The Only Hope For Me Is...
I Will Love You Forever And Always
~2 months later~
Me and Christa were able to plan a wedding on very short notice. She doesn't even look pregnant, which is strangely weird. IFH decided Ariel would become their new singer considering our situation.
After coming home from the studio (did I mention we also found the best apartment in L.A?) I see Christa I the couch and she looked like she'd been crying.
"Baby what's wrong?"
"You know how I haven't been showing since I got pregnant? Well, I went to my doctors appointment and asked them about it."
She looked physically ill to say this next part, and watching her like this made me want to throw up. "Baby, what happened? Is it ok?!"
I patted her stomach trying to make her feel better, but instead of her giggling like she always does, she grabbed my hand and put it to the side. "I had a miscarriage a week and a half ago. The only reason it wasn't noticeable was because my period was clear. I asked them right there to remove the foetus to see if they could determine the sex. They did, but it was too early to note it."
She grabbed my hands to look for Comfort, but I wasn't even sure if I could do it. I grabbed her and let her sob in my arms as much as she could.
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"This is stupid. I'm Crying over something that wasn't even born yet..."
I picked up her chin as gently as i could. "Don't ever say that, this was our kid. It was going to be something amazing, because it was ours. I want you to cry as much as you want over our kid, this thing was going to be a toro."
She smiled at that last part and cheered up. "This is stupid," she barely whispered that I had to move closer to her "I feel like the only reason we got married is because I was pregnant. Now that I'm not," she paused knowing I'll lecture her about doubting herself "do you still love me?"
I wrapped her in my arms and told her the truth. "Christa, I love you more than I love myself. Remember I proposed after sleeping together? It was because I knew since the day i met you that you were different. You didn't like me because of the front I put up, you liked me because you could see right through me. The baby was a perk. Just because your not pregnant doesn't mean we can't try! Besides..."
I pulled apart from her to sing her her favorite song. This song was played at a restaurant on our first date, and the one I learned just for her.
"I will love you forever, forever and always. Please just remember, even if I'm not there (points at her stomach) I'll always love you, forever and always."
We kissed as I pulled her in close to comfort her.
