Dig It

Me and frank skipped school the next day, we walked around the mall, we joked, smoked and just messed around until I spotted ray, I looked away as he saw me and frank, frank looked over and smiled I want you to meet somebody, my eyes widened as he dragged me over to ray.

"Gee this is ray" he smiled, I looked up at him nervously, he looked at frank, our hands then me, I let go of frank and shook rays hands, this is gunna be a fucking fun day.

All three of us when to a cafe just down the street from the mall, frank and ray joked and laughing, I looked at my feet the hold time still holding frank hand, I was in my own world till frank squeezed me hand snapping me out of my daydream.

"Gerard? Are you okay? You seem distracted" he asked looking concerned.

I looked at him then quickly looked at ray, he was facing forwards but looking nervous too.

"a-uh- y-yeah! Yes I. Am. Oooookay" I ask smiled, I seemed pretty obvious I was nervous and scared but frank just shrugged it off, he finally got to the cafe, we sat at the back left corner next to the window, frank went off to get our coffee's leaving me a ray sitting there in silence.

"Um about last night i-i" I said as I broke the awkwardness

"I get it, you were emotional, I just didn't know you were my bestfriends boyfriend" I shrugged off

"w-what? 'Bestfriend?' "

"Yeah, frank and I have been best buds since kindergarden, I just moved away for awhile" I confessed.

Before I could even answer frank came back holding a tray with 3 coffees on, the rest of the day I was silent stunned at what ray had told me, what the fuck have I done, frank and ray were ignoring me because I was so quiet, it began to get slightly dark out, I looked at my phone it said it was '5:30'.

"Shit guys I gotta go i-ill see you" I stuttered, slipping my phone back in my pocket, I ran out the shop before any of them could answer, was this franks karmer? Was it my way of punishing him for what he did to me? I didn't have a clue I just prayed he'd never find out.

I ran home, threw my clothes on the floor as soon as I set foot in my room and hoped in the shower, soaking my pale body and greasy black hair, I got out of the steam and wrapped a towel around my waist, I went back in my room to see frank sitting cross legged on the bed, the window was open to I guess he snuck in, he looked at me it wasn't the happy loving look he usually gave me, he was pissed with glassy eyes.

"What are you doing here" I stuttered, frank scoffed at me, he flipped his phone of and began to play something, I didn't see the screen all I heard were moan, gasps and groans 'shit'

"Frank i-i"

"You think I wouldn't follow you?" He laughed "I saw and heard everything! gerard" he hissed

"I-i didn't me-m" I couldn't push the words out

"I know I did fucked up things to you when you were a girl and shit but fuck my best friend? and not expect him to tell me you're wrong"

I didn't say anything to him, I realised I was still wearing just a towel, my scars and old cuts were showing, I starred at frank who was not pissed off


"You're useless, why did I stop you from killing yourself, I regret everything I did for you" he hissed and walked out the bedroom down, pushing me into wall, I looked down at me feet not bothering to cover up, I threw on jeans and a hoodie, leaving my hair wet, I stormed down the stairs ignoring mikey's and my mom's questions, I slammed the door and walked out in the rain, I knew where my thoughts were telling me to go.






Hollows Bridge.

This is it.

Goodbye.

Notes

btw this story is NOT finished if you thought is was.