I'm a sinner for love

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I walk upstairs to find a sleeping Frank on my living room couch.
"Mikey?" I yell out
"Hm?" He says from behind me
"Why is he here again?"
"Him and his mom got into a major fight, He was crying when he got here. He was so sad that he refused to even eat so i suggest you keep an eye on him.. "
I nodded my head and walked over to Frank.
He is so so pretty, the way his hair falls perfectly over his face, his fluttering eyes just everything. I was so close to reminding myself that im not gay and i dont like Frank but everytime i look at him my heart just pounds so hard in my chest that im pretty sure one day its just gonna jump right out of my chest and-
"Gerard?!" Frank stutters shaking me.
I didnt even realize i fell asleep.. probably freaked him out when i was just laying on the ground.
"Im here" I whisper grabbing his arms and placing them down beside him
Frank looks at me and shoots a sly smile before standing up to stretch. I stand up also.
"I heard youve been upset caused by the fight with your mom, Care to watch a movie in the attic?" I whispered not wanting to startle him to much
He nods and runs upstairs i follow him until the ladder appears
"Ladies first" Frank says
I scoff and climb up the thin ladder.

We're at the top and Frank runs and jumps onto the couch right away.
"Frank the cushions are sooo dusty" I laugh
"No they aren- Oh my god they are" He gasps
I continue to laugh at him and he stares at me, gesturing for me to sit down

We are all settled in. I put in starwars and press play.

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The movie is far from the end and i feel myself getting tired, I let out a quiet yawn.
"Aw is little fwankie tired?" Gerard makes his voice high pitched as if he was talking to a baby. I laugh in the middle of my yawn. "Yeah well sitting on a couch doing nothing is tiring" I mutter
"Im sure" He giggles.
I pushed him playfully and he just raised his eyebrows still staring at the movie screen.

My eyes feel heavy and my head almost hits Gerard's shoulder until he turned his body and caught me.
I snapped open my eyes and sat back up out of his grip.
"s-sorry" I stammer fixing my collared shirt.
"No problem man, I guess you couldn't resist falling asleep on me" He smiles looking at me
My jaw dropped open
"I-"
"Whaaat? Am i right?" Gerard moved slightly closer to me on the couch
I shake my head and stare at the screen and pretend nothing happened. Obviously didnt work because Gerard knew. He knew he was right. Well kinda. I aimed to fall asleep closer to him hoping he wouldnt mind but when his strong arms caught me i panicked.

"Wow Frank, Youre as red as a tomato" Gerard laughs
I smile trying not to blush anymore and turn my head.
Gerard sighs and bows his head.
Once i noticed i move closer and asked him what was wrong,
He didnt say anything, instead he opened his arms up for a hug. I accepted and inhaled his scent.
It was pretty romantic if you ask me, despite the starwars soundtrack playing in the back.
"Can i tell you something?" He whispered
My heart started beating ridiculously fast
"Uh huh!" I said tightening my grip
"I-I.. Im really glad we met Frank. I would die if i didnt have a friend like you. Thank you" He said.
I squeezed my eyes shut trying not to let my emotions pour out of me.
I knew it. I fucking knew it. I got friend zoned, Well i mean i cant blame him really.

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I knew i should of just told him how i felt. I had my opportunity and i fucking blew it. I guess it was kind of good tho cause what if i got rejected? Our friendship would end right there.

I loosened my grip on Frank's body and looked down at his eyes. They were squeezed shut.
"Frank? You okay?" I asked.
He opened them, his beautiful hazel eyes were watery and red.
"Hey hey hey dont cry" I whispered rubbing circles on his back.
"Psh im not c-crying" He stumbled on his words and got up
I followed his actions.
"Fraaaaank" I whined like a 5 yearold
"Shut up" He said walking towards the ladder
I stood there in shock.
What'd i do?!
I rushed over to him and touched his shoulder.
I could feel his body tense up.
"We have school tomorrow, Please just let me go" He whispered
Instantly i let go and watched him climb down the ladder.

Notes

Yay or Nay?