in my head where i just wanted to breakdown and cry until there was nothing left.
I was staring off into space until a warm, wet substance flew and landed upon my cheek, the force causing me to flinch slightly. "Shh its okay" Gerard said gently rubbing my back.
I didnt even realize i was crying.
Now that i knew i started to cry even more to the point i had to burry my face in my hands, Its been a while since i cried in front of him.
"Aw, Frank" Gerard whispered wrapping his arms around me

A few minutes later of sobbing into his hold Gerard finally broke the silence
"Now, are you gonna tell me whats wrong or just continue to get my jacket wet?" He said softly
I couldnt find any words, all i could do was shrug my shoulders.
"This isnt like you.. fuck" Gerard said under his breath
"Sorry" I managed to say
Gerard looked down at me
"What?! What could you possibly be sorry for?" He said shocked
"f-for being weak"
He shook his head smiling.
"Youre not weak Frankie, Im weak if anything"
I gasped
"No! Gerard!!! Youre like the strongest person i know. Keeping your head up at the worst of times plus without you i dont even know where id be" I nearly yelled
I caught gerard's cheeks turn a lighter shade of pink before turning away
"Watcha blushing for" I laugh nudging him in the shoulder
"Im not blushing!" He said as his cheeks flush a little darker
I smile while pushing him away slightly
Gerard looks at me with disappointment
"Whaaaat dont look at me like that" I pout

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Why now? All this time i was friends with this kid why now do i have to grow feelings for him?!
i try getting my stupid feeling away as i repeat to myself 'imnotgayimnotgayimnotgay' but something about him is makes my heart bounce around in my chest and its making me angrier by the second because i dont even know why! He's my friend! i cant just all of a sudden fall in love with him!? What the fuck brain i hate you.
The bell rings me out of my thoughts and Frank jumps from the noise.
"Can you move so i can get up?" He trys pushing me away.
I move away almost instantly and Frank stands up reaching a hand down to help me
I take his small hand and rise up to my feet, my legs are asleep and feel like jello as i strode across the hall to my locker.
"Hey Gerard, do you think we can chill today?"
"Yeah sure" I say probably too quickly
"Whoaa then, See you in the front of the school?"
I nod smiling, He laughs and runs to his locker tumbling over other students on his way.

Notes

The frerard is finally happening!!:3