The Only Hope For Me Is...
Conversation With A Rockstar
"What?!"
"You heard me. Will you marry me?"
She got up and looked me in the eyes. "Ray, your kidding right? We've been together for 2 months. We can't get married!"
"Why not? Christa, I love you more than I love myself. I wake up feeling happy, beyond anything I've ever felt before. I even have a ri- the ring!"
I get up and frantically search my pants for the box. Fuck! I dropped it somewhere!
"No no no"
"Ray what's wrong?"
"I dropped it, I dropped it somewhere holy son of a Fuck"
I start to pull up my pants and run towards the front. I see Shawn came back and was sitting at their table holding the box.
"Did you ask her?"
"No, I couldn't find the ring."
"Did you sleep with her?"
I didn't want to make this more awkward, and she might come out to hear us. He turned to me and asked again with tears in his eyes.
"I said, did you sleep with her?!"
"Yes, we slept together! Shawn, I'm sorry I took her away from you but I really do love her. If you loved her too-
"I do love her, more than you or anyone else ever could! I was going to tell her but then YOU showed up and-"
"What's going on?" We both turn around to see Christa at the door of the bunks. Fuck
"Ray, I think it's time for you to go. I have to talk with Shawn."
"Alright, I understand. Good night."
I didn't know whether to take the ring from him or just go, so I left without another word.
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The next few days I couldn't even go near christa. I know she'll try to give Shawn a chance
which means I go back to feeling regular.
"Ray, you ok? You haven't talked to Christa in a while."
"I asked her to marry me after we slept together and her guitarist is in love with her and found the ring. She said she'd talk to him but I'm pretty sure this means we're over."
I told Mikey everything. For once in my life I broke down and began to cry. He hugged me for a while as I just sobbed like a baby.
"I really want her back Mikey. Stuff hurts."
"You need to have a conversation with a rock star."
We both laughed at the song she dedicated to me a couple weeks on tour as a anniversary gift. I really do...
