I'm a sinner for love

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"So what happens now" I question Gerard as we enter the school
"I-err i dont know, I hope its not awkward between us now" Gerard mumbles heading toward his locker
"Yesterday was great yknow" I whisper
"It was but i think we should just stay friends" He smiles weakly and opens his locker
"Oh.. Y-Yeah thats what i was thinking too" Lies. but well of course i cant tell him. I thought kissing him would change between us but we dont always get what we want i guess.
Gerard turns around and gives me a hug. I wasnt expecting that?!
"Im sorry if stuff didnt go as planned. I just want to keep our wonderful friendship going" He says in barely a whisper
"Y-Yes of c-course" I say trying to hug back

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I wanted him.. but not yet, What if i hurt him?! He's like 7 years younger than me man, He doesnt know what im capable of. Though if he wanted me too he would of said something. I cant ruin the friendship.
"Gerard?! Helllooo?" Frank said
"Oh what. Hi."
"You skipping class with me or nah?" He raised his voice
"Whoa jeez calm, i was just caught in my day dream" I spoke tiredly
"Yeah i could see that" Frank grabbed my arm and we both walked towards outside.

"Man, You look so nice today" Frank nudged my shoulder
I blushed at the comment and quickly looked away
"As do you"
I saw Frank smiling at the corner of my eye.
"Thanks" He giggled
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"Hey instead of continuing school wanna come chill at my place?" Frank said excitedly
"But what abot your mom"
"Hey i dont care, its still my house"
I shrugged my shoulders and strudded to franks house.

When we got into his room, Frank told me to face him. I did as i was told but then out of nowhere he pushed me backwards and i fell onto his bed shocked.
"Frank?! What was that for?" I yelled trying to get back to my feet
"Dont move," He demanded
By this point i was too scared and confused to dis obey him.
Frank jumped onto me and looked at me through his black strands of hair.
"Frank-"
"Shh" He put his finger to my mouth and started to graze his hips into mine
"No stop! Arent we just Friends??!" I yelled struggling to get away.
"Friends with benefits babe" He said grinding faster.
I continued to kick him away.
I knew inside that i so badly wanted him but if he gets me worked up, i could take things way too far and itd be hard for me to stop. So for now my main objective is to avoid these situations.
He sensed my fear and stopped.
Frank bowed his head "Im sorry"
"its fine you didnt know" i whispered.

From that being said we all of a sudden started to distance eachother. Days gone by and not a single word has been said.
I knew this would happen. God dammit heart.

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Its been a month now and im sick. Literally. Im so emotionally sick i cant eat or sleep and my mom threatened me god knows how many times that she'll kick me out of the house if i dont eat her food.
Im done.
I come to school high as fuck and once i see Gerard he doesnt make eye contact.
"Gerard!" I cry out. He looks at me and we're only a few meters away. He raises his eyebrows expecting me to say something but instead im staring blank thinking of something ..anything i can do to get us back the way we were.
My emotionally unstable state gets the best of me and i lunge at him connecting my lips to his. I back him up into the lockers and make out with him opened mouth and hot, The bell rings and i hear stumbling students coming in through the hallway. I attempt to stop but Gerard pulls me in closer ignoring the people mumbling 'fag' and looking at us.
I smile within the kiss knowing he really does enjoy this and i wasnt just embarrassing myself.
My vision goes blurry, Im forgetting how to breath. Who needs oxygen when your making out with an incredibly sexy man. But Gerard can tell i want to keep going and knows that if i do i might pass out. So the little common sense in him appears and he breaks the kiss.
"You need to breath Frank you dumbass" Gerard laughs taking me in for a hug
Even if i tried to stop smiling it wouldnt work. "I missed you Gerard" I say burying my face into his neck.
"Fuck so did i" He says kissing the top of my head.
I began to do something i have never done before. Kiss and lick his neck, sucking and biting in some spots. Gerard gasps. I continue doing this. right before im about to stop, Gerard moans loudly and thats when i know i should probably keep going.

Im beginning to realize that i too is getting turned on myself so being the most eager bastard i am, i start to rub my crotch against his.
So theres currently people going into their class then theres Gerard pressed up against the locker moaning like a cat in heat as i work my magic.
"Oh fuck Frank. Im going to cum in my pants if you keep doing that" He pants
"Yeah?" I whisper grinding harder
I feel precum drip down my thigh and i stifle my urge to moan.
Gerard throws his head back and with shaky breath moans 'oh god'

"Oh god is right!" I hear a older voice from behind us yell
Shit.
"Iero, Way. Get out. This is no place for you guys to do this kind of shit. Its disgusting" The teacher yells at us
Gerard looks scared as hell and i whisper into his ear that itll be okay.

We're out of the school and Gerard stops me in my tracks and re attaches our lips together.
"I was so close oh my god" He whispers
"I know you were and that stupid teacher just had to ruin everything"
"Get me to that point again" Gerard says oh so seductively
"My pleasure" I laugh while dragging him into an alleyway
"Why here?! Why not your hous-"
"Because my mom and here you can moan all you want" I say as i back up Gerard into a tree and re continuing our time in the school.

When Gerard and i were finished we went our seperate ways to our houses.
Im surprised we kept our clothes on. Yknow it wasnt that hard to get Gerard turned on let alone cum. But the face he made remains stuck in my head and i just get hard thinking about it and how I did that No one else. I was the one to make him feel good.

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