Save Me From My Self-Destruction

I woke up alone on the sofa. I looked at the clock on the wall. It was 11pm.
I sat up, looking around for Gerard. He wasn’t in here and the TV was off.
I went into the kitchen, still wrapped in my blanket, yawing. The light was on, so I looked round the door frame. Mikey and Gerard were both at the table in pyjamas and they were both drinking coffee. “So, Frank’s gonna stay with us until he get better.” Gerard said to Mikey. Mikey nodded and smiled, sipping his coffee.
“Where’s he gonna stay?” Mikey asked.
“Here, with us. In my room, or yours.” Gerard said. I didn’t have a crush on Gerard; it was just a little thing for him. His face, his hair, his eyes, his talent –singing or drawing or both – and just him. I wanted to stay here with the Ways, it was better than home.
“I don’t mind.” Mikey shrugged.
“Didn’t you say you had a thing for Frank?” Gerard smirked.
Mikey looked down and blushed. I smiled, holding the blanket closer to me.
“N-no, I didn’t.” Mikey stuttered.
“Yeah, sure.” Gerard scoffed.
“I don’t!” Mikey whined, his cheeks pink. I was blushing too.
“You do! You really do!” Gerard laughed.
“Fine- fine, you got me. I fucking do, okay?” Mikey hid his face in his hands. “I have a thing for Frank….But don’t act like you don’t either!”
Gerard laughed and danced in his chair. I decided to make my entrance now. I picked up my sleepy act and waddled into the kitchen, yawing.
Gerard smirked at Mikey and came over to me. He picked me up and settled me in his lap. Mikey smiled at me and I smiled back sleepily. Gerard smirked at Mikey again, making Mikey visibly uncomfortable.
“I don’t-“ I started, yawing. “Get your whole, ‘conversations with a look’ thing.”
“Me and Mikey are clever.” Gerard said.
“No, I’m clever, you’re a dick.” Mikey said, drinking his coffee. I giggled and got off Gerard’s lap. I shuffled over to Mikey and whispered “I think I get it.” In his ear
“Get what?” He asked.
“Brother logic.” I whispered, and waddled away to Gerard, hiding my face and not looking back at Mikey. Gerard frowned, shrugging.
“Anyway, Frank. You can live here until you’re better, okay?” Gerard said. I nodded. “Mikey has a bigger room than me, so you can stay there, okay?” I nodded a little faster. Mikey was blushing still, hiding behind his coffee mug.
“I don’t snore, I promise.” I smiled at Mikey.
“I don’t either.” Mikey shrugged. I bit my lip ring nervously.
“Should I like…go up there now or…?” I asked. Gerard smiled
“If you want?” Mikey said quietly, shrugging. I nodded and went up.
I ran up to Mikey’s room and sat on his bed. I was gonna put some pyjamas on, but I didn’t have my own. I walked to the landing and shouted “Can I borrow pyjamas?”
“Yes!” came Mikey’s voice. I nearly fell over at the sound of that. I went back to Mikey’s room and searched through his draws. I found one full of jeans, one full of shirts and hoodies, another with socks and his underwear in and the bottom one had pyjamas in them. I looked through and found a Batman set. It was long sleeved- perfect. I got undressed and folded my clothes. I was standing in my boxers when someone knocked on the door.
“Hang on!” I said, struggling to get into Mikey’s pyjamas. I got tangled in the shirt a bit, but I got it on. They hung off me, the bottoms were over my feet and the sleeves came over my hands.
I padded towards the door carefully; I didn’t want to trip and break my face. I opened the door to see Mikey. I looked up and waved innocently, my sleeve flapping about. Mikey blushed and smiled “Found some?”
“Yes.” I nodded. I turned around and sat at Mikey’s desk. “Where am I gonna sleep?”
Mikey looked down and sat on his bed “I don’t know…I never thought about that, Frank…”
“We could always get lots of pillows and blankets and make me a bed or something…” I suggested. Mikey looked up at me, his eyes sparkling.
“Or, we could get lots of blankets and pillows and build a den or something and watch Lord Of The Rings or Star Wars.”
I nodded and smiled “Yeah, let’s do that.” I got up and took Mikey’s wrist in my hand and pulled him downstairs again.
I dragged him into the living room and grabbed the blanket I had earlier and threw a couple of pillows at Mikey. He caught them and laughed. I found another blanket and picked that up too. We were just about to go back upstairs when-
“What are you two doing?” came Gerard’s voice. It startled me and Mikey sighed.
“Making Frank a bed, duh.” Mikey said, fixing his glasses. Gerard rolled his eyes and went down to his room.
Mikey and I continued our journey up to his room quietly.
We went inside and Mikey shut the door. He turned the dimmer light down a bit too. I was slightly confused about him. He came over and started to lay the pillows out on his bed. I thought we were gonna make it on the floor.
I held the blankets while Mikey set the pillows out. I watched him puff the pillows up, rearrange them and puff them up again. “Blanket, Frank.” He said. I handed him one and he covered the pillows with it. He held his arm out and I put another blanket on his arm. Mikey started to put it around the back of the pillows. I watched him and yawned, I wasn’t bored I was tired. Mikey took the last blanket and placed it on the bed. “Come on, get in.” he pulled me over and sat me down.
I smiled sleepily and let Mikey pull the covers around me. I yawned, suddenly feeling very tired. He turned the TV on and turned the DVD player on. The opening to Star Wars played. I yawned again and curled up under the fleecy cover. Mikey patted my shoulder “Tired?”
“Yeah…”I mumbled. He pulled me closer and played with my hair. If there was one thing I learned about the Way’s in the past three years, it was how affectionate they are. Especially with me. Maybe it was because I was so innocent… never had a first kiss, blowjob or a handjob let alone have sex, never drank alcohol, done drugs or smoked in my life. I was innocent to them.
I started to fall asleep, but I was awoken by a knock at the door “Mikey!” came Gerard’s voice.
“Yeah?” Mikey said. “Come in.”
Gerard opened the door and I rolled over woozily. I landed face first into the pillow next to me. Mikey pulled me back up, I was limp so I didn’t struggle.
“What’s up with Frank?” Gerard asked, sitting on the edge of the bed.
Mikey shrugged. “I dunno….I’ve never watched a movie with an anorexic before.”#
I smiled weakly “M sleepy.” I mumbled, rolling over onto Mikey’s shoulder.
“Can I watch Star Wars with you guys?” Gerard asked, laughing a bit. Mikey nodded and Gerard got under the covers with us, squishing Mikey up to the end of the bed. I was in the middle of them both, the Way scent filling my nose. I snuggled into the fleeces more and sighed. Gerard put one arm around me at the same time Mikey did. They held me close and kept me warm, as I get cold very easily. I soon fell asleep on Gerard’s shoulder.

Notes

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