Dig It

I whipped my tears as I continued to storm down the street then off of the main roads, I crossed my arms hugging myself to keep warm, street lights lit up my path to freedom from this pain, frank was right I did deserve to die, who would want someone so fucked up and selfish in this world, I didn't leave a note so I decided to text mikey and frank, I sent them both the same thing;

*i'm sorry for everything I did, the things I ever said, I think this is the right thing to do, I can't be in pain anymore, I'm a failure of a person, who would want someone so fucked up, weird and unwanted, I'm sorry but I thing you won't miss me just celebrate the fact you have one less person to deal with, ill see you on the other side, I love you so much, I guess this is goodbye.*

I cried and hit send, I could hear the sound of water crashing down, I was near the bridge, there was no turning back I took off my hoodie and shoes, I stopped just under the orange gaze of the light, I sniffed and exhaled, I looked up as the rain hit my face, I watched the stars shine, I took in the last of the world before it was away from me, I put my feet on a part of the wood and hauled myself up, I threw my legs over the edge and sat there, taking in the wetness that feel on my skin, I let my feet hand over the 120ft drop, I looked down and breathed in, I stood up only my hands holding me on the edge, as I was about to let go I felt someone grab my body and throw me down on the other side of rail, the sat on the wet hard floor cradling me back and forth, I began to hold there shirt tight.

"let me die please" I sobbed harder

"I'm not letting you go baby" they kept hold of me kissing the top of my soaking wet hair

"I didn't mean too, I didn't!" I told them

"I didn't mean to say what I said I was just mad, forgive me baby please please" frank began to sob, I'd never seen him like this, from the dick who stood me up and played me saving my life and crying while holding me

"I love you frankie" I sniffed, I sat up hugging him tight, "I love you too gerard" he whispered in my ear "so much baby, please never leave" he continued I didn't answer, I was freezing, my feet were wet and I just wanted to go home, frank picked me up leaving my things behind and I began to see strange, then my world turned black, everything was silent, for now.

Notes

I feel sad now ..