The Only Hope For Me Is...

I find out Christa’s band icon for hire is from Chicago. That’s pretty fuckin' cool. She texts me to go to this small bar uptown, and god did it suck. The place smelled, there were drunks everywhere, and a prostitute almost made me pay her. Fuck, they must be really new.

Christa happens to see me as i walk in, so she runs and jumps over like 5 guys trying to grab her and meets me.

"Hi! So glad to see you, you're just in luck. We’re about to start and there's a seat right in front.”she winks and heads back to the stage. When i sit down, i notice the other members are staring at me and whispering to each other. i hear "new guy" and "why?!". i ignore this and wait for the show to start.

the lights fade as a song starts to play. she gets to the front and starts singing. she looks like a fucking angel, and she's smiling at me.

when the hope of morning starts to fade in me
i don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac

she's a fucking goddess. her voice is so beautiful, i didn't even realize i was clapping loud as hell. what ever, she still laughed.

half way through the show, she says "i dedicate this song to the guy in front. we can stay sick forever ray."

this song is awesome! halfway through she jumps into the crowd right in front of me and grabs my hand. she pulls me to the center of the room and a spotlight hits.

if you’re happy and you know it
then there might be something wrong with you
what’s the point in holding on
when all of us don’t want you to
it’d make us feel better,
knowing you’d be stuck forever
sick minds stick together
we can stay sick forever

she gets really close, and i can hear people cheering. what should i do? this would be the perfect time to-

just as the song ends, she kisses me.she actually kissed me. i try to hold on for a little while, but she pulled away and said "thanks for coming everyone!" and headed towards the stage. i'm standing there like an idiot for about 5 minutes and then someone throws something at me.
"hey, dude? your friend is calling you" the random guy points to the stage and her whole band is staring.well, fuck.

im at the stage and she introduces me to the band. there's adam on drums who is a really buff dude that looks like he could kill me. theres josh on bass, he reminds me of mikey. they'd probably be close. then there's the guitarist shawn who just openly ignores me. weird.

"so guys, ray is in a band too!" shawn rolls his eyes and mutters something under his breath. "what's your band called?" "my chemical romance." "you've got to be shitting me." adam and josh both look like they just heard something insane. "no wonder you look familiar!!! dude, shawn is like your biggest fan! we all are really." josh was jumping with joy, but shawn wouldn't even look at me. he actually just left.

"is there something wrong with him? did i do something offensive?" adam and josh just shrug, then christa pulls me to the side.

"listen, about that kiss... i just wanted to tell you that i really like you. usually when i perform i never go into the audience, or kiss guys i barely know. this might seem crazy but-"

i cut her off with a kiss. the best damn kiss i could possibly give apparently, because when we stop her jaw is left wide open.

"Christa, would you like to be my girlfriend? i would ask you on a date, but im just so crazy about you that, i don't want to wait." "i would love to be your girlfriend ray, i was actually gonna ask you on a date." "sick minds think alike!"

she laughs and we both hear adam and josh cheering in the background. before i knew it, she said " WE'RE FINALLY TOGETHER!!!" they all run up to each other in a group hug then she practically tackles me down.

since i had to go to the studio the next day, i couldn't stay that long with the band. she had stuff to do, so while i was outside i got to see shawn.

"hey man, nice show tonight!" he ignores me, and packs stuff with anger. "um shawn, did i do something to offend you?" he slams the last box into the truck and screams "no shit sherlock! you took christa away from me!"

Notes

it seems as though we have a conflict on our hands

*maniacal villan finger tap