I'm a sinner for love

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I head down towards Gerard's room until i feel a hand reach my shoulder.
Not again.
"Seriously fuck off Gerard" I say,
"I-Its not Gerard.. Its Mikey" He says with panic
I regret snapping and turn around to view his worried face.
"Is there something i can help you with?" I question crossing my arms.
"Well like i uhm, I went to go see what you too were doing and i .. found gerard crying in the attic. I was just wondering if you knew about it" Mikey said with one breath
I bet he could hear my heart cracking but i still kept together.
"No. I had nothing to do with that. Tell him that i'll be sleeping in his room" I walk into Gerards room and hop into the small bed.
Mikey nods sadly and heads towards the attic ladder.
My eyes shut but my mind doesnt seem to co-operate.
A groan comes out of my mouth as i shift in the bed trying to get my mind to shut up.

I wake up stiff and uncomfortable, Only to see Gerard laying next to me turned the other way letting out stifled cries.
"Y-You okay?" I mutter surprised he could even hear
The sobs that were coming from him stop.
"yeah" He whispers
"Wait Gerard, sit up for a second" I whisper back
He sits up but doesnt look at me, instead a few stray tears fall from his eyes as he stares of into the distance.
I wipe them away before they could fall further.
"Tell me whats wrong" I ask inching closer to him
"Nothing"
"Bullshit!"
"Not like you'll care anything. You have no idea what goes on in my head" He spits out
"Gerard!" I yell
He flinches away and nearly falls off the bed.
I grab his face and make him face me.
"I dont like seeing you upset Gee" I gently trace my hand along is cheek.
Gerard sniffles and melts into my grip blushing slightly.

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I try to stop myself from blushing and the butterflies erupting in my stomach but i cant.
Frank is just to special i cant not blush.
And the little smirk growing on his face makes me heat up even more and damn! Look at those perfect lips.. mm just want to kiss them all day long.
No Gerard! Stop. stop thinking about shit like that!

"Hey uh Gee?" Frank's beautiful voice snaps me back into reality
"Y-Y-Yeah?" I stutter trying to sound like im not thinking about him
"Whoa. & uh. Can i tell you something?" He whispers
I nod kind of excited but kind of scared of what he's gonna end up saying.
What if he knows?! No he cant. I never told anyone.
Panic grows inside of me and i start to shake.
All of a sudden Frank leans dangerously close to my face
"Do you Really want to know?" He whispers. I can feel his hot breath on my lips. hng.
I bite my lip staring into his eyes then at his lips then back up to his eyes.
He laughs slightly at my actions and leans in two seconds later closing the gap between us.
No it cant be! Am i fucking dreaming? His lips are way more better than i expected.
I press hard against his lips, he does the same. My attempts of moving them falter. But then Frank opens his mouth allowing me in. He makes the most prettiest noise at the back of his throat. I can literally feel my pants getting tighter. "Oh gee" He moans as i rub my tongue against his. I break the kiss and i stare at Frank panting.
"Holy fuck youre a good kisser" He laughs
I blush and slide back under the blanket.

Notes

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